My Weary Obituary

This the obituary I should have wrote
This the obituary I wanted to write 

But I was too caught up
I’m still caught up 
caught in regret
wanting to turn it back
but I can’t

You always knew what everyone else wanted
but no one knew what you wanted
or did they?
did I?

You got me a shirt that said arctic proof
did that mean that the cold couldn’t keep me?
if so, it was true
did you mean my heart was solid ice all the way thru?
if so, that was true 

You got me a shirt with Gambit and all his muse
yup that was true too
I never made any sacrifices tho
guess I was never that bold

I wish I coulda held space for you
I wish I knew what it meant back then
I wish I knew how to listen back then
I wish I coulda held you and hugged you

I took what I had for granted
even tho it so hard for you

I wish i had humility
rather than my need for victory 

Thanks for waking me up
from the nightmare I dreamed of

In the moment I was hurtin and cursin
I wish I coulda told you
that YOU are the strongest person
I hope you know
I know you do