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Episode 42| ASMR Hip Hop Saved my Life

October 30, 2023 Momma Queue Season 1 Episode 42
Episode 42| ASMR Hip Hop Saved my Life
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Episode 42| ASMR Hip Hop Saved my Life
Oct 30, 2023 Season 1 Episode 42
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Hey! Hi! It’s me MommaQueue. I welcome you to Moments in Queue ASMR episode. In this episode I will titilate your ear with my voice and random sounds. 

In Queue today: 60 seconds of heaven > What’s going on > it’s giving > Let’s get it popping> and croak on the joke. 

I share amusing anecdotes about my own first-date experiences and shed light on how my relationships have metamorphosed me over the years. On a more serious note, we take a microscopic look at the influence of hip-hop culture, dissecting the impact it has had on society and the role it has played in shaping narratives, particularly around police brutality and seductive lyrics. 

Music is a powerful conduit of emotions, often serving as a therapeutic aid during our lowest periods. Sharing my personal story, I recount how Joe Budden's song "If I Can Make it Through the Night" provided solace during my battle with depression. We question the ethics of music marketing, focusing on the use of violence and sex as selling points, and the societal implications that often go unnoticed. To wrap up our thought-provoking conversation, I'll leave you with a humorous take on zombies. So, tune in - there's a world of emotional exploration and laughter waiting for you!

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Hey! Hi! It’s me MommaQueue. I welcome you to Moments in Queue ASMR episode. In this episode I will titilate your ear with my voice and random sounds. 

In Queue today: 60 seconds of heaven > What’s going on > it’s giving > Let’s get it popping> and croak on the joke. 

I share amusing anecdotes about my own first-date experiences and shed light on how my relationships have metamorphosed me over the years. On a more serious note, we take a microscopic look at the influence of hip-hop culture, dissecting the impact it has had on society and the role it has played in shaping narratives, particularly around police brutality and seductive lyrics. 

Music is a powerful conduit of emotions, often serving as a therapeutic aid during our lowest periods. Sharing my personal story, I recount how Joe Budden's song "If I Can Make it Through the Night" provided solace during my battle with depression. We question the ethics of music marketing, focusing on the use of violence and sex as selling points, and the societal implications that often go unnoticed. To wrap up our thought-provoking conversation, I'll leave you with a humorous take on zombies. So, tune in - there's a world of emotional exploration and laughter waiting for you!

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Want more Moments in Queue? Follow my social media accounts and support my business. You can email me to request to be a guest or give me an AAR.
Other ways to support is to share this episode with other adults. Then follow the podcast to rate and comment on whatever platform you listened. Thanks!

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Speaker 1:

m-o-double-n-m-a-q-d-w-e-d-a-a-a-b-u-e. That's my name, mama Q. M-o-double-n-m-a-q-d-a-a-b-u-e d-a-a-a-b-u-e that's my name. Mama Q, say it faster or slow, don't really matter, though the u-e gets a minute tongue-tizzy. Yo hey, kinda dizzy bro. Who is she? Mama Q? Mama gave birth little waste, no girth 60 years ago. No, I don't want. Mo Q is a lion and I tried to align this double end. Tundra petty, haha, it's one of my mantras, mama Q, I'm the first one in and the first one out. Memphis Tend to Key is my whereabouts. Don't complain. Main saying stick it to one topic. I reply your mind is very myopic with Mama Q. You need better optis. Picking and choosing to copy me. Are you inspired? Definitely, no need to whisper gracefully. I like it better off-key. Now let's see. Do you remember me? M-o-double-n-m-a-q-d-a-b-u-e d-a-a-b-u-e that's my name, mama Q hey, hi, it's me Mama Q.

Speaker 2:

I welcome you to Moments in Q ASMR episode. In this episode I will titillate your ear with my voice and random sounds in Q today 60 seconds of heaven. We'll see you in the next episode. Bye. What's going on? It's giving, let's get it popping and croak on the joke. What's going on?

Speaker 2:

In this segment I tell you what's going on in my life. Since last episode, alright y'all, I've been a church twice this year, both times under sad circumstances. It's the circle of life, but that doesn't stop one from being sad. My boo thing, mike Foxtrot, love of my life, had to bury a parent. It made me think about my own parents and other older family members, but more so my parents. I dislike one of them, as y'all know, and I love the other one. I overall don't get along with any of my size, parental or maternal, so it would be an awkward funeral. However, now that I think about it, mmm, damn, yeah, now as I think about, it's gonna be over, but I think, I think I'll be okay with just the maternal side. I think I can like strategize and handle that a little bit. Anyway, I don't like the emotions during the grieving process at all, especially the parts where people want to love on you and, for a brief moment, forget the differences between you or argue tighter when you didn't consent to the hug, nor did they apologize or recognize the parts where they went wrong within the family dynamic.

Speaker 2:

Something about death makes people come into turns with their own mortality. I don't like it. If we are beefing when you are alive, death shouldn't change it. I know that sounds harsh, but that's how I feel. Luckily, I'm going to therapy tomorrow to discuss it. The spiritual side is you might see the deceased again. No, not in heaven, but in your dreams. If you desire, you can honor them daily and never forget the impact they had on you. You can talk to them, although some people suggest six months or more to allow them to go through the spirit realm. Their body is gone, but the memories, voice, love, pictures still live on and if you believe and they desire, you can still receive downloads from them. There are plenty examples that exist of people's ancestors coming in their dreams to warn them, to give them recipes, to help them win the lottery, to just assist them with this thing we call life. You just got to believe.

Speaker 2:

Before I end this segment, I want to end with the information and hopefully make you giggle. First off, I might change my Sunday podcast to Mondays. Today's episode is late because I was sick again. No, not pregnant, despite the gallons, as my bull thing says that he gives me inside joke, literally, I think, was the food that I ate. And also it's difficult to feel inspired to record on the weekend.

Speaker 2:

So, till the end of the year or when I make a final decision, accept that the ASMR well, not accept. Well, accept and expect. Yeah, accept and expect the ASMR episodes to be on a Monday before 2359. So that's 11 59 PM for y'all. They don't know military time. I'm not there yet to be consistent with the times and I know that's kind of messed up, but just like this script, sometimes I get the word. It's almost like how passers-and-preachers be talking and be like yeah, god told me, blah, blah, blah. So that's why it's like sometimes I'm gonna try for it to hit between 12 am and 2 am, but just know I would do everything I can to make sure that my episodes hit before 11 59 pm. All right, in that central time. Lastly, let me tell you about the Amazon delivery man.

Speaker 2:

So yes, I be trying to listen to spirit. But I swear um, spirit, especially my yourself, tells me things so quickly. And now I'm starting to wonder if it's due to the severity, like, for example, if it's a tap, tap, tap thought in my process, then I think it's hot on the list that I ought to listen, and then if it's just a fleeting thought, that that's like, you know, it's optional to listen, but I still know I need to be better with listening and I do, but I don't and I try to slow down, but sometimes when I'm on a mission, I like it. Um, what is it called? Tunnel vision and whatnot. So anyway, I ignore the fleeting message for me to put on shorts underneath my t-shirt, which serves a t-shirt and top that I sleep in. Well, I sleep naked sometimes, but you know, when I walk around the house, even though I'm the one of base bills, I'll either throw all my boo things on what is it called? Oh my gosh, a robe, and when I'm over his spot I gotta wear a robe and slippers weirdo. But anyway, when I'm home is usually t-shirt and panties and stuff. So I ignored it.

Speaker 2:

Because my food was outside the board general, the Amazon delivery man got a front view of my body at he had, he had, he y'all. He couldn't speak nor place the packages on my neighbors from porch. And yes, I know that was weird of me to be my in my t-shirt, in my panties on and wanted to speak and be cordial, but I mean, I was trying my best to stums the sound to take away from him looking at me. But yeah, he was staring hard. I didn't know if you don't know about me, I am bottom heavy right and I've also gained weight too, so the thick thighs are definitely saving lives. Okay, luckily for him, I didn't turn around cuz my cheeky panties that I would wear became thongs at that moment. You know, like a witch, I knew if I did, I'm turning around to let him see that ass, that ass, that ass. He would have thanked Joe for providing him the eyes to see my full moon and broad daylight. Instead I back back, back at it up into my front door. Beep, beep. I can't provide a pic, but just know he was speechless, it's given. I'm giving you the encouragement to make it through the week. Let's tackle eating that elephant together, one bite at a time, alright, y'all.

Speaker 2:

So my iPhone group chat used to stand seeing daily encouragement reminders. But life be life, and we forgot. One of them was like yo, let's bring it back. And I started off with the juvenile lyrics, and if you are not old enough to remember this, that's weird, but don't worry, I got you. You're a baby chaser. You got your block on fire, remaining a G until the moment you expire. You know what it is to make nothing out of something. You handle, your busy and don't be crying and suffering, alright. Then I started to think that this could be considered a spiritual mantra versus a hot mean moment. So what I did there? No, I ain't the only one that thought of this.

Speaker 2:

However, I did feel like this was a download to tell y'all, as we know, our words have meanings. We can use our words to claim material things or tangible things. We can also use our words to curse, and I don't mean like saying bad words, I mean like make it bad for the next one. Right, if you add a type P to it and memorable quotes, it can become a social media status and or a meme, regardless if the writer intended to be prolific or not. The words are now quotes, people down play hip-hop and contributions, which I will go into more details in the next segment. Well, scratch that. People download Blacks contributions to society Period.

Speaker 2:

Music is in our blood, it's our ancestry. Music, as we know, was a way for us to communicate with spirits, with the drumming of the bimbae Used to warn or act as a map during enslavement. We know blue singers talked about who do in their lyrics. Here we are now with the ability to use music lyrics to aid in our spiritual development. I encourage you to write your own prolific lyrics or grab them from your favorite songs and see how it makes you feel. I know it might seem silly at first to say as long as the outcome is in common before you go to work, but it could change your whole outlook of the day. However, I urge you to add more to that statement. Don't want you to get disrespected for a check, okay. So I want to give you like a couple examples of my mantras.

Speaker 2:

So when I'm about to exercise y'all, there's this song from Triple Six that I say to myself and it gets me motivated Put a mask on, go in may, do the shit like which I know, like most likely the person who wrote that and the artist that said it. I can't remember. I want to say it was Project Bae, but I think it was, and I know he's not part of Triple Six, but I think it was a collective effort. But, idiot, wait, I know most likely that's not what he meant, but I don't know if there's something about that song in here and that, before I exercise, makes me feel good. Another rap song from Three Six that I loves, from their first commercial album, and it's called Motivation.

Speaker 2:

Every Time I Feel the Shit, I'm motivated. Not only do we flow the shit, we demonstrate it. We come too far to turn back. Now I hope we make it, but every time the profits fly, I'm motivated, motivated. Those are my two songs that like give me super, super motivated. And sometimes, for the ancestors, I'll play a couple of songs. Yeah, I love my song Alantis, so I'll play that, for I will also play Black Parade by Beyoncé and I think that's. But oh, and of course, gospel music, but that varies and that depends on if they're in the mood for it or not. But, like saying, these things get me hyped up. I even have an entire playlist on my Apple playlist of songs that I listen to to like really, really hype me up when I am, when I am in one of those moods. So, in conclusion, per usual, be cognizant of the things you say and see if you can add your own lyrics or others to write how you want your future to be. Good luck to you. Let's get it popping.

Speaker 2:

I blow out the bubbles surrounding pop culture and talk about it. Now, I don't know what's going on, but this is my second time adding pop culture and motivation to y'all, so, who knows, maybe I'll continue. Look, I move as spirit moves. Okay, I told you Sometimes I be rainin' like I'm a passer. Okay, so of course I'm gonna talk about dates, but then I'm gonna expound more on hip hop, black culture and, yes, take the money if you are a regular person like me. Now, look, y'all, I know dating is rougher than sandpaper. Okay, this actual and sexual. Okay, the recent viral thing about dating is where to go on the first date. Now, look, I mentioned it on tiktok and I'ma mention it here.

Speaker 2:

When it comes to dating, talk to your higher self and or your ancestors before wasting your time, money and energy into a date, if possible, because your ancestors can give you opinions or say flat out no. You know, and your higher self can also tell you flat out no, and can sense the vibe of somebody. You know, because, as we should know, our ancestors are humans just like us and I know I'm repeating myself, but I've been told that that ancestors some of them, or at least mine they can't see the future now because collectively, they've lived many lives. They can give their opinion on people and their intentions before I do, you know, but at least in my experience, my higher self can see the future and, with that being said, I think it really helps out a lot to get your higher self and your ancestors involved. Now, for me, I have a great relationship with both. You know, I have a great relationship with my ancestors. I'm getting a little bit better with talking to my higher self and, I believe, with develop a great relationship. They don't mind helping me.

Speaker 2:

Again, I view my relationships with both of them as assistants. You know I'm saying I give them the energy, whatever it is that they need, that they need to help me, and I help them, especially my ancestors. I give them offerings, one, as I've said so many times before, to give them the energy that they need to take care of their descendants and duh, I'm a descendant of them right? And also, if there's these things that I would like for assistance from them. I can give them offerings and different things again to give them more energy, more motivation. But for me it's not like it's not one side, it's not like I'm like yo ancestors do this, do this and that for me and you get nothing but a thank you. No, you know what I'm saying. And if they want to help, they do, and if they can't, they can't and they won't.

Speaker 2:

Because sometimes I've heard from other spiritual people that their ancestors and I won't be surprised if minds are like that that they sometimes, you know, will let you pump your head a couple of times so you can get the message, because clearly you didn't get missed. You did not get the message the first time, alright, and so by our self also, because they can see the future also will give me, like I said earlier today would tell me y'all put some short song or something like that, and I either heat the vice or I don't, because I hardly believe that free will does exist. You know I'm saying so, yeah, I can either listen to them or not. But again, why not get help from those who want to help me, who have the ability to help me. Again, I'm not saying to make especially your ancestors your cordial pit bulls where it's like you'll sick, this person, sick that person, whatever, like that. Again, I don't mind asking them to you know, get somebody away from me, or to pump somebody on their head so they can leave me alone, because I use defense tactics, I'm all for that. But again, if it makes sense and it should make sense to you, I'm never on some like your ancestors, get that person, like that's weird to me, that's an abuse of power. But whatever, again, we're all human, so the way we experience life and the way that we think about things is totally different. So, per usual, what might work for my ancestors might not work for yours, but anyway I want to let you know. We already know, and I prove of it, that as humans we don't listen to our friends, our families, our self or even our spirit team, but already it will make us off ass. So that's another encouragement for you to ask for help, because that's what they're there for to assist you.

Speaker 2:

Anyway. Back to the matter hand. I believe that the location doesn't matter unless it matters to you, and if it does, you have every right to desire change, like I said two weeks ago oh my gosh, we're still on this dating bullshit. Old girl wanted to go to cheesecake factory although I 100% feel that that was a skit. But if she want to go to a fancy man's restaurant she has every right to ask for and her date has every reason to give or not give her that, because we all have our desires, and I believe relationships are like a Venn diagram. Right, you're the circle A, your partner or partners are circle B, through whatever letter, and somehow you meet in the middle and that's what it is. It's not always about you, it's not always about them. Give and take, pick and choose your battles, blah, blah, blah. Okay, so, um, I'm a firm believer in getting within reason, whatever it is you won't.

Speaker 2:

Now I'm not saying that you should allow somebody to know bully you or walk all over. You take advantage of your niceness, because I do believe that sometimes society makes us cis women when it comes to being in a cis-hatero relationship that we're just supposed to be accepting of any and everything in any bit of acknowledgement, any looks that they give us. Just any kind of attention is good attention, and let me tell you, all attention is not good, okay. Oh, my sister just texted me. Sorry about that. I know it's a podcast, okay, there we go. Sorry about that, but, as I've said before, she's one of my favorites, so it's gonna come through, even if I'm on to not disturbing.

Speaker 2:

I'm not telling you what was I going with that shit? Oh yeah, that we shouldn't be like have somebody to walk all over us or whatever, because you know, sometimes society might make you feel like yo, it's good to have, be low maintenance. But if you're low maintenance, there's nothing wrong with that. But don't try to cosplay as being low maintenance when you really are high maintenance, because those that can't wheel and those that don't want to won't do it. You know what I'm saying. So, per usual, if you are the type that want to be catered to and you want to have your significant other or others pay for X, y and Z, get, go on, go all out, romance, camille, all of this stuff for you. You have every right to desire and they again have every right to deny it or accept it, and you should not have to like downplay who you are, your thoughts and your beliefs. And there she is again. Sorry about that, I'm not gonna respond, but anyway, you have every right. You know, don't downplay who you are and I know I'm rambling, but I don't know. My sister texted me, just threw me off. So if you don't get what I'm saying, for example, it's a lot of big misias who will be on some like, oh my gosh, a man can take me to Applebee's and I'll be okay. You know, you're just ungrateful and it's like For me personally, I don't like Applebee, so please don't take me there. You know, and Because I'm a honest, upfront, confrontational person, when need be, I would tell the love of my life If I do or don't want to go somewhere.

Speaker 2:

But when we go out, what I know he loved desserts. Oh my gosh, that is his go-to. So like, say, they were ordering for food to be delivered or he wants to try a new spot. I will pick a spot based off the menu that I like and I will also go to the dessert menu and see if it sounds like Something he would be interested in. Now, if the dessert menu ain't hit, no, anything, I don't want to go there, even if I really, really want to go there. I don't want to go there now. Maybe I will tell him I want to go there and it's up to him. But I really rather avoid those because, yeah, I'll get to enjoy what I want, but my boot thing love desserts. Okay, we gotta go to a spot where it's dessert because for me that's both of us getting what we desire and stuff. So that's the way that, in my mind, I feel like our relationship should go and that's where compromise ago.

Speaker 2:

So what doesn't fit my personality will be like okay, boot thing, we're going to this specific restaurant and I know you don't like their desserts, but I want it like. That's not like me. Now, if it's my birthday, maybe you know, but aside from that, that's just not me. And so, again, like I said, what sometimes us women will do is will like Downplay and not let our Significant other, even the person that we're dating, know that the things that they're saying or doing are affecting us. Or you don't like Whatever, whatever, and that's not cool. Especially if, for example, you're a vegan or vegetarian. You need to tell that person that and stuff and don't try to like, downplay it and be like yes, I'll, I'll go to any old restaurant because they'll have a salad. Is like no, if you want to date this is my opinion, of course If you want to date me, sometimes you might have to go to a vegan or vegetarian restaurant, like Lastly in this example. And then I'll go to some more story times.

Speaker 2:

My boob thing does not like to drink. I do now because I haven't been drinking in a while or whatever because number one, he wasn't here to be my designated driver. You know I Don't drink, but let me tell you he knows I drink and he knows that I'm. If I decide to stop drinking which I won't it will be Me doing and not because of him, because me not drinking is not a health hazard at this point and it's not Having me be like a DUI or whatever, because he is always my designated driver. Now, if he decides to drink on his birthday because he doesn't drink, I Might not drink as much or not drink at all, so then I can be his designated driver because he doesn't drink that much. But just for me, if those are enough examples, it should still be a give and take that all entire Vendogram so that you can be heard, be respected and listen to. But I don't think that you should always suck it up and take one, for the team likes say what's on your mind. So here are some story times, cuz, oh my gosh, I just went off a tangent Okay, it wasn't unscripted, so I'm a firm believer in getting them within reason what you want, otherwise you'll be annoyed and unhappy and no one wants that.

Speaker 2:

Some of the restaurants on the list I don't like at all, which, like I just said, alba Beast was one of. I don't mind cheesecake factory. I, oh my, I did take my meds, but I don't know. I just got so many thoughts coming and I know I'm doing a lot of rambling. Yeah, what do you? I'm gonna try, like you, mitigate the rambling. But like cheesecake factory, they have this huge ass book of stuff to eat and let me tell you, sometimes I don't be moved that shit and I don't like it. But I like the cheesecake. So, again, if both thing wants to go there, I'll try to find something, cuz their drinks and their cheesecake is good. So, yay, success, you know I'm saying, but like, like, I'm okay with these fake factory, but Applebee's, dji, friday's a hell. No, I don't like this shit. So, like I said, um, yeah, so they would never be a choice for me.

Speaker 2:

I've been on first dates at the park chain restaurants, local chain restaurants and romantic, one of the kind local spots I don't like the former to know, not for my mom's heart ladder. I don't like the letter type of places, because one, if I choose to give it up or not, it's not to show gratitude from my meal. And what if I'm feeling you now you don't spend all this money on me now. With that being said, I do understand that when it comes to dating, that, um, you like have to quote, unquote, infest or whatever like that. So I get it, but I really don't want you to invest in me if I don't see anything with you. So there's this burger spot and Memphis didn't key called who he's. It's a chain restaurant in Memphis. I don't I am very certain that it's not outside of Memphis, you know Well, I mean carry filled barley, then drunk town, but I got those suburbs of Memphis okay. So anyway, I took one guy there For our date because I didn't know where to place them in.

Speaker 2:

Again, I didn't want him to take me on an expensive date. There's this other guy. He is younger than me and, oh my gosh, he treated me so great and, um, my auntie, when I was school there at the time, was like yo, have him, take you to be any honest and I think I already said this, because it seems like I'm repeating myself badly, shit, I will power through and her husband, which is my uncle by marriage. We were having the conversation and I was like no, because many honest is considered expensive and I don't want him to expect any sex, so I chose something like P of Changs or some shit like that or whatever, and that's a thing that I hate.

Speaker 2:

Instead, women are always like, told to like again, downplay things In hopes that they won't be in a awkward situation to have sex, and I don't like that. And Sometimes I don't know if my boo think is being serious or not, but I know he had said that like he'll never pressure a woman this was before we got together, but we were in the talking face but if it's very expensive, he's hoping at least to get a booty rub out of it or whatever like that, and I don't it's like and his whole thing is that is something that he would like. So, like I kind of don't like that as an answer, but at least for me it's not forced upon, you know I'm saying or he won't throw it in the woman's face like yo, I spent A hundred dollars on you. I'm expecting to rub on your booty. You know I'm saying so, whatever.

Speaker 2:

So um X co-worker of mine and I guess we were quote-quote friends, but we were co-workers first it kind of made fun of me and not wanting to go on romantic dates with me and it was like how's that gonna work? And I was like I don't want them to spend that much time. Now there were a couple of dates where, um, the guys would just like Shocked about the choices that I made in the restaurants. One was shocked about the price, expected to be More expensive. Another one was like, no, I want to take you to a fancy restaurant or whatever and stuff. And he was like oh, my gosh, you can eat whatever you want. Cuz, let me tell y'all I love me some food and stuff. My leg is starting to get Um, honestly, but anyway. So it just varies. But I stick to my whole thing that, yes, it's a, it's an investment deal, but if I don't know where to play, I really don't want you to spend that much money on me.

Speaker 2:

Okay, so let me tell you more story times about my dates. One first date I had was that Buffalo Wild Wings, which was my choice because I didn't know where to place him. And he even asked me at the date, like, why did you choose this place? And I was like, because I heard it was good. Now it was weird to me that I was expecting for him to dress to look kind of nice, but you know, cuz I had never went to Buffalo Wild Wings and I didn't even google it. So I'm looking kind of nice and he's wearing like a Lakers shirt, like the fuck, but whatever. So afterwards we went to Walmart. Oh my gosh, and that was his choice and I will never forget them. We went to Walmart so he could buy some paper towels, some bullets and dishwashing pots like what the fuck? That's what he chose, or whatever.

Speaker 2:

And um, he was a decade older than me and it was iffy for me. That one date was all I needed to say no, because I felt like he was looking for a step mom for his child. I just got up my abusive relation with my child's father, even though I was over him I don't think I was all the way held and stuff it then. Lastly, it was too flashy for me and I didn't like that. It made me very uncomfortable.

Speaker 2:

So my boo thing and I, our first dates were not romantic spots at all my bed, if I'm gonna beat myself, but whatever. He beat me up and drove me about an hour or an hour and a half To this college town in Merton, tennessee, to eat food with our coworkers. So one co-worker brought his wife and then the other co-worker just was solo, so it seemed like a double date and the fifth wheel, but we all enjoy being around each other and so he picked me up, took me to the spot I was on the navigator and I was the DJ and when we got there we had to wait a little bit longer because it's a and it's a nice spot and it's small, so like we had to wait even longer and stuff, but I still had fun. The second day was at a fast, casual restaurant for brunch and that was the moment it was like I want to be your man, I want to be your man. And then I think the next month we went to this help conference and the business was able to pay for dinner and stuff into him. That was a day, but I was like, um, you didn't even pay, the business pay, so WTF. But anyway, um, the way he treated me and treats me now sealed the deal for our relationship. I love him and I'm in it for the long haul which is crazy, because I never wanted to get married, because as I got older the men didn't seem to be worth getting that piece of paper and with my thoughts and my after-school activities I didn't think I would get to someone to love and accept me for all I am. But he changed me, he changed me, he changed me, my man, my man. Thank you to my man. I was like my man, my man, and I totally forgot to finish this on segment, my bad.

Speaker 2:

So in hip hop news, the ultimate question dinner with Jay-Z or money? If you are a regular deco person, please, please, please, choose the money, the dollar, dollar bills, y'all. In my experience people rarely give you the blueprint like you imagine. They usually tell you stuff they can't be googled. If you, if only you knew. Or the very basic low, low, low, low level of information, especially if it's for the free. Even if you know top down, bottom, ins and outs, there's no guarantees that you are gonna make it cuz life. There's no guarantee. I believe sometimes it's in the stars to your path, but I won't go into that. I feel like the likelihood that Jay-Z would tell me something profound or urgent me into his wealthy circle is slim to none. He wouldn't even give his family member money, what makes me think he would put his rep on the line for a stranger like me. Instead, jay-z said yo, listen to my discography and all the quote-unquote free game is there. Of course people gonna scoff at the response or use Jay's lyrics about him selling against him, which brings me to expound on why I get annoyed about people downplaying, rolling their eyes and not acknowledging what black people within our hip-hop culture has changed and how we've enriched people lives.

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Music is like poetry, with the rhyme and education and influence it has on the listeners. Let's go back down memory lane, lane lane, 50 years ago. Hip-hop was created in the words of KRS one. Rap is something that is done, while hip-hop is something that is lived. The musical art form started as a DJ we can, we quickly, you know, I'm saying and rap about what was seen in the neighborhood, from police brutality, fight the power to slick rig bedtime story. It started to get sexual seductive, if you call it that, if it's not fun, if the homie don't get some to pop, pop, pop, that cool jay cuz all me. So horny women to say it don't call me a bitch or it's done in your business if I shoot, shoot dead with my man.

Speaker 2:

Re-mix is repeating lines from my 16 to white song and being layered with sexually explicit songs talking about going up and down the jaws crazy to a real, being deep-throated. They influence us to drink crystal moed, remi, my Hennessy, that nasty as dessert wine, most cattle or pine, rolex's paddocks and mucler. We got rappers from all over the world to our influence Koreans, british, palestinians and even whites, good, bad. And the cosplayers. Us black people did and do all that and folks still deny us of having the juice. Hip-hop save so many lies.

Speaker 2:

Listen to me, a fan talking about making it out of depression by listening to Joe buddin. This is for all my niggas out here. They never got to see another day. All my niggas out there still in a struggle, still trying to make it out. This is for y'all if I can make it through the night. And then Joe buddin continues to go on and say I'm feeling like I have my fate on the line, heading closer to the exit sign. If I can make it through the night, this game ain't ever been no friend of mine. I'm just trying to make most of my life my life, if I can make it through the night.

Speaker 2:

Now, sidebar, when I was going through my depression, that song really, really, really resonated with me and I also used it to bring in a new year, and I can't remember what new year was, but I was very depressed and that song kept playing in my head. So, yeah, and I do my boo thing, cuz he always called Joe buddin a regular Joe buddin. But anyway, from feeling sad when Eve talked about her friend dying by the hands of her man like hated or love it, but the shit is impacting lies. I know I'm rambling and inserting lyrical miracle as I do an old hip-hop, but the point is artists, known and unknown, give it. They're all for this crap.

Speaker 2:

And people have the nerve to say what is black culture and ignore our contributions, say that it's riddled with violence. But quiet when talking about other races and ethnicities with their violence and their gangsta affiliation. You gotta be able to beat the powers that be. They want you to be ashamed or to announce our impact so they can flip it, water it down, white wash it and make a profit. But don't let them do that. There are plenty of influential music out there that's not talking about violence, but remember sex and violence sales to the masses and it's just an art form, although art can't become reality and occasionally used against you in a court of law. Lastly, in my rambling rent, listen to Lupe fiasco. He been woke and sometimes to walk for others, but a clock is correct twice a day. Croak on the joke. That's where I give you my bestest jokes and we laugh together or not. Today's joke do zombies eat burgers with their fingers? No, they eat the fingers separately. Well, guess that's my cutie leave.

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