The Ways And The Waves Of God (Inner Vows).

Have you ever been hurt by someone so deeply that you vowed you would never trust anyone like that ever again?
I have.
 I had also forgotten all about it until one day  I noticed a pattern in my life that was problematic involving intimacy in relationships.
I had developed some type of calloused or abscessed area around some of my thoughts and emotions.
Itwas creating a negative impact on my behavior im many of my adult relationships.
I needed heavy amounts of drugs and alcohol in order to allow myself to be open and affectionate.
However, that complicated matters due to the lack of boundaries and impaired judgement in sexual activity.
I was either too hot or too cold when it came to my style of communication.
The same filtered into my clumsy attempts and failures at developing a relationship wit a Higher Power.
It all stemmed from an undealt with inner vow that I made in my youth.
The affect of the unforgiveness created a a desensitized area of my life.
I lacked the abilty to feel.
It wasn't until that inner vow was dealt with and forgiveness was given that I became free to experience God's forgiveness and His love.
His love was there... I just could accept it or feel it.
Inner vows might seem rather childish or harmless on the surface.
Undealt with, they can produce years worth of relationship issues with God and with one another.
God helps us experience freedom from the negative affects of inner vows, lack of trust, and unforgiveness.
Let's let the Helper help us!