Are you ready for candid, unfiltered insights into the world of domination and submission? I'm Chastity Queen, your Guide through this often misunderstood lifestyle. Embarking on My journey to becoming a Cuckoldress was anything but straightforward, filled with confusion and fear.
The world of Domme and sub is as complex as it is fascinating. Throughout my journey, I've confronted the harsh realities of finding a genuine connection within this community. My demisexual orientation has shaped my attraction process, leading me to prioritize inner connection over physical appearance, a factor that is often misunderstood.
As a Domme, I've had my fair share of misconceptions and stigmas to contend with. I pledge to debunk the stereotype of Dommes being cold and uncaring, emphasizing that we too have our strengths and weaknesses just like in any other. Respect and kindness should be paramount in our community, an aspect that is unfortunately often overlooked. Doubts about a potential sub’s sincerity have compelled me to explore other options, but rest assured, my journey is far from over. Here's to navigating the intriguing realm of domination and submission together!
Are you ready for candid, unfiltered insights into the world of domination and submission? I'm Chastity Queen, your Guide through this often misunderstood lifestyle. Embarking on My journey to becoming a Cuckoldress was anything but straightforward, filled with confusion and fear.
The world of Domme and sub is as complex as it is fascinating. Throughout my journey, I've confronted the harsh realities of finding a genuine connection within this community. My demisexual orientation has shaped my attraction process, leading me to prioritize inner connection over physical appearance, a factor that is often misunderstood.
As a Domme, I've had my fair share of misconceptions and stigmas to contend with. I pledge to debunk the stereotype of Dommes being cold and uncaring, emphasizing that we too have our strengths and weaknesses just like in any other. Respect and kindness should be paramount in our community, an aspect that is unfortunately often overlooked. Doubts about a potential sub’s sincerity have compelled me to explore other options, but rest assured, my journey is far from over. Here's to navigating the intriguing realm of domination and submission together!
Thank you for tuning in to Diaries of a Dom, plus questions answered With me. Chastity Queen, I want to thank you for being my listener and thank you for subscribing. I have been sick for a good week and I am finally back to my old self. So thank you for your patience and thank you for your support. I really do appreciate it. So today I want to do a hypnosis, a cuckoldress hypnosis, for all of you chaste men who either fantasize about becoming a cuck or who are living the dream as a cuck. But before the hypnosis begins, don't forget to subscribe to my only fans under Chastity Queen, where I have 8.3 thousand photos to enjoy. I have 924 videos and I have lots more coming in the future. So many more events, so many more adventures and so many more interesting updates and new revelations about my cuckolders lifestyle. So go there. You can also go to lockedinlustcom and get yourself the inescapable vice, and you can use my promo code Chastity Queen for 15% off. Now you can also go on that website, and anything on that website will also be discounted using my promo code Chastity Queen.
Speaker 1:
So today I think it's important, since we've had a bit of a hiatus, that I give you a little bit of a background as to what's going on in my life. As you know, bunny has wanted me to be a cuckoldress for some time and admitted it well over a year ago and it's been a bit of a journey in the search for a man to serve me long term. So the hypnosis will come. But first I want to talk a bit about that journey and how it makes me feel as a dom, as well as how does it make my cuck feel, and maybe you can relate. So sit back, relax and let me fill you in on the latest and the greatest of my journey.
Speaker 1:
Just to summarize, when I was first asked if I would like to begin the adventure as a cuckoldress, I had many things to think about, and one of the things that I had to consider was who would be so fortunate as to be sexually involved with me. Now I had been with my chaste submissive for six years maybe five years and three quarters and I had not been with anybody else. So that was a whole new concept, a new consideration for me, and I, being chastity queen, tend to be very particular about sexuality and how we express ourselves sexually, especially between two people, and I suppose I got comfortable in my masturbation routine and I had a lot of help in that area with Bunny, being that he was a submissive slave to me and was in chastity for the majority of our relationship, with the odd time out when I would use him for sex. So now Bunny wanted to embrace the chastity and cuck lifestyle even more and I felt very alone and I felt afraid. I felt confused, and I think that I approached everything at first wondering what was wrong with me.
Speaker 1:
Now, as you look into what being a cuck means, it usually involves a man who wants to see his partner pleasured, and I can go the same way with a woman who can desire her husband to be with multiple women and or another woman and be pleasured, and she enjoys watching. So it's fluid really. Gender is fluid. So when I say man and woman, there's everything in between as well. So let's just put that out there right now. I don't want to get too stuck in these gender norms, but in my case Bunny's a man, I'm a woman and we're going to talk in those terms.
Speaker 1:
So the fear for me was who am I going to trust? Easy for me engaging with somebody and becoming strong within relationship involves a lot of trust, a lot of openness, giving in, and as a DOM, that is something that is somewhat foreign. It is not comfortable to feel out of control, and when you are in a relationship and you give of yourself and you fall in love and you commit, that is giving up control to a certain degree, in that you have allowed yourself to open up, you've allowed your heart to open up. So now I need to define another person to place in my heart. That takes a lot of work, it takes a lot of effort too.
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So, in thinking over the years that I had as a pro DOM and I never engaged with my heart or sexually with anybody that was a client, the only person that I could really think of, or people I should actually say there were two that I considered had been clients and I had built a rapport with them, I had created a connection, even though there was no sexual chemistry or sexual, I can't say there was no sexual chemistry, but there was no sex. And so now that I was given the green light to start searching, that basically was the only place that I could turn to for any consideration of somebody that I might be comfortable with and feel safe with and open with, and they knew my standards, they knew what I wouldn't do and so, to add in the element of sex with them, would have felt safe. So I asked both of those gentlemen, and one was a foot lover, the other one enjoys scarves and sensual play, and that and the younger of the two, closer to 30 but not right on 30, said he would give it a shot. He wasn't sure at first, but then he would give it a shot and he really did care for me. He in fact said he loved me and that if he was going to do it with anybody it would be with me. So that began. We had a first interaction, a non-sexual interaction, with Bunny and the room on the bed, blindfolded, and I did some oral on this man and from there we decided, yes, this was going to be a good threesome, a good partnership for me to have a man who is sort of slave like and has a nice cock, who would service me with that penis, and there would be an emotional connection.
Speaker 1:
So fast forward, a few months in, he got a job. He was busy with that and things just didn't pan out. He had to focus in on his career and that was fine. So I broached the subject with the other man. He said he would consider it. We set up a hotel date and it fell through. He had family, that got COVID, so it fell through. So I was beginning to feel quite frustrated because I had really put my efforts into the first man and that fell through.
Speaker 1:
I attempted with the second man, who I really did like I do, like he's a wonderful person and I would still interact with him if he were able to do so, but he's got his own family as well, so it's very difficult. Then we got a membership at a sex club because I thought, well, maybe the best way to go about it is to do something that is arm's length, there's no real connection, and Bunny gets his cock fix and I am sexually satisfied, which I really wasn't being sexually satisfied at all in my relationship and I mean deal, those are one thing, but to have that human connection is very, very nice. So we went to the club. I was determined that I was going to do it and I did it and it was okay. It just was lackluster, I think, and I know that it's because there is no connection. So I was beginning to become more and more frustrated not sexually so much so, but emotionally about the situation, and I could have at any time said to Bunny no, we're not doing it, I'm going to unlock you now and then have sex with you. But I am a person that really wants to try.
Speaker 1:
And so I ended up having a dinner meeting with a man and he's long distance and it seemed to go well and we've had a few interactions and I gave him a tag claiming his is my property, and yet there's an emptiness for me. I just I don't want to cry. It's been a challenge. It's, you know, when I see him it's fine, but there's just been some red flags and he's a respectable person, you know, in society, and he's more my age, he's lovely, but the other night I just felt that I'm not getting the focus that I need from somebody in my life and I think maybe that's partially because, you know, I'm a queen, I'm a dom and I really want somebody whether it be a pleasure slave or, you know, my cuck or whoever it is to really, you know, do it on me and to care about what I'm doing during the day, and Bunny's very good in that area. Excuse me for the crying, but I just need that sexual connection, I need that person.
Speaker 1:
And I thought I'd found the person finally in this man. And you know he wanted to be on a contract and I just felt that he's just not ready. He's just not because he's just so involved with his work and it just seems like people do all of the hard work at the beginning and then, once they feel that they have me, it's done. It's as if you don't need to try anymore. You think, well, I've captured her heart, so that's it. I can just text her when I want and interact with my fetish when I want, and she will oblige. And of course I am a kind hearted person. But I will tell you, you know, it gets to a point where I get I mean, right now I'm emotional but it gets to a point where I get very jaded and frustrated about this.
Speaker 1:
And you know I get into looking at what the interactions were between myself and this new gentleman. You know, at the beginning we had a great time, we had fun, but he would interact with other people and I found that to be disrespectful, especially when I've put aside two days to be with a person and they are interacting and laughing and chatting with another woman and I am a queen and I am choosing them to be that important person in my life and you know they want it so badly. And then I completely fulfill their fetish fantasies. So what they want, I mean, I can achieve pretty much anything in my dom hood my domination, my skills. I love to dominate, I love to be a pleaser top and I love to engage with a person's fetish. But the problem is when that's all it is about is to give them their fetish fix and I'm left still wanting. Then that's when I have to question if this is right. So I just find that and I don't know if this is a masculine trait, but probably not, it's just a human trait is that some people take others for granted.
Speaker 1:
So you never want to take a person for granted and I certainly, you know, can go out and find men and have a tension and affection. But for me it's more than just sacks. I don't want to go out and just claim all sorts of men and have sex, and it goes beyond, you know, the hygiene, the safety, the, the health issue it's more about. You know, I feel empty in those interactions, I don't feel fulfilled emotionally because really, for me, a DS partnership is a mental gratification first, and then the pleasure, the, the play, the, the fun comes secondary.
Speaker 1:
I am demisexual, which means I am attracted to the person inside before I become attracted to the person on the outside. And I'm telling you something it's so true, I could look at a man and not have any initial attraction, and it doesn't matter if he is the most handsome man on the planet. But it's when he opens his mouth and he speaks and he shows his heart through his speech, that's when I feel that attachment, that connection, and that's when I feel the attraction. And then the look, their looks, become associated with that feeling. So that's the demisexual in me. And you know I used to call myself pansexual. So you know I'm not really concerned about gender. Really I'm not. But I do lean towards enjoying men over women.
Speaker 1:
I have attempted lesbian interactions with other females, with one, and it just fell flat. I just didn't enjoy it very much. I ended up being the pleaser. Not that I just couldn't do pussy worship, that kind of thing. It just didn't turn me on at all. So what does my future like? Will there be a woman? I don't know, I just don't know.
Speaker 1:
I just I think it's important that I find somebody who cares about me, that really genuinely cares about me and just doesn't look at me like I'm a dom, you know. I think that people have to realize that there's a persona that everybody puts out to the public you know their face and the face of the dom, for example, in porn, in literature, in photos is always a strong woman who doesn't give a shit about anybody but herself, and maybe she's a bitch and maybe she's fine with that, she's confident. And I'm not trying to say everybody is that, I'm just saying there is this societal opinion of what a dominatrix is and that she doesn't need anybody, you know, and yet she can have anybody. So it's a very appealing thing to consider when you're a man and you enjoy strong, confident females. So you know, I think that the most important thing in any relationship is consistency, you know, being sincere, and I honestly feel that there's a lack of sincerity in this world.
Speaker 1:
I think that most people are out for themselves and for their needs, and I know that at a base level we all have specific selfish needs that must be fulfilled to. You know, stay happy to be sexual, to get what we want. But then there's a different level of, maybe ego and narcissism. That is more so a disorder where you use people for your own pleasure. And though many men think that that's fabulous, you know a woman will use me for her pleasure, that's great. But when there's a give and take, it's so much better. It really is, it's so much better.
Speaker 1:
And you know, as a Dom, I was going to do a hypno, but I just don't think I can today. I don't know, I'm just very frustrated right now. So you know, in regards to this gentleman that I've been seeing, you know I've given him such an easy road. There's been tough times with, you know me expecting him to do certain things and he has followed through. That's been great. But I've been patient as well.
Speaker 1:
You know when he's ignoring me and focusing on other people, when he is focused on his job or when he is spamming me with you know interactions about his fetish and I am obliging him with responses, and then when it's my turn, well, he's busy or he's going to sleep. So it's a one-sided. And you know, I told him it's similar to a Dom in a drawer you open it when you want to look at her, use her, and you shut it when you're not in the mood, and you know, when you're dealing with somebody who has a really good heart and good intentions and you do that to them, then I think that there is a behavior that is repetitive and it is embedded. So when I put my foot down and said, look, if you want to interact with me, it's going to cost you this amount, et cetera, et cetera, well, you know he wasn't so happy about that and he's trying to appease me with a good morning and a good night, and otherwise it's just very minimal. So I think what he needs is a freebie whenever he comes into town. And you know he says he wants to continue building on the foundation that we have, but unfortunately, the foundation is full of holes. And so I started interacting with a new gentleman and I'm going to meet him for dinner on Saturday. We've had some good chats. He's very lovely, he's not long distance, he is close to me, he has his own home, he has his own career as well and he's got a lot of respect and he comes from a background with a lot of heart and a lot of emotion, and this is something that I think that I need in my world.
Speaker 1:
As I said, that picture of what a Dom is like, be careful about boxing somebody up. You know, having a confident, attractive corset, wearing high heel boot, wearing woman in your life is fabulous. But remember under all of those things, under that scene, for example so she's going to be that way during a scene and remember when the scene stops. She is human, she really is and obviously there are going to be in any areas. There's going to be narcissists, there's going to be covert narcissists, there's going to be malignant narcissists, there's going to be communal narcissists. There's going to be your classic narcissist and that's a disorder. And yes, there are many of those that are doms that function quite successfully in that role because they don't have to have there is no need for empathy, because they really don't have that. That's not in their psyche. They don't need it to survive. They do what they do to survive and that's all that matters. And you know what it works for some submissives and some slaves. They love it and if that's what you want, that's great.
Speaker 1:
But there are many of us who are listening or who are out there that have become disenchanted in being a dom because there is an expectation that we are tough and cold and callous and that we're greedy and that we're just in it for money. And you know, I have to say one thing first of all, I'm a dom. Yes, this is also how I make my money. Does that make me a bad person? You know, if you're an executive in a company, you consider yourself an executive and you get paid well to be an executive. But that doesn't detract from the fact that you're still a human and you can be a good executive. You can be a bad executive. Do you understand what I'm saying? You could be a great executive of that company and make good money. That doesn't mean you're greedy, that just means you're good at what you do.
Speaker 1:
So I wish that men in particular would stop looking at women like me as just a money grabber. You know, if you take your wife out, you take your girlfriend out for dinner, take her out shopping, you don't think twice about paying, unless you're a cheap man. Right, you're frugal. But let's put those guys aside, because those guys are just a whole animal of themselves. You treat her well, you make her feel like a princess, a queen, because guess what, the rewards are huge. You know it's good for the relationship and she will oblige with you as well, she will give you gifts, she will do things for you, and that's a good back and forth. That's a yin and yang of beauty.
Speaker 1:
But men who see a DOM online think, oh, she's just going to be a fin dom, out for my money and I'm going to squeeze her so dry and give her 25 bucks, you know, as a consolation prize, basically, or even nothing. Sometimes they promise and they don't follow through. I mean, that's just disrespect. It really is. It's disrespect. So, you know, treat people with kindness. That's how I go about my life and I think that's how we all need to walk through this world with kindness.
Speaker 1:
You know, some people decide well, I've been treated so poorly and I've been so trusting and I've been taken advantage of that. I'm going to start to be just like them. And there are DOMs like that too. You know, they get a hard shell and nobody can crack it, because they have opened their hearts up to somebody, or maybe some slaves or submissives in a session, and become friends with them and been used, and they just decide fine, you see a certain picture of what a DOM is. Well, I'm going to be her, I'm going to be her, I'm going to be a bitch, I'm not going to think twice about taking your money and I'm going to throw you away just like garbage when I'm done with you, right? Well, thanks and good-bye.
Speaker 1:
And there's subs like that too. What happens is it perpetuates the same behavior. So then the slave or the sub is treated poorly. So fine, I'm gonna start using the doms and they start taking advantage of them. They start saying, well, okay, here's a couple bucks, or I'm gonna buy you something and act like, oh, they're the best woman on the planet. And then they start to ask for fantasy talk. And you know, let's get together for dinner and there's nothing in return. Or, okay, I'll give you a little something, and then I'll give you nothing. Because guess what? Oh, poor little me, poor little sub me, has been taken advantage of.
Speaker 1:
Well, I'm telling you, it's a vicious circle, it's an absolute vicious circle. We need to treat each other with kindness. None of us are going to be free of abuse one way or another, whether it be emotional, physical relationship. It happens and it's not our fault it really isn't. But it becomes our problem when we start to lash out.
Speaker 1:
And you know, there's been many times listeners when I have wanted to just say fuck it, I'm going to go into complete and utter zero heart land and not give shit and it just is not me. It's just not me. I can't live happily in that empty space. I really can't. And I know that there are a lot of women out there who are doms, who have embraced it and they have had to Because there's been so much bad behavior, so many stigmas about us that you become hardened and when somebody comes along and they soften your heart and you open up to them, like I did with this recent one not the one I'm talking to right now, but the one I talked to about the putting the DOM in the drawer, just pulling her out when you want her, you know I opened my heart to that person.
Speaker 1:
I never kiss anybody, never, even as a cuckoldress. I just I'm not into it, like when I went to the club. No, not going to kiss, not going to do oral on someone, on their mouth, on their crotch, anywhere, I'm not doing it. To me that's a personal emotional exchange of love, you know, and I gave that to that man and I just don't trust that he's sincere. I want him to be sincere, I really do, but I think that I have questions now. You know, I've given him a lot of my patience in the past.
Speaker 1:
It's been maybe five, over five months now and that's why I decided I think I'm going to start to connect with others and I met this nice gentleman who's going to take me for dinner on Saturday and I'm going to see where that goes, because my loyalty is very strong when it comes to interacting with individuals and if I've decided you're my person, then I'm sticking with you. And I felt that with this previous one. You know, but I don't know if it's real. So I'm going to update you as things go on. I have a good feeling about this gentleman. We've had some talks on the phone and, without asking, without prompting, he offered to purchase me a couple pieces of nice lingerie, which was very, very nice. But I mean, at the end of the day, it's not the things that matter, it's the consistency, it's the integrity, it's all of that. So anyway, I should go.
Speaker 1:
This is, I'm sorry, not a hypno. It was going to be. I can do a hypno later. I don't want it to be a downer, I'm just. You know, I was sick and then all of this has happened.
Speaker 1:
So the cuckolder's journey is not a simple one. Let's just say that. And I don't know if it's just me, but I'm not going to make myself out as unique. I think there's a lot of domes out there who are approaching the cuckolders thing with very unsure feelings, unsure emotions. And you have to know what your limits are. You have to know what you want and what you don't want. And if you don't want multiple partners, you don't have to.
Speaker 1:
You know, being a cuckolder isn't just about having a black bull, right? I mean, that's just, that's just so. Porn, right, and I know that's what gets me off sometimes, but it's just not realistic and not for every dom. And I'm a queen and I just believe in chastity, so much and denial, and I deny myself and I want rich, exciting, quality experiences. You know that might not be for everybody. Some people don't want the commitment, so going to the club and having sex every single time is just up their alley. But I mean, I've been there over probably over a dozen times. I've only had sex once.
Speaker 1:
So you know it's individual, it really is, it's individual. And you know what we all get hurt, right, and it's painful, it really is. But you have to sit there and say look like, is this working? And if it's not, you have to change it. So I've not given up on the cuckolder's life. I just believe that I need somebody who's going to commit to be my third person, a long-term relationship, and it will be a richer, funner, more personal experience. So thank you again for listening. I appreciate your patience with me. Right now I was very sick, I could hardly talk so I couldn't even podcast and I was chomping at the bid to podcast. So don't worry, there's going to be a lot more. Where this came from, I apologize for getting emotional. I think there's nothing worse than being with somebody but feeling alone, so I'll just put that there. Anyway, bye for now.
