Episode #154: The Meaning Behind "Seráphino", The Power of Names and Why I Moved To NYC

INTRODUCTION: 

This episode goes into detail about why I changed my name to Seráphino and the power names can hold over us. I get in depth about generational curses, the fact that you have the power to free yourself from your family and I share a little about my very brutal NYC initiation and why I moved there in the first place.

INCLUDED IN THIS EPISODE (But not limited to):

·      Family curses

·      Your family does not own you

·      What meaning does your name bear?

·      My views on the Zodiac

·      The strength of the Family Coat of Arms

·      Parents must learn to wear many hats

·      The importance of Family Core Values

·      Cancellation of Holidays

·      Louisiana vs. NYC #NoCompetition

·      How Lucifer can work through alcohol

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Transcript

Episode #154: The Meaning Behind "Seráphino", The Power of Names and Why I Moved To NYC 

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De'Vannon Seráphino: Hello, all my beautiful, delicious and lovely people out there and welcome back to the sex, drugs, and Jesus podcast. My name is Savannah and Sarah Fino, and I'm coming to you from Puerto Vallarta, Mexico. I am down here for whatever air to pride. And today we are going to be talking about why I changed my last name from Hubert to Sarah Fino.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And we'll get into a little bit about what prompted me to move to New York City. I will record a different episode about New York City in and of itself because it is truly a magically delicious place. As as Newt Scamander said it to quote him loosely from, from Fantastic Beasts. New York is significantly more magical than what I expected that it would be.

De'Vannon Seráphino: That boy was on to something. So we, we're going to talk about the power that comes along with changing [00:01:00] a name and the power that can come from shifting cities. Specifically, this sort of thing is not for everybody, not that much really is for everybody, but if you're going to do it, I want to explain to you some of the intricacies that can, can, can come along with it and some energetic considerations as well.

De'Vannon Seráphino: If you want to check out our TikTok channel over at sex, drugs, and Jesus. Podcast on, on TikTok, I posted some pictures from the Puerto Vallarta Pride Pink Party opening party, which we went to last night. It was a fundraiser, raised several thousand dollars for Puerto Vallarta. Shangela was there hosting it.

De'Vannon Seráphino: There was some other drag queens from RuPaul's Drag Race. And the audience and the crowd, the fireworks were amazing at the end. And it was just pink for days, giving Barbie realness, Barbie life. I was there for it. I was at the cutest table talking to people from all over the world, [00:02:00] people from all over the world that come to Port of Ayer to Pride.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Tonight is my night in the sense that we are celebrating this Pride under a Sagittarius full moon. I am a Sagittarius sun, a Scorpio ascendant. And this big, beautiful full moon appear in this sky on the beach as I will be twirling tonight, getting my life, getting my healing while I'm dancing on the dance floor.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I'm stepping out late and I'll be back sometime before high noon tomorrow because this is a circuit party weekend. And so your girl is going to twirl and that's all that there is to it. So

De'Vannon Seráphino: why the fuck would I like? I changed my last name. I've been on this earth physically. It'll be 42 years in December. Although Your girl gets younger every year, so I'll be turning 13 this December, period. Because age and time are an [00:03:00] illusion. We can be whatever age we fucking want. And so I decide that I will be younger every year and that's all that there is to it.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It's done. It's decided, period.

De'Vannon Seráphino: The, the devastation that happened last year was the culmination of devastation that was started with the fuckboy that my mom married. And, and so then therefore, and I say that because he was cheating on her while she was pregnant with me. And then that caused me to be born into this narcissistic cycle where every guy I dated was some type of cheater.

De'Vannon Seráphino: None of them had like a sexual self control and I did not track that it was a pattern. I didn't track that it was a pattern until last year when I ended the relationship that was the longest relationship that I had, but it was still with a narcissistic cheater. And then I began to be drawn to certain [00:04:00] knowledge, certain information, certain videos on YouTube, certain, esoteric circles, because as I began to break away from that energy, I began to ascend, and so new knowledge was coming to me, and then I began to learn what karmic cycles are.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I get more finite information on exactly what, what the thing that people call generational curse is like, what that actually fucking means. And so for me, that was having been influenced by a narcissist and most narcissists are also sex addicts, too, because those two things tend to run in tandem with each other, the way they go about lurking, trying to get energy from people, because they don't have it within themselves.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But being raised in that influence. Was, was, was the problem and, and I changed my name was only to get all of this energy off of me. Now, could I have done it without changing my name, release myself, [00:05:00] everybody's got their own path. And, and as I said, changing your name is not for everybody.

De'Vannon Seráphino: There could be other considerations that I might not be factoring in. I'm explaining this to you because anybody has the power to change their name. You, you can change it spiritually, which is what counts the most going like, like, I'll tell you in more detail in a 2nd, but, I went down to go out of the heart and did, like, a spiritual thing to change my name.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And then I also file to change it in the court, or I'm still working on that aspect of it because there was a slight little glitch with that, but don't worry your boy going to overcome because I overcome all things and, you just got to be careful. When you're dealing with, like, an influence in your family from narcissistic energy, because Lucifer's power, Lucifer's power is just as, is just as infatuating as it is deadly to those who wield [00:06:00] it.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Okay, and when these women cheat, men cheat, non binary, it doesn't matter if somebody identifies physically or sexually, but what they don't understand is that when they step out there and do things they're not supposed to with people who they really don't fucking know. Who they were just attracted to or whatever and thought they were going to have a good time with that shit.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It's like it tracks back not just to them, but to anybody who they're connected to energetically. It's like they went and lit a dynamite that just has a really long cord or string to it. The dynamite cord could be miles long and it might take weeks, months, years, or decades. If a spark is lit at the end of that dynamite to finally catch up to that diamond dynamite and make it go kablooey, but it will.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And then when, once the damn thing explodes, it's not just gonna fucking kill, kill and hurt the narcissist or the cheater, whoever the fuck they are. And if it's not cheating and narcissism and filling the blanket with [00:07:00] every kind of destructive shit, it has collateral damage all around it. It has this whole area of damage that it affects.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It doesn't just hurt and kill the narcissists, but it fucks up everybody attached to them too, and that's just the way it fucking goes. So our actions are not done in a vacuum, and we have these energetic connections. With people we accept deeply into our lives, be it our inner circle of friends, romantic relationships are like amongst the deepest kind, because you share so much more with people who you engage in a romance with, or who you call significant others, really any type of sexual thing, but especially significant others.

De'Vannon Seráphino: You spend so much time with those people. And it's like you Fuse with people energetically, you're an individual, but you're also, you're also in a fusion with people when you engage in a relationship like, in a romantic relationship with people, you really, really fused with that person. [00:08:00] And so any type of sex they're having with anyone else, whether, you know, of it or not, still tracks back to you.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And so you cannot separate yourself from what they're doing, because you've chosen to be in a relationship with this person. It's super reckless of them to go out and do that. And this is the sort of person that my dad is. It's in the, and so then I was born with this energy. And then when I became aware of how this shit was pulling on me and affecting me, I said, Oh, hell fucks.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Now I'm coming about of this shit. What can I do? Had a dream, which I've referenced many times. I'm going to say it again. For those of you who may be new to the show, when I was in Dubai, getting ready to turn 40 and in this dream, I saw my mother and a car fire completely engulfed in flames. The flames almost looks like clonic in nature, almost like they were moving in a circle.

De'Vannon Seráphino: There was no coming back from this. If somebody gets burnt up like that in dream space, it wasn't about her. It was about a change that I was about to go through. [00:09:00] But you understand that sort of fire. You were seen like a car on fire. There's no more car left. All you have was a burnt pile of rubble. So I understood that there wasn't going to be any more Devannon.

De'Vannon Seráphino: All right, after after the devastation of the last relationship that I went through, there wasn't going to be any more to ban it. And so I just really, really leaned into that and was like, let's just see. I thought about,

De'Vannon Seráphino: like, in the Bible, how you have, like, Joseph, who changed, who's got, who changed, his name was changed by Pharaoh to Zatnaphaneh. We have Israel, oh, Jacob, whose name was changed to Israel. We have Abram, Abram, whose name was changed to Abraham. Certain parts of of certain cities and lands receive like a name change because names bear meaning they mean things.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And so, in my mind, I was like, all right, well, if I've been [00:10:00] totally just destroyed and all this havoc read by this devastation, then what the fuck do I need this name from for anymore? I thought about what the family that I was born into represented and just how much I don't have in common with them. So I was like, well, nothing's forcing me to, to be a part of this family.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I don't have to, if there is no, actual fucking reasons for me to stick around, then why would I not? Because I should, your family doesn't own you. They might try to act like they do, but they actually don't. Yeah. And if you're not Jesus said there's a friend that sticks closer to her brother.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And when people were trying to let Jesus's mother and brother into 1 of his teachings, he did not accept that. He said, who is my father? Who is my brother? Who is my mother? Whoever does the will of my father? And so family is an action thing. It's [00:11:00] something that has to be earned. The people bestow titles of brother, father, friend, mother too easily.

De'Vannon Seráphino: People must always be earning their position in your life. And if they ever stop earning that position and it's time for them to be excommunicated. Okay, then you can remove yourself. But what we're not going to do is keep people in our lives just because of a title. They whole friend, lover, brother, mother, sister.

De'Vannon Seráphino: If nobody on no job gets to keep that job, if they don't, if they no longer fulfill the bullet points or the duties of that job description, no, they don't. You stop doing what that job calls for, your ass gets fired. It is no fucking different if we're dealing with some sort of relationship dynamic, those positions are fucking earned.

De'Vannon Seráphino: They're not just given out freely. And then, and then people get into this presumptuous mindset of, well, we're family, so we're always gonna fight, but always make up, no, bitch, stop fighting, get over your dysfunctions and heal your inner [00:12:00] wounds. We don't have to fight. That's not a part of life. Doesn't have to be.

De'Vannon Seráphino: People, people slightly just got comfortable with it. I said, not today, Satan. I don't want to fight anymore. And so I stopped and I got away from people with like friction and shit within them. It's when we, when people are born, especially in other countries and they're given names, people try to pick names that they hope that child is going to live up to.

De'Vannon Seráphino: When certain people got ready to be born, be it John the Baptist. Jesus, certain people angels would come down and say, this, this, this kid is going to be born. You're going to name him. This angels got other things to do with their time. They're not going to do anything. That's not worthwhile. Why did John the Baptist need to be called John?

De'Vannon Seráphino: Why did you need to be called Jesus? Because what God is trying to communicate to you is to name your children with intention. And that also your name carries [00:13:00]meaning. It's not just. It's not just the, it's not just, it's not just the name.

De'Vannon Seráphino: So, Seraphino is a derivation from the Seraphim angels, which you can see like in the book of Isaiah, both the cherubim and the Seraphim have fire in them, but for whatever reason, the Seraphim seem to be more referred to as the burning ones. Or seem to have more of a connotation of fire about them than the cherubim, but, but there's several angels depicted with, like, some sort of fire element to them.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Nevertheless, I thought, and thinking about it now, it actually matches well with me being like a fire sign. I, I, I subscribe to the Zodiac to an extent. There's a lot of things about it that are actually quite accurate and one can use to guide their life, learn about themselves. I believe God.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Who I serve is Yahweh. I serve God, [00:14:00] Jesus Christ, and the Holy Ghost. I don't bow before or serve any other deities. I don't throw shade at people for whatever they believe in. I just like for people to be very clear on who I believe in, as you should be clear on anybody you're listening to on any platform who they believe in and why that's just who I believe in.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But I believe God has power over the universe. Over the planets, therefore over the zodiac. So there's things that can be learned from the sun, the moon, the stars. I don't worship them. I don't view them as, as like personalities or beings. I view them as energies, which I can learn from, and that, and that God influences to influence us.

De'Vannon Seráphino: So, for me, being a fire sign, somebody who is, has a fiery nature, could handle extremes, I have a close relationship with angels, and I always have. I thought to myself, what name can I come up with? What, what, what, what what, and then I was reading an Isaiah and a Seraphim and I kind of played with that.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And then that's how I [00:15:00] came up with Seraphino. And so that, that, that, that is where that name comes from. So it has to do with fire. It has to do with angels and it has to do with the very close relationship that I hold to the angels and to the celestial realm. I reached out to the lead shaman who I know in Guadalajara and that they set up Her and her team, it was three shamans set up a ceremony for me to go down there in September of last year under a specific full moon.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And I, did a silica, well, we call it silahuasca. It's, it's a, it's a different way that you do shrooms. Down there mixed in like cacao, all this incense is blowed over it, and different herbs and things are mixed into it. This is not like a psilocybin chocolate bar, this is, this is the real fucking deal here.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Within 20 minutes I was in the, the trance so to speak. It doesn't take, when it's done this way it doesn't take that [00:16:00] long. We did a fire ritual, we did a water ritual, it was all kinds of things going on. It was about 5 or 7 hours. It And this year was like the official death of Devan and Hubert and like the coming alive or the birthing of Devan and Serafino.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Court work, court paperwork notwithstanding. I mean, that's, that's like more like, a casual thing on the side. The real change was when I got up off that floor down in Guadalajara after all them potions and everything had coursed their way. Through my system. Then Devan and Sarah Fino was born.

De'Vannon Seráphino: There was even like a burial that we did on the grounds of this of this Sarah of this ceremony space to bury. Okay, Devan and Hubert. Glory to God. Lord have mercy. That ceremony was brutal in terms [00:17:00] of like the tears that I cried. I, I didn't know. I mean, this was September, the breakup that I went through last year was like in January, February, I thought that I was far past that.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And in a lot of ways I was, I certainly wanted to be, but some of that trauma was so damn deep, both from that breakup and probably, I think that what's going Trauma from like a long fucking time past was, was, was coming up different psychedelics were different. I've been to ayahuasca ceremonies and I didn't have that sort of like, that, that, that, like, that did not come out of me like that.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Maybe it was because it was, or at least in part, because it was just me and the shamans. It wasn't like a group experience. For what it's worth, it's cheaper to go get an individual shamanic, psychedelic experience in Mexico than it is to get one in the United States, usually, because all of that that I [00:18:00] did, and it was a lot that I did, was to include renting the ceremony space that we were at was maybe like 600.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Dollars USD when I did this in the United States something along the, it wasn't nowhere near all this with all of the, the feathers and the drums and the music and the singing and the shaman made me a personal fucking playlist to go along with, tailored to my personal experience. I didn't get all that when I did it in the United States.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It was none of that. And it was more expensive. So literally I could have flown, and this is not like a shoulda coulda woulda thing. I'm just comparing because it makes sense to do so. It was more like, I think, like a thousand dollars. That's been like a day with like a therapist to guide like a, like an LCSW, like clinical social worker to guide me, through a shroom experience and an MDM, just a shroom experience.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And for he used the [00:19:00] playlist that he used for everybody. There wasn't like all the. All the drums and all the ceremonial tools and instruments there. There wasn't all the things that they do like those shamans will do like Reiki and stuff on you when you're down there. If you need it and all kinds of things.

De'Vannon Seráphino: They got all these potions that they spray and use in the middle of it. If you need it, they weren't, they don't do all that. I didn't have that experience in the United States. They charged me more than United States and they did far less. I got a flown to Guadalajara, stayed there for a month, had all of this here and spent about the same.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Maybe stay in Guadalajara for two weeks, not maybe like a month it's been about the same. So in the process of time, the Lord caused me to be aware of this. You can find these sorts of people too. You need this kind of help. A message to me. I know people in Mexico, I'm, my opinion is still being decided on this whole the way that United States is approaching psychedelics.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I'm happy that, that it is being approached, [00:20:00] but it's becoming like too monetized. And a little bit too, like, doctored up, like, so to speak. And so this is why you will find me in Mexico a lot, doing shamanic rituals and learning straight from the source. Wait, let me get back on track. Thank you for going down that rabbit hole with me.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And, and thus Divana Serafina was born in Guadalajara on a certain full moon, in September of the year 2023. Guadalajara is what I would consider to be like my new place of birth, my spiritual place of birth and, and so, so I just went with that. What I have learned is that even though my name changed and I went through those rituals and I cried those very bitter fucking tears.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And I mean, gut wrenching, crying, mascara running, snot on the floor, I mean, a part of me wanted to run, [00:21:00] I couldn't run because I was so fucking high, but, and I have heard that some people will literally try to fucking run away from the shamans and fight them and shit when stuff starts to come out of them, part of me wanted to reach for the door, but another part of me knew that that wouldn't work.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Because quitting and giving up just ain't in my blood, to quote Shawn Mendes, it isn't in my blood. And so I just had to surrender to, to, to, to whatever God was doing. It was an intense, fierce, fucking soul surgery that happened to me on that floor. We never know what kind of traumas and problems are lurking within us.

De'Vannon Seráphino: What I am thankful for is that I didn't go about the business, of trying to numb. All of this pain and shit that I was going through with drugs and sex and porn and alcohol and all of that shit. I, I fucking faced it and, and, and went through it. And it was, and it was, it was, it was a terrible, terribly beautiful experience to go [00:22:00] through.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I decided

De'Vannon Seráphino: to also get a family coat of arms, which I have put up on like the TikTok channel. Also it's family coat of arms. It's one of those things that I've always wanted in the book of Numbers chapter two in the Bible. We talk about when God had delivered Israel from from the nation of Egypt, and they were dividing up the land that they had conquered and fucked up all those people to get their land and shit.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And you had, like, this family had a standard the family of Reuben, the family of Gad, Nakaliah, whoever, they had standards, that banners and things that represented what the nation of Israel, what each family in the nation of Israel stands for. Kind of like what we would call a coat of arms. Coat of arms ain't just for rich families.

De'Vannon Seráphino: A coat of arms is something anybody can have. There's really not like, there's some website that call themselves, like, national registries and shit. I don't know if they're just trying to make money or [00:23:00] whatever, but. It's not really like one of those regulated things. I think maybe it's more serious like over in the UK, but anybody can have a family coat of arms.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It is highly sophisticated to me. I have it printed on certain clothing and things like that. I will have it emblazoned on like suit coats. I think that. And it's not just for prep schools or fucking charter schools or Ivy League schools either, or for Hogwarts, for Slytherin and Hufflepuff and Ravenclaw and Gryffindor.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It's not just for them. But don't that shit look badass though? It's a fucking clean look, but I wanted something to represent this new start, this new beginning, and I wanted something to help guide my family in years to come. So when you look at our family coat of arms at the top of it, you have Yahweh, which is the same as I have on this particular tattoo right here.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Yahweh written in Hebrew, the Ancient of [00:24:00] Days before whom I serve. God has many names, but This is the one that I chose, and I put it up there, under there we have the the thorny crown of Christ. And then below that, we have the Holy Ghost, pictured like in, in flames and things like that. I did not want a cute, white dove with a fucking olive branch in his mouth and shit.

De'Vannon Seráphino: In her mouth and shit. And I wanted the, another aspect of the Holy Ghost. So the Holy Ghost The Holy Ghost is soft and gentle. The Holy Ghost is a very dynamic and strong force. She can be gentle and she can be fierce, just like the strongest of us, especially the strongest of us who embody a lot of divine feminine.

De'Vannon Seráphino: The Holy Ghost is the feminine aspect of the High Trinity. Okay. And when, when, when John the Baptist is in the wilderness and he's baptizing Jesus. And we have [00:25:00] this image of the, of the spirit descending on, on Jesus. Some in, some, some of the original languages, like, like the Greek and stuff that I've studied, speak about this as not like a, a cute white dove slowly flittering down, okay, and just lighting on Jesus.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Some of it talks about it being like diving birds. If you ever watched the National Geographic channel, the channel with some shit, A discovery channel and you see those birds like diving down to get their prey, it has more of a feeling of the Holy Ghost went down quickly and and landed upon Jesus that way.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And so the Holy Ghost on the family coat of arms on the shield for how Serafino, I wanted to make sure that her eyes are looking directly fucking at whoever's looking at her. At that shield and she was like she ain't having no shit that she come to handle business. She's [00:26:00]not to be fucked with period.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And she is on fire. This is a force before whom none can stand because none can stand before the Lord.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And so the family coat of arms was designed a beautiful designer who I know. Christos, he lives in Greece. And I discovered him on 99designs. com way back in the day when I was designing, like, my books and, like, the sexdrugsandjesus. com, and I just stuck with him because he gets my aesthetic. And so everything I get designed, I pretty much get designed by him.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But you can go to 99designs. com or different places and speak with people about designing a family coat of arms if you want to have one. So why would you want a family coat of arms? I believe in imagery words and the things we see everything is spirit. Everything is energy. [00:27:00] When we look at anything, it leaves an imprint on us.

De'Vannon Seráphino: This is why it's important to mind what we give attention to everything has an impact on us though. It's subtle though. It's subconscious. Nevertheless. The, the change is done. I believe a family code of arms, if it's done right and done well, can help to guide people within the family back to center should they get off track.

De'Vannon Seráphino: My family code of arms is an ode to the trinity because, to, to me, what is a family, if not a, a family that operates in, in like in holy power, like in spiritual power? That's not in tuned this. The family's gotta be in tuned with who they are spiritually, just as much as they are physically. And so I want to dedicate myself and my family back to God, because it was God who has given me this chance to live again, having made bad decisions and face destructions.

De'Vannon Seráphino: He pulled me through destructions and brought me out of it all. And when you look at family code of arms, there's a lot of different ones, and most of them will have things that are important to that [00:28:00] family. I don't know, be it derby hats, or cars, or twigs, or fucking leaves, there aren't really any rules that govern it.

De'Vannon Seráphino: They can be as big and gaudy as you want, or as simple, and cute, and chic, and sophisticated. Whatever it is you feel that really represents what your family stands for. What does your family stand for? And so my hope is that if my children should get off track one day, or if I myself should get off track one day, I think my cats will be fine.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Felicity and Felix are the first two descendants of House Serafino. And hopefully, hopefully my children can look at, look at this family coat of arms and be like, get reminded of who they are. So, speaking of leading a house I love, how in the Old Testament, when all the families would get lined up in Israel, how.

De'Vannon Seráphino: You had fucking order. This person did this. This person did that. This motherfucker did this. They know who [00:29:00] the head of the house was. They know who wasn't. They know who did this. You had fucking structure and discipline physically aside from them worshiping God and doing the sacrifices and all of that.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I mean, like, the, the day to day tasks and shit, not just like chores that there was order to these houses. And so parents we gotta lead by inspiration, just like the Trinity Father, Son and Holy Ghost. You gotta be like parent, friend, leader. You gotta be able to wear different hats and get maintained.

De'Vannon Seráphino: To earn respect from your children. Some parents are too forceful. Like my dad wasn't thought he could just like beat loyalty out of me or commanded. Some of y'all are too fucking nice. You're too damn friendly. So much to the point that your children don't view you as a parent that you got to learn how to be neither too much nor too little, but you're not wrong for wanting to like be friends with your kids [00:30:00] because you want to have common ground.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But you got to strike that, that very delicate balance. To get to build trust so your kids will come to you and your kids should come to you before they go run to some damn friend or some fool they don't know and for fuck's sake not to the internet. To some app it's a delicate thing, but you can't let your children rule you, but you can't be trying to like dominate them either.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It's like you've got to learn how to master the elements within yourself, air, earth, fire, water. But parents, you do have to rule yourself before you can rule your house. So this here gets back to that shadow work. You got to get your mind and your soul together. If you're not together, your children are going to respect you.

De'Vannon Seráphino: They're not going to look up to you. And in my opinion, nor should they, like you should, like, if you gone out about the business of having children as powerful as it is, and you haven't done your soul work, you fucking up. But if you've had children and you haven't done your soul work, well, today you can, you could [00:31:00] start, you can always start easy when you have children.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It's like, it's like you're cooking eternity in your womb, because that being is a soul that is literally going to live forever. Whatever point in the womb that that child becomes a soul, some say it's from the beginning.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Some say it's only once they're born, whatever you believe. But the point to you is that what you're planning to make or what is made within you is an eternal being. That's never going to have an end,

De'Vannon Seráphino: Pregnancy and childbirth is something that I've always looked at quite curiously and interesting how one human can carry another human. Like, like, like literally there's like a soul inside of her that is never going to cease its existence. This, this to me is something [00:32:00] that's very humbling.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It's super fucking powerful. So what I'm trying to tell you and get you to understand is parenting is, is, is eternal business. You're in the business of raising somebody who is eternity. Sperm and eggs carry that eternal essence about them. This is why things like sperm are so fucking powerful and voodoo and witchcraft and certain things like that because of exactly what it is.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I know people squirt it around all over town like it ain't nothing. You see it squirting all over the screen on porn. And seeing things like that put people in this state where they don't value it like they should, because it looks like it's something that just comes and goes, we can squirt this load today, just generate more in like a few minutes, but, but, but it, it, but it's, it's, it's a super powerful substance, all of [00:33:00] our DNA that we carry really is, but the power to make life, particularly in between like sperm and eggs, it's like, it's like a physical manifestation of eternity to me.

De'Vannon Seráphino: This is why the ritual of sex and whatever sort of sexual practice it is carries, some things have a deep, deeper insinuations than others, but it all carries like an eternal like fume. It's like an eternal kind of like smoke, if you will, that rises off of it. So the ritual of sex is something that is done that can create like eternal life.

De'Vannon Seráphino: This is why sex is so sacred. But one of the many reasons why it's so sacred and should not be taken for granted. I played with. Family core values while we're on the subject. This is another thing that I wish my, the family that was born into had that did it. And look, I know no family's going to be perfect.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It's up to you to decide if, if, if, [00:34:00] if they've done so much that it's time for you to go or that if you don't have enough. And common with them. This is a decision only you can make. You got to pray about it, meditate on it and be sure is what you want to do. But I believe in boundaries and I do not and I believe in not letting anybody take advantage of me or take me for granted.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And it does not matter who the fuck they are. But I particularly watch out for that for people who can easily become presumptuous about it, like blood family or significant. Others or coworkers or people who or anybody who thinks that no matter what they do, you still have to stay. What I'm telling you, you don't have to do a damn thing, period.

De'Vannon Seráphino: You do whatever the fuck you want. I wish we had family core values. I was not the head of the Hubert family and I was the youngest child. So they're in the weirdest and the most awkward and the one that nobody wanted to listen to. And so. There wasn't anything that I could fucking do, [00:35:00] but as the leader and the founder of House Serafino, I can do every fucking thing, and I can be, and I can make sure that House Serafino, is run, in my opinion, right.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Family core values, just like you see a business, an organization, a fraternity. A high school, whatever core values, guiding objective principles, whatever the case may be, those things can work. You can use them in your groups of friends. What do you and your friends stand for? What, what, what, what is your family's contribution to this earth?

De'Vannon Seráphino: What, what were you, what were you and your family being known for when none of you are here anymore? What have you done with your time? When you have core values, and how Serafino's core values, I don't have them in front of me, I never do, because I wrote them and then they're tucked away like in notes somewhere, but you know, there are things about honesty, [00:36:00]integrity, telling the truth, being transparent, putting community before we, ourselves, understanding there's more people in the world besides us, so we step out the door, we don't, as a family unit, just pass right over people, have you ever been out somewhere, I don't care, fucking Disney, Or wherever with their expensive fucking asses, and you see like this family and they're still in tune with each other, but they're just like pushing other people out of the way and knocking shit over and they're even like paying attention.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Like, like, like, they're the only people in the fucking world that exist. That shit fuckin annoys me.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But maybe you could build your list of core values based off of what the fuck pisses you off. But when you have core values actually fuckin listed besides a coat of arms to look at, and that coat of arms is something that you can have printed, you can have like a physical copy of it made, like on wood, like a nice fine wood, [00:37:00] or embroidered, you can do anything with it.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Or you can keep it digital. It's whatever that you You feel led to and drawn to do with it. But like that family code of arms is something that can visually have a, have an impact on somebody's conscious and subconscious. So do these core values because it's something that is written. It changes.

De'Vannon Seráphino: People's energy when they read certain lines and words, or they see visual things. This is why when we behold evil and low vibrational things, it lowers us, even though it might not kill you, or you might not notice it draining you little by little. If you keep exposing yourself to things that do not serve you, it will drain you and take you down little by little.

De'Vannon Seráphino: If you keep exposing yourself to things that are high vibrational and very positive, it will lift you up. So these family core values. are going to help you combat societal conditioning. You, we get conditioned in society, being any, any type of [00:38:00] printed marketing material, and then it gets reinforced.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Marketing and media, then it gets reinforced by like friends, music, movies, like what, what could it be like an overemphasis? on dating and sex, fear concerning wars and foreign lands and what certain races might do. Anything that we hear and see leaves a mark on us. But when you have family core values in line, this is you telling yourself and your significant other and your children, this is what we believe, no matter what the fuck the world was doing.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And then you can take a step back and look at that, readjust it over the years if you need to. I would say add to it over the years if you need to the things that are put down there should not be things that are taken lightly that should require too much tweaking over time because it's supposed to be very seriously done in the 1st place. But we don't need to be [00:39:00] trained how to consume shit.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Babies are born into the world and can't do a damn thing but consume like, like we know how to consume. We know how to get up and go find shit to make us feel good or to, or to, or, or how to accept. We know how to take. What we need to be taught how to do is to add value. We need to be taught how to give.

De'Vannon Seráphino: We need to be taught how to contribute.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And look, you might go and establish this family code of arms and these core values. The Lord might give you your own fresh inspiration, do things I haven't thought of yet. Cool, go for it, do that. And your kid might still grow up and fuck everything up. Well, at least you can sleep better at night, knowing you did everything that you could to support them in the highest way possible.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I'm not unrealistic. For all these things that I've set in place, should this earth continue and my son have kids and all of that, I mean, I hope that none of them end up being assholes. [00:40:00] But it could happen. I mean, I pray and I even speak that it don't because I'm really putting a lot of hard work and detailed energy.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But if King David and Solomon and the people I mean, the ancients did all of their hard work too. And they had people in their family lines who fucked up. Why would I think that that wouldn't happen eventually? No matter how many generations it would take. Lucifer could slip in there somewhere, but he didn't have to either.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I mean, I pray and hope he don't, but I've done what I could do, and that's all you can do. So as a parent, as much as I've gotten on you about getting your soul work together, once you've done that, and you've done all the things physically and spiritually you can, Hopefully you crank out a good, good child.

De'Vannon Seráphino: If that, if that individual decides that they just want to fuck up, then child, you go do you and just leave that fucking child alone. I mean, if you have to, because you're [00:41:00] not supposed to wear yourself out with a child who refuses to listen. If you have done what you're supposed to do, then lay your head down and rest in peace.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Knowing that you did a good job. Mother and father and other have you identify as a parent. Because we can, we can only do so much, but we should do every fucking thing we can do. I'm just trying to bring to your attention some other things that you might could do. So names carry so much fucking power,

De'Vannon Seráphino: and how did I say, you never know where energy is lurking. What I'm thinking about, I'm going to talk about like name changes and marriage next, but I'm thinking about how some people, when they can't get fixed, fixed, healed from like certain maladies. They've been all these different doctors say in the United States, I've heard people coming down here to Mexico and finding certain spiritual healers who do whatever it is that they do, [00:42:00] and they can, and whatever kind of power they're working with reverses that gets rid of that sickness out of them, reverses that sickness.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Because you just never, you never know because a lot of issues we have have spiritual roots in them. And, gosh, when I say that I think about this woman years ago when Evangelist Nelson was still alive who, I met this woman in a Walmart. And I was just like drawn to her, but you know, unfortunately she was surrounded by, I mean fortunate, unfortunate, because God even takes the worst evil and uses it to help the righteous.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And she was surrounded by, I mean, her children were like these vile ass witches and different things long nose lines, and somebody had fed this woman some type of witchcraft that gave her cancer, and it was something Evangelist Nelson was able to do for her to begin to extract that [00:43:00] cancer up out of her, but it wasn't something that she was going to get from a doctor.

De'Vannon Seráphino: She hadn't been to all the doctors and everything to try to treat the cancer. It was a spiritual cancer and it took something spiritual to break it. They that have an ear, let them hear. So when you go run off and decide that you want to

De'Vannon Seráphino: get married and things like that,

De'Vannon Seráphino: that's all great and everything. But be careful about the name you choose to take because That name carries energy. It's not just if their last name is, I don't know, Ramirez, and you wanna, or Johnson, or Williams, or whatever the fuck, and you just think it's cute if you take his name. Research that family.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I know you're marrying him, and you should be focused on him or her or them. You're not marrying the fucking family. Fuck that shit. You're marrying that individual. But, talk to them people. See what they're about. Not [00:44:00] the fake way they acted when you first met them. Like, I'm not suggesting everyone does that.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I'm sure there's somebody out there besides me who keeps it 100 percent real no matter who the fuck is in front of them. But typically you don't see that. So, I'm not talking about how people act. You really gotta dig into that fucking family, dig up their demons, ask them direct fucking questions. Who are you?

De'Vannon Seráphino: Why are you? Have you done your shadow work? Anybody who's really done shadow work and has really, really dug within themselves and won't mind telling you is not going to be Taboo or something that we mustn't speak of such thing as difficult as it is to work through all that people who have accomplished that sort of thing a proud of it.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Yeah, I did it that I was able to overcome this and I'm able to measure my spiritual growth advancement because I was like this. Now I'm like this. It's not just as a thing that was discussed. We actually had a problem. We don't have this problem [00:45:00] anymore. This problem was this bad. Now it's not so bad anymore.

De'Vannon Seráphino: There's quantifiable success, mental health growth, emotional growth, spiritual growth when we do effective shadow work in energetic and spiritual healing, not just kicking cliche terms around. Actually doing the damn thing. When people have done that, they will tell you. So when you go and marry people, talk to the family, see where they're at spiritually, and if you're jiving with the energy, great, take the name.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But if you don't jive with them, people, you don't have to take the name on. Because if you take on that name, you're taking on the energy of that family. This is like a universal law. You can't change that because the energy and that name of that family has been building for generations. You can't take the, you can't decide that if you're going to become a Johnson or whatever fucking last name and you're just going to like leave their energy.

De'Vannon Seráphino: No, [00:46:00] the door God has given you is to pick a different name. Now you can take your name, anybody's name, or what I think is the most fucking beautiful. It's for two people to get married or however many to get married and come up with their own fucking name like chart a new path. You don't have to take anybody's name from anybody's family.

De'Vannon Seráphino: You can literally do whatever you want to do. I get if I get married one day, my husband will have a difficult time trying to convince me as to why I should attach his name to the end of mine. Because maybe I will and maybe I won't. But there's always gonna be Serafina when there's somewhere what would be more beautiful would be for us to come up with a name that we feel like represents our personal path and destiny as a couple, or play with the name somehow to mix our energies together and then come up with [00:47:00] something maybe a little bit of his name a little bit of mine, something unique like that you can do this.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And then, if you need it done for legal reasons, you can go down to the courthouse, depending on what state you're in, for around 1 or 2 grand, probably, or you can actually do it free in some courts if you want to do the paperwork yourself. And there's waivers you can get to waive the fees to, depending on the court if you want to really change the name and so be it.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Or you can leave the name, do it spiritually somehow, if you can't make it to Mexico, if you have enough faith and you can do some research. You really, really have a high enough faith in somebody with some spiritual power, somebody with some spiritual inclination, then you can arrange your own ceremony at your home or wherever you're at.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But what I'm trying to tell you is that be careful taking on the names of people's families, because by taking on that name, you take on that energy. Be sure that you're okay. But what that family stands for, what they've done, what they are doing, [00:48:00] what they plan to do and how they treat people. So if you've got some argumentative ass family attached to your significant other, they like to fight, bicker.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Maybe you want to consider doing your own shit. But what I'm trying to tell you, you have options. You're not bound to follow a tradition or a pattern or anything like that. Children can emancipate themselves from their kid, from their fucking parents. You got some children being abused, who I'm glad when they get away.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Emancipate yourself, fuck that. You don't have to stay there and get beat, and be chained to a bed, or denied food, or berated. Fuck, had I thought about it, or known about it, I probably would have emancipated myself as a child, because growing up was just pure fucking hell. And I think it's beautiful, but you know, and kids, if you do emancipate yourself, is it that bad that you need to get away?

De'Vannon Seráphino: From your family that should change the name right along [00:49:00] with it. Fuck it. Be done with it. Throw it all out. Start completely over. When I, when I go and adopt my kid in the next however many years. He's going to be old enough to understand why I'm changing his name. His first and last name will change because whatever, whatever fucked up life led him to being in a situation where he needs to be adopted, he needs to understand that that is no more.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And within one to three months, he will be in counseling because everybody needs to be in some type of motherfucking counseling. I don't give a shit if it's not, but once every three to six months is for a checkup, everybody. Being with a shaman, a mystic, a guru, a social worker, a psychiatrist, whatever, hypnotherapist, whoever, you need some objective third party set of eyes on you and your situation to be sure that you're not getting off track at least a couple of times a year.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Some people I know go every week. I'm in communication with these people and all the time now. So, so, I mean, so there, so that's done for me.[00:50:00]

De'Vannon Seráphino: And so all of this, all of this incisions, incisions, all of this. Taking away, cutting off, amputating the people from your life and relationships. It does bear an emotional toll, but just like changing the name, it's like it takes a while to see the growth and the results. Like, I had to grow into becoming who and what Serafina was.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It didn't happen as soon as I changed the name. Once you change your name or you cut off people, it's going to take a while for you to experience. The freedom or the changes, but you know that you're not comfortable and you know why, and it's a change you need to make. I've made many, many changes.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And it's like now though, the sort of people I'm around, it's like, we don't even necessarily have to say, for instance, if we do something for one another, we don't necessarily always have to hear the other [00:51:00] person say thank you, because we already know what high vibration of gratitude we all walk in and we know we're thankful we're not taking each other for granted.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It's like, it's a psychic connection between us. These are friends. This is not, these are not people I'm sexual with in any way. I'm not sexually active right now and haven't been for a while. These are just like friends and I'm focusing on building high vibrational, highly qualitative relationships that have nothing to do with sex and, and I'm not dating or anything.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And, it is very interesting. And so if I'm in someone's house, if we're washing dishes or whatever, whatever country I'm in, it doesn't matter. Even in the United States the people who are, who are gravitating towards me now, who God is sending. There's none of that bickering like who's going to do this, who's going to do that, you didn't do your part, uh uh.

De'Vannon Seráphino: We just move in like a flow, and we just, we just know, okay, they did this on this day, and one of us will [00:52:00] naturally flow to do that same thing, put the clothes up, wash dishes, water the garden, whatever the case may be. Nobody has to monitor, nobody's in fear. Waiting to be taken advantage of or afraid they're going to be taken advantage of and making sure nobody takes advantage.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And with all this, the fear response, it's like a trauma response. The people who I'm hanging around with these days don't carry trauma like that. There are some who believe the healing is never done on some level. I agree with that on some level. I don't that's a different that's a different tunnel. I'm not trying to go down.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But I'm saying we're not perfect, but we're also not petty either. And we're not, we're not checking to be sure, checking for faults in other people like that. We trust who we have allowed into our energy and we let shit flow. And there is, there is an unspoken peace and an unspoken appreciation. We say that we appreciate each other, but it's also, it's like, it's there all the time and we don't have to keep saying it.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It's a natural flow of love, there's a [00:53:00] natural flow of reciprocation, there's a natural flow that's as fluid as a motherfucker, and it's almost like we don't even have to try because we've done the private soul work in isolation by ourselves before we have come out and meshed ourselves with other people.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And now I, I these, and these are all friendship relationships or professional relationships. And now it just flows like motherfucking, the finest, most exquisite oil. And it's, it's like, it just comes natural, like spiritual, natural. But it didn't happen overnight. At some point along the way of me making all of these changes, I looked around and it's been, what is this?

De'Vannon Seráphino: May of 2024. It's so it's been like over a year since I started just making drastic changes and it's like I'm settling into it and I'm all like, I can see the benefits and I can see the benefits. I can feel these benefits. It's like, it's like these [00:54:00] benefits came upon me before I was consciously aware of them because I was such in the business of grinding spiritually and focusing on changing me.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And before I knew it, I was living in the blessings of those changes.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Holidays. I did not like the way holidays are celebrated in the Prius family. These are just some of like my pet peeves. I mean, there's a lot of issues. Like, I'm, I certainly did not break away from, from, from the family I was born into because of holidays. But it's worth the conversation because The way, as they say in John Wick, how you do anything is how you do everything.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And the way holidays were not celebrated in my, in the house that I grew up in, the family I grew up in, is like this. You have the holiday, there'll be a barbecue, there'll be some sort of alcohol, some sort of consumerism. Movies will be [00:55:00] watched, rinse, wash, repeat, no matter what the fucking holiday is. A lot of Americans do this anyway.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I, my whole thing is if you're going to turn up, turn up, but take a moment and say a prayer for the reason the holiday is there how many veterans days, 4th of July's memorial days came around before I was a veteran, after I was a veteran and nobody in my fucking, and then family I was born into said happy veterans day, thank you for your service or none of that, though they ran, got their alcohol and all the turnip.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Oh, for damn sure. They're going to take the day off work and do them. It's almost like people think that they did something to earn those holidays. The job, the hours you put in at your job, do not earn you those holidays. The people who died, who bled, who sweat, current active duty members serving, reserve as veterans such as myself because we can be reactivated.

De'Vannon Seráphino: If this country were to go to [00:56:00] shit, it's in our contracts. that we sign. If this country goes to shit, this is why you have the Department of Veterans Affairs. They're not taking care of us for our health out of the kindness of their fucking heart. It's in case they need us to serve again. If this country goes to shit, the order of it is to reactivate veterans first, and then if you don't have enough people, then resort to a general draft.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It's not benevolence. While the VA hospitals exist, it is not benevolence. And so, when you have days off work and shit like that, bitch, it is not because you worked hard at the job and earned it, it's because I fucking worked hard and gave you that damn holiday. It's because my fellow veterans and people who died in wars gave you that holiday.

De'Vannon Seráphino: So yeah, I have a problem in the blood family that I came out of. When, when holidays and shit like that pass and nobody says a bitch ass fucking thing, like, Hey [00:57:00] D, thank you for crawling over scorpions and rattlesnakes and fucking basic training and shit under barbed wire and bleeding. And all of those things that they know happen.

De'Vannon Seráphino: If they were paying attention, they may not. And I'm like, that's very fucking disrespectful. And I did not dealt with that for years, even though I didn't like it until I, until I stood all I could stand and I had took all that I could take as the leader of House Serafino. If we, if I ever teach my children about holidays, I will teach them to do it right.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And then we will pray, give a moment, even if it ain't but 50 fucking seconds, just to tell God, thank you for the veterans. Please bless the veterans or thank you for, for whatever the fucking cause is, even if it's not veteran related. And then turn up. You can do both, but my huge problem with people is they skip the going back and saying thank you and the giving [00:58:00]reverence, and they just skip right to the turn up.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I get it's because you hate your fucking life, and you really don't like your job, and you really want to get like, peace for a fucking moment. I get that. But, still, you need to be more thankful when it comes down to the way holidays are celebrated. I'm so pissed off with the way they do holidays in the United States that I just don't fucking do holidays anymore.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Peace. I don't celebrate Mother's Day. I don't celebrate Father's Day. I'm sure I don't celebrate Father's Day. I don't celebrate Thanksgiving because what the fuck would I do that for? I don't celebrate Christmas because it's fucking commercialized and you ever seen somebody throw a birthday party for somebody don't even tell them happy birthday?

De'Vannon Seráphino: The people get together and do a whole Christmas caroling with fireworks, pomp and circumstance and never say thank you Jesus. Not one damn time. How the fuck you gonna throw a party for somebody and kick them out of their own shit? And so, I don't fuck with it. I will celebrate Halloween because at least that's the one day out of the [00:59:00] year where people are supposed to be fucking fake.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And, I'm not celebrating fakeness, but this is comedy. Like, so yeah, let's throw on these masks and everyone pretend to be something that they're not. In my opinion, in like a reverse Way, it's the most real day of the year, because at least the pretending is expected. And, and then there's Dia de los Muertos down here in Mexico.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Other than that, I don't fuck with holidays because I'm not about to be system relevant or become a part of some shit that's just being done on autopilot, especially if it's devoid of soul, and meaning, and character, and flavor, and life, and zest, and zeal, and the way holidays are done don't, they don't have that.

De'Vannon Seráphino: So, what happens is you teach children, When you run a family like this to be surface level, okay, with the things [01:00:00] they engage in, you let them experience physical sensations of joy and happiness and pleasure when they're celebrating a holiday that came at the expense of a life of someone else. And you do not set your child down to explain to them why they get to experience today's pleasure.

De'Vannon Seráphino: So they begin to think that shit's just gonna be given to them. That they just have a right. They're just entitled to have this day off. And then they take that train of thinking and it translates into areas of their life that are completely unrelated. And this is very dangerous for them. You see this with apps and shit like that.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Sex apps, dating apps, people. I mean, even here on this trip in Puerto Vallarta, certain people that I've met. I mean, with the first, they don't know a thing about me, but we're concerned about whether I'm a top or bottom, you know where that shit comes from, in part? I don't initiate sexual [01:01:00] conversations.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Told y'all I'm not sexually active. This is just how people are. Some people cannot travel without having sex. And so, But when you're on those apps, the way that they're designed, they ask questions. Height, weight, tribe, are you top, are you bottom, are you versatile? Every time you click and fuck around with shit like that, you're training your mind that that's what's valuable.

De'Vannon Seráphino: You're training your mind that that's what you should be checking for. And you put the app down, and then you go about the business of communicating with sexual position first. I could give a fuck less about who I am as a soul. When I possess power to heal the insecurity that is in somebody and the feelings of loneliness, why they think they have to travel and find somebody to sleep with, if they really knew who I am and what I'm capable of instead of asking me the type of sex I'm capable of providing on that most basic physical level, they'd be asking me to lay hands on them and fucking straighten out what's crooked [01:02:00] and broken within them.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But instead, all they can think about is sex. But you know, when you're on those apps and shit, that's what it's training you to do. If you have a holiday, and you don't give a damn about the depth of it, and you just want to have sensual fun on that day and consume, that's shallow as fuck. If you, when you're on those apps and all that, they're teaching you what's important is sexual position, body type.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Try, none of that has anything to do with giving a fuck about who you're trying to engage with. All of that is a subliminal thing, a subconscious thing, but every single thing you taste, touch, hear, see, feel leaves a mark on you. There's an impression, especially when you're actively accepting it. So this is teaching you to be superficial and it's not a good look.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It's not even cute at all.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But let me shift gears. Why New York city? When I was in, I [01:03:00] had gone to New York city for pride last year. Super excited. If anybody's going to be in New York city for pride, I will be there for this year. Holla at your boy. Let's turn the fuck up. I was trying to leave LaGuardia airport. Some storm had come up and like everyone was canceling flights and at LaGuardia they were like, but we can get you out in five days.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And I was like, and it was almost Independence Day because I had stayed up for a while. Anyway, so I was like, well, fuck it. I might as well stay through Independence Day, celebrate my newfound freedom and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And during these days, I was learning to listen more to why things are happening as opposed to being mad.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Other people in LaGuardia was cussing out the, the gate, gate agents and everybody was, it was, it was, it was a clusterfuck. But I was looking at these people and understanding none of the fighting, yelling, cuss, out cussing and none of that was going to actually change anything. So I sat on the floor. And LaGuardia and centered myself and got quiet and was just like, what is the spirit [01:04:00] speaking to me through this?

De'Vannon Seráphino: And I began to understand that the energies are different in New York. I feel more accepted in New York City. I don't feel like I'm fighting in New York City like I did when I was in Louisiana. I have a very extravagant personality. I'm very over the top. I am truly a Sagittarius in that way. I have a very expansive point of view.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Louisiana is not like that. When I show up with my colored beard and all my style and my swag in New York, you got some insecure fucking people, but it's proportionally different. You probably got like 80 percent confidence. And 80 percent strength and maybe 20 percent low vibration, insecurity, homophobia, racism in New York, whereas that is the reverse in Louisiana.

De'Vannon Seráphino: You got maybe like, 20 percent confidence, 20 percent security, 20 percent open mindedness and the other 80 percent is low vibrational racist. You have not only just high sexually transmitted disease rates [01:05:00] in Louisiana, but you have high spiritually transmitted disease rates in Louisiana to Louisiana is a low vibrational state.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It just fucking is. And what you get is these country as people. Coming from all them country ass little stick cities, like around Baton Rouge, where I, where I was at, and they come into a city like Baton Rouge, and I'm thinking a lot about all the racist ass gays you have down there, you have a lot of fucking racist gays in Baton Rouge, and they come, I know you got them everywhere, but you have a higher concentration there, and they come into Baton Rouge, thinking they're in the big city, Okay, thinking they made it.

De'Vannon Seráphino: They have not and they're not doing damn thing and you know It was hard for me to fight against that energy try to fight for acceptance because they never were fucking going to accept me I'm too confident. I'm too bold. I'm too brave. I'm too I'm too comfortable in my own skin. I know who I am. I know what direction that I'm headed.

De'Vannon Seráphino: No matter what got through at me, no matter what struggles I had to overcome within myself, no matter the addiction, no matter the, [01:06:00] what I still was trying to help the world, trying to minister, trying to be an entrepreneur. Trying to do my own thing, trying to be free, and that pissed them off. My entrepreneurial spirit is something that damn near everybody in New York City has.

De'Vannon Seráphino: There's so many vendors. It's so like Mexico. There's so many like food vendors, people selling this. All these market states. You got the Wall Street and the Financial District in Manhattan. And all of that absolutely of the big tall buildings, but don't get it twisted all throughout the boroughs. You got people doing their own personal businesses that entrepreneur on the street selling this selling that setting up shop here doing you just you get that same kind of energy in Mexico.

De'Vannon Seráphino: You, there is a drive there is a hunger is New York is fast paced, but it's not. It's not like distastefully so or it's not like it's not like it's gonna wear you out. It's fast paced as people understand in New York that you got to get up and get shit done. Nobody's expecting anything just hand you some [01:07:00] shit or nothing like that.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I'm on board with that. I'm saying all this to say New York City's energy matches mine. And it was during that stillness. Well, I was why I was held in New York and could not fly back to Baton Rouge that I begin to understand this. And I said, okay, Lord, do you want me to move to New York? And then I tested it.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I flew to Japan last year. As I came back and I flew to New York and I was like, let me just see if I can find a place to live within like 48 hours. And I did. And I took all of these things as a sign that I should go. But there was also an angel that visited me when I first moved to Baton Rouge, like 10 ish years ago in physical form, this angel came when I was in a restaurant visiting somebody who I'm no longer friends with, but at this time I was, and I was visiting him in a different state.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Like in the fuck. Yeah, I was in the East coast at the time. [01:08:00]Interesting. I'm just thinking about that now. I was on the East Coast. I think I was in Virginia. I was in Virginia. And so this angel came to tell me this angel came to tell me that I would be moving because of what it was. I was in this restaurant.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It was like kind of something like a Popeye's or some kind of chicken joint like that. It was like fast food ish, but not really.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And in a moment, it's like this. I noticed this guy sitting at this table by himself. It was a table that could seat for the dude I'm no longer friends with. And I was at this table to a table next to him. But it's like, it's like my friend even noticed this guy was there. Nobody noticed this guy was there.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And I, I don't even know how the fuck we started talking. I don't know who said what to who first. He was like this white dude, like a fanny pack on kind of like this green Hunter outfit with plaid, very unassuming, but he still had that [01:09:00] look in his eyes as all angels do, like they just know. And how I got on the subject, I was just telling him I didn't like living in Louisiana and he was just like, you sometimes you got to stay somewhere for a while.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And what he said, how he said it, I understood that he was telling me that I would not always be in Louisiana, but he didn't tell me where I would move or when, and for fuck's sake, if he would have told me it'll be another 10 years before you leave, I probably would have fell on the fucking floor, but I always thought I'd move to Los Angeles, I never thought in a million years I'd be on the East Coast, but it would make sense to me now, sitting here thinking about this as I'm talking to you, For an angel to come to me on the East Coast when God knew I'd be moving to the East Coast, when there was nowhere and none of my damn plans at all.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I had thought about Atlanta, and then it was prophesied to me through Evangelist [01:10:00] Nelson not to move to Atlanta. She told me I would not prosper in Atlanta. Didn't say why or nothing like that. She just said, do not go to Atlanta. Sometimes some cities just are not meant for you to go to. Other than that she just said to be sure I to be prayerful about it and whatever, but she told me don't fucking go to Atlanta, but, but, but but this angel told me this years ago that I would be be moving in this angel.

De'Vannon Seráphino: He wasn't eating anything. Nobody talked to him. Nobody said anything to him. And eventually I shifted my attention back to the person who I was there with. And I didn't think about that person. I didn't, I don't, I don't know. I just, I didn't, I don't know. He's just like, I guess, left my mom. I don't know.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I've just put my attention back on the person I was there with.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And you want to,

De'Vannon Seráphino: the [01:11:00] open mindedness of New York is like, when I would be in Louisiana and see, say, see, like, somebody at, like, a gay bar, come through there with a crazy outfit on, like, maybe a leather kilt or something like that. Specifically, I was at one of the, one of the big dance gay bars down there and there was these two young African American queens, these gay dudes throwing shade at this older like white dude that like gray hair, but he was serving like this Scottish goth realness, kilt look, something that's totally fucking on brand anywhere in my opinion, but especially in New York.

De'Vannon Seráphino: If you show up looking like that, it's almost like the crazier you look, the better. It's like that in Tokyo too. There's not really like a defined fashion. Like, we have fashion week, and we have high fashion in New York, but that's an industry. The day to day people walking around the five boroughs, wear what the fuck ever.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And the more [01:12:00] outrageous it is, the more people are like, fuck yeah. Same thing in Tokyo. And that's not why I'm wearing my Tokyo shirt. I just realized that I'm wearing it. This was just my colorful inspiration for it being Sagittarius Full Moon day to day. Okay. That was what synchronicities are synchronicities. But I thought about how they, how those two young African American dudes.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Through shade of this older white dude. Why? Because they're insecure, they hated him for his confidence, et cetera, et cetera, et cetera. Also, they sow very bad karma for themselves. If the Lord decides to even let them live, to get them to look like they were in their 20s. If the Lord decides to even let them get to be that old, they're probably gonna have a fucked up life.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Elderly experience. They won't be able to twirl and kick around a club like this. Older guy, me physically was older, but his spirit was youthful. He looked like he could have been his hair, the way he like his physically, he might've been 60 to 80, [01:13:00] but the way he was bouncing around the club was Spunky and shit.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Those two African American young black gays who decided to hate on him when they could have spoken positivity like, Well, shut the fuck up. Or if they even get to live to be that age, people do die young are not going to have that man's energy. They're going to be bent over on fucking canes and shit because they wanted to be bitter and hateful.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And shit when they could have chosen any other vibration in New York City, that never would have fucking happened. I'm saying all this to say how much better my life is in New York and how thankful I am to be there. Why? I'm not in fucking low vibrational as Baton Rouge anymore. Okay, not everybody in Baton Rouge sucks, but like I explained earlier, the proportions just aren't there to, to, to have warranted me staying there.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I went there. Learn the lessons I needed to the Lord evolved me and strengthened me and when time came for me to go, he got me out of there. So if it's time for you to leave your [01:14:00] city, then pray about it, test the waters, go. And it's the thing to be cautious because when the Lord starts to remove the righteous people out of cities, sometimes he's doing that to remove people so that he can let judgment strike and fall.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It's just like when God got Lot and his crew out of Sodom and Gomorrah, he waited. He wouldn't destroy that city until the righteous left. So when you see righteous people, there's, there's, there's, there's people who have like talk of leaving Baton Rouge. I'm not the only one. There's people who are really fed up with that city and with that state.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And when you see that starting to happen, you might want to pray and take notice because God can move against whole cities, against whole sections of cities, against groups of friends, against groups of people at a time, but he oftentimes won't, he really won't really fuck them up like he's going to until he gets us out of the way.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But when I got to New York, it wasn't [01:15:00] all glitz and rainbows and shit, I was I flew in the JFK and it was like, yeah, I'm in New York, but then it was like, I remember having to go and lean up against, like, one of the, the side of one of the rails on one of the air trains that take you over to the subways.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And I just had to like I just got, like, super emotional and had to, like, cry and shit because it was like, you know what, fuck, I'm in New York, yay. But then the reasons why I was there were still weighing on me very, very fucking heavily with the breakup and the cheating and the devastation.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I was damn sure pushing forward and pressing through it, but I had to press through it with fucking tears. So I'm in this new promised land, but the heaviness was still there. Nevertheless, it seemed like the further away from Baton Rouge I got, the lighter I felt. Even when the plane would take off at Ryan Airport in Baton Rouge, it's like I would just instantly feel lifted, like a weight was lifted off my [01:16:00] shoulder.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Just, just getting up above the negativity that seems to prevail over that town. And, I, no, I, in order for me to get positioned in New York, it would take me seven fucking months to do it. I did not think that going up there would take that long. And the hardest part was being away from my children, like my cats, Felix and Felicity.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I had been with them daily with the exception of traveling, since they were born. I got Felix when he was like two and a half months old, and Felicity when she was like a month and a half old. They're five and seven now. They weren't used to me being gone that damn long. I wasn't used to being gone from them.

De'Vannon Seráphino: My heart goes out to parents who have like human children who are in some sort of work, whatever type of situation where you can't be around your children, especially they're like little babies that you can't necessarily call and talk to. I tried to talk to my cats over the [01:17:00]phone. It really didn't like work out.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And then after a point I was like, fuck, I want to just going to make it worse on them to like, hear my voice. And then they don't see me. And so I just like pulled away from it and stopped. I know with some cats that can make them feel comfort, but mine's are like me. They want the real motherfucking thing.

De'Vannon Seráphino: They want the real McCoy bitch. They're not interested in anything. Where is the van? And period. That was the hardest thing. And so I put myself into. Into this psychic space, and I just of like a type of like, I don't know, avoidance, denial, or detachment or what, because I had to stop everything all at once, stop gardening, stop being around my cats, stop everything.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Of course, the bankruptcy happened and then my house wasn't supposed to get caught up in it. Then it was caught up in it, and then that was a whole back, back and forth thing. And it was, it was, it was, it was, it was truly a fucking mess. Nevertheless, I know the voice of God and I know what he told me to go.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And so, so the New York [01:18:00] City, I went, I did get that room. Like I stated earlier, it was a bad situation. It was 1 of those houses where you see. A lot of in New York where you might have five or seven people in one house trying to make it work and it was terrible because it ended up being a house full of all of these narcissistic as dudes, and it was just terrible.

De'Vannon Seráphino: The person who was like the landlord was the worst of all. Super negative as I would come to learn. It's not that damn narcissistic energy was still trying to fucking follow me and find me because it does that shit. When you're in that cycle you really, really got to get away.

De'Vannon Seráphino: From from people and go into isolation to sever those energies from you because that shit, it's like it would try to reach out to you through friends, through blood family, through anybody you, you try to try to relate with, especially if it sees you trying to get away from it. That's when that's when the heat really gets turned [01:19:00] up.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And, and, and it was just like, I was only maybe there for like a month or two and I just didn't even bother getting like the deposit back when I left because it was just that damn like toxic and terrible and bad. The one night when I came back there I was like high on whatever and that landlord knew it and he ended up coaxing me into like a sexual situation and he should not have done that.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But nevertheless. That was that that is so that is that is what happened, but that should not have happened. I wish it didn't, but because of that and other reasons I left whatever the money was 6 or 7, 900 deposit and just left and just entered into the homeless shelter system until I can until I could rearrange it and organize shit to get it together.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I will talk more about all of that. [01:20:00] In upcoming writings and books, because the homeless shelter system with the 11 o'clock curfews, I couldn't dye my hair in the mirror, if you're talking about like 300 people in some of these, men in some of these shelters, I couldn't do it, I couldn't even dye my hair in the mirror with these people trying to like, either gay bash me or get naked and try to get me to have sex with them in the showers, it was just like, Now that I've decided that I'm getting away from toxic, narcissistic energy, I couldn't fucking escape this shit no matter where the fuck I turned in New York.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I've had to deal with this shit for seven months now. I had a dream when I was in one of the shelters. I ended up in four or five different ones all over New York. They transfer you and shit like that and if you, if you don't, if you miss curfew, you lose your bed. It's a whole shit show. I had a dream that I was like a rainbow.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I've seen myself as rainbows in dreams. God doesn't have a problem with, with queerness at all. But I was this rainbow in this dream [01:21:00] and it's like I was, it was like a square. A rainbow like in a square, but I was surrounded by darkness on all sides. I was the only thing that was bright and colorful in this dream.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I was surrounded by such a low vibrational, toxic masculinity. I've never seen a group of men complain, whine, bitch, fight. The food's too cold. It's too hot. The bed's too hard. It's too soft that the, the, the health of human service, HHS workers yell at people in them shelters. You got to deal with the yelling from the other homeless people.

De'Vannon Seráphino: You got to deal with syringes on the floor. People trying to sell you drugs and their blood on the floor, shit on the floor, pee on the floor. Some they clean every day. Some of those shelters, they only clean on the weekend. It's but I had to do what I had to do. I knew one fucking thing. I wasn't going back to Baton Rouge because that, that, that, because that Baton Rouge is not home to me anymore. It's where I'm from. I'm proud of my Cajun Creole, Louisiana and heritage, but [01:22:00]energetically, it is not congruent. There is no going back to Louisiana.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It took time but the Lord worked it out and now I'm very stable and situated. In New York,

De'Vannon Seráphino: it was so, but this, this association that I developed, it was like, so bad that I was a part of this therapy program at the New York Botanic Gardens up in the Bronx through the Bronx would be a very exquisite program. But the 1st time I walked into these gardens, I couldn't sit through the damn class because when you go to the gardens, you pick things out of the gardens, you cook things in the class, you talk about.

De'Vannon Seráphino: The plants, how they grow, how it relates to mental health, how you can use nature to heal. It's a very fucking badass program. It's a four week cohort. I had like a fucking panic attack of epic proportions. It took me about two hours to calm down from. And I [01:23:00] wanted to just run away from the class, leave, call an Uber or some shit.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But one of the VA workers talked me down and talked me into staying. I couldn't fucking deal with being in a garden. It was raised garden beds, like, I was like, at my house, I had I had like three raised garden bed and not being able to garden. I didn't realize just how attached to it that I really, really am.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And, but when I knew I had to do what I had to do, I just cut that out of my mind. But when I, and I just didn't think about it, but when I walked into that garden, started pulling the greens that they had and stuff like that. And then they, they, we were in this, the garden has like a kitchen attached to it.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And they had the cutting boards, things that I really fucking love to do and get in the kitchen, work out the cutting board. I have very exquisite knife sets very unique cutting boards. All of that was gone. There was no more cooking. I was eating prepackaged processed food at the shelter, which I'm thankful for.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But I went from daily gourmet meals, prepared eating off the land to, to fighting and squabbling over food [01:24:00] in a homeless shelter every day, gratefully. And I just, but when I saw this garden and everything, it just flashed all of my previous life back at me all at once. And I just, I had to get up and. And fucking stumble out of the classroom and shit and couldn't breathe and I was crying and everything and it's like all everything that I left behind came rushing back to me all at once.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And then what the devil did, this is, this is the one of the last things I'll say before I close, what the devil did was to try to take advantage, because see when you're ascending and in the midst of all this, I'm still going through my spiritual ascension while my physicality, my physical world is in complete shitshow shambles.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But what Lucifer was trying to do was to destroy me while I was in this weak and vulnerable state. He did not prevail because there is no purpose or no counsel which can stand against the Lord. Hallelujah and amen. There is no purpose or counsel which can stand [01:25:00]against the Lord. What Lucifer was trying to do is take advantage of this by sending all the I had so many fucking I mean, I already have a lot of enemies, but it was intensified during this time.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And it just kind of felt like when Jesus was born, I'm not saying I'm the Lord, but I am in the Lord and the Lord is in me and I do his commands. But when he was born and Lucifer was after him, through Herod trying to kill him because he was vulnerable, physically vulnerable. And the angels would come and tell his parents, take him here, take him there.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And he was like on the run. From government from, from powerful enemies, but, but those enemies did not prevail over the Lord. And he just kind of gave me those vibes, man. I was like a tender person reborn being rebirthed into a new life without physical protections. But God is stronger than this world.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And so what the devil was trying to do

De'Vannon Seráphino: was he [01:26:00] was using the raw emotions that were being worked through and really triggered every day by the living situation against me. This is why I had to stop drinking. I wasn't no heavy drinker in the first damn place. But I would drink a little bit and on some nights and some days I would feel like I needed to go do drugs.

De'Vannon Seráphino: On some days, I wouldn't. There was no, like, rhyme or reason as to, like, why one day I would have, like, a drink or two and be fine, and another day I would feel the need to go get high. And then I had this dream the last time that I was in the mental hospital, and I was talking to this angel in this dream.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And this angel was explaining to me how now that I've ascended the the level of devils, like, the strength of the sort of demonic beings that I fight has also heightened. And the type that I fight, what they were doing. [01:27:00] Was taking like those few sips of alcohol, and making shit that I was sad about being away from my cats, and healing from all the damage of the past, and making me feel sadder about it than I actually was.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Making it seem worse than it actually was, so if I was gonna be a little bit depressed, the devil threw this liquor, was making me even more fucking depressed. Okay, we hear people say things like alcohol is a depressant. I did not accept that because I'm not an alcohol. I did not consider myself to be an alcoholic, but it would seem that there's that alcohol can be detrimental to you even if you're not officially an alcoholic.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Because this was, this was a gateway for Lucifer to influence me. Even if it was just a little, didn't matter. He was using it like it was a lot. And so you don't have to be an alcoholic for alcohol to be bad for you. You do not have to be an alcoholic for alcohol to be bad for you. I'm sure if I said that [01:28:00] right the first time, so I'm sitting there in the mental hospital and I was hospitalized a lot.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I was hospitalized in for like the 7 months. I was in New York for damn near 2 or 3 months of it. I had a fucking pneumonia. My body wouldn't heal by itself. My HIV charts and all of that was fine. My body was just. It just couldn't deal with it. And maybe the Lord was trying to get me into isolation. I was still in the hospital though.

De'Vannon Seráphino: When I had pneumonia. Releasing my podcast shows and fulfilling orders and working on things for Down Under. I didn't stop. I was there in my gown. On my fucking, with my fucking IV, with the fucking antibiotics to try to kill the pneumonia and breathing treatments and shit and still fucking doing it.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Bitch, cause I'm not, I wasn't about to fucking give up. God damn it. And but I had pneumonia, rhinovirus, COVID twice, and the flu. Some of it I caught while I was at the damn VA, in the [01:29:00] fucking mental hospital, because they have piss poor COVID. I wouldn't even call it COVID protocols. When you get it, they just put you in isolation, but they don't force mask wearing, they don't test people right, or they send them up to the psych wards.

De'Vannon Seráphino: So, some of the shit I actually caught while I was in the hospital. so there I was back in the mental hospital again, and for like, suicidal ideation and shit like that, I was really fucking depressed and sad when I was up there, even though I know it's where I was supposed to be. And. And so this angel is telling me what is happening, what Lucifer's devices are and his tactics and how he's how he was trying to take me out because it's not just the overdosing from the drugs, which is what I think the devil was really trying to do.

De'Vannon Seráphino: But it's also the dangerous people that I would be around. So when I saw this in this dream, I accepted what I think I had already known, that alcohol really was not good for me personally on a spiritual level. I ain't saying alcohol is [01:30:00] bad, it has good qualities to it, but I am saying it is sneaky.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It is one of those things that can become bad before you're willing to realize and confess to yourself that it is. It's tough because society reinforces it. Your families can reinforce it. Social situations can reinforce it. And then you wonder what is my social life gonna look like if I put this drink down.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I'm gonna tell you better. My body is fucking fantastic now that I don't drink anymore. And it's like I felt like talons, like maybe eagle claw talons had been in my heart the whole time. And when I really fucking, truly stopped drinking, and the Lord took that from me, He took away crack, crystal meth, cocaine, and alcohol all at once.

De'Vannon Seráphino: It was like God flipped the light switch and turned it off. And I hadn't had the desire for it since. I mean, be clear, this is not like a, like an AA or some sort of anonymous meeting sort of healing. This is God's healing, the only one that I would accept. As I told the Lord, if you're going to deliver me, I want to be delivered thoroughly.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I don't still want to be [01:31:00] pining away for some shit, trying to squinch the desires every day. No, I don't want to want it. I don't want to be, I want to be completely out of sync with it, out of alignment with it. I don't want it. Okay, I don't want it, I don't need it, take it all the way if you're gonna take it at all, and that's what he did.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Felt like talons had been taken up out of my heart, where, where I had been being controlled by alcohol and I didn't realize it for so many fucking years. Started drinking when I was like five. Okay. I was raised in Louisiana. It's what you do. And, and then what am I, was I physically on this earth 41 when I stopped?

De'Vannon Seráphino: That's say it's about damn time. We can switch over to something else. I do believe in replacing something with another. And so I became a psychonaut through psychedelics. My inner child has been healed. He's not broken anymore. I made sure To still monitor myself, so I took the [01:32:00] Zoloft a little bit of it because it didn't make me feel zombified while I was still working with the shamans and everything and switching over to the psychedelics and I don't use prescription medication, anymore it's gotta be psychedelics just to be sure shit still staying on the up and up, but that is why I stopped drinking because this angel came to me and told me what these, what these demons were doing, what Lucifer's plan was, And I couldn't logically take another fucking drink knowing that if I have one little fucking drop, then that that devil is there.

De'Vannon Seráphino: You could say that damn devil is there waiting to get a foothold and to bring my my emotions down to make me do things to self harm that I would not have done otherwise. It's not like this for everybody. You have to identify what's going on with you and then acknowledge it and accept it, and be willing to detach from and let any motherfucking thing go that does not serve you, okay?

De'Vannon Seráphino: You have to let go of [01:33:00] everything in order to save your life and to gain eternity. You can't hold onto anything or anyone. You gotta let shit go, no matter who the fuck they are, what they are. If you have the power to do this, oh, it's gonna be hard. I mourned and, and then when I was talking to psychiatrists, I was like.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I have to mourn the loss of the social circle that came with alcohol, that came with those drugs that I mentioned that I let go. And I gave myself space to do that. She had a tear, have a funeral, do a burning ritual, something it was important. It was a part of my life. There's a funeral is dead.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Now. I had to mourn the to stop drinking. I had to mourn to stop the drugs. I had to mourn to stop that. And that's okay. It felt right to to to give it a proper fucking burial, if you will. And, and that is why that happened. Because My future in New York and whatever it is I'm set to do for this world was not congruent with alcohol and people in my [01:34:00] psychiatry is whenever I travel, especially been down here in Mexico, where people drink them beer.

De'Vannon Seráphino: So they says tequila everywhere you go. And they're like, so you went to Mexico. You didn't drink anything. I'm like, no, they're like, not 1 time. No, no, dog. Not even 1. They're very, very proud of me and, and, and so, and I'm thankful to God and I'm proud of myself, 'cause when, when I'm, when I'm done with some shit, I'm done with some shit, it does not matter how long it was there or how much I thought it'd always be there because I have mastered detachment through all the fires that I saw in that dream that I mentioned at the beginning of this show.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And I told God, keep me in those fires. The fires are not the most comfortable thing, but in those fires, lie refinement, extraction, things get taken out of me that I don't need. Truth is in there. Evil can't get, get to me like that. Lies can't penetrate that fire. I've taken certain steps to be sure that the people around me have to tell [01:35:00] the truth.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I took certain spiritual steps because I can't have liars close to me. I've taken certain steps. Somebody gets within a certain, certain, certain sphere of me. They, the truth will come out of them. I have, it is done. But I'm going to say the purpose of the Lord that will prevail. If nobody else has told you this, I'm going to tell you this. I give you permission to stop drinking.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I give you permission to be yourself. I give you permission to do what the people around you are not doing until you can get yourself in a situation where you can get yourself around people who are more congruent with this new higher order. Vibration level that you're trying to attain. I give you permission to seek out people who will elevate you and not take you down.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I give, I speak that your eyes be open to the energetic traces and signatures that are attached to every little thing in [01:36:00] this world. I want you to see, and I speak that you can see things for what they really are, and that you can see alcohol for what it really is, as it relates to you, and to an extent, others around you, as it is applicable to your situation.

De'Vannon Seráphino: I give you permission, and I speak that you'll be able to see the influence of any type of mind altering substance on you and your relationships, your businesses, and the way you show up to things in this life. I give you permission to discover who you are, and to be truly who you are. This whole name change, this whole move to New York was me standing in my own power, which is also the power of Christ, the deity I choose to serve, alright?

De'Vannon Seráphino: No shade at anybody's spiritual choices, but you must be fucking clear on what you believe and why and unwavering.

De'Vannon Seráphino: This is all about me being me, not what the world wants me to [01:37:00] be, not what the blood family I was born into wants me to be, not what nobody wants me to be. This was me before the divine going, let me get clear. Okay, now what shall I do? Doing it. And everybody else? Fuck them. They cool with it, great.

De'Vannon Seráphino: If not, fuck them. But we moving forward. This is a power play. It's a power move on my part. I sacrificed everything to do it. But I wouldn't trade the life I have now for it to have kept the last one. I thought I was living. No, I'm living now. God gave me a new life. And only God can give you happiness in life.

De'Vannon Seráphino: So you gotta be where God wants you to be. Are you not gonna be happy any fucking way? So if I tried to stay to stay in Louisiana, I wouldn't be happy. I wouldn't have been right because only God can give you peace where you're at. So going to a place won't make you happy. You got to get the changes within you situated first and started.

De'Vannon Seráphino: And then if those changes and if God wants you to move somewhere else, then you go. I want to be clear. I didn't move [01:38:00] to New York to get happy. I moved to New York because that's where God wanted me to go. And New York is still where I am. It's energetically as far different in a way and separate from Baton Rouge as you can get and that the power of that change was a power that helped to break me from the energies of the past.

De'Vannon Seráphino: That's just the shock value of it. It's what God used to work me up out of it. It didn't happen overnight. My New York initiation was brutal. It was tough as a son of a bitch. And it was, and it was just, I don't even much even, it was just like, it was just like so much. It feels like about seven years have gone by since I left Baton Rouge and not seven months.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Nevertheless, it's what has to be done. Your change is going to look like how yours is supposed to look, but I encourage you to seek it no matter the cost, and to seek it without delay. No matter what it costs you, it should not hurt, you should not be destroying other people. Now, if their feelings get hurt, that ain't your damn business.

De'Vannon Seráphino: Fuck them. You gotta do you. Be [01:39:00] yourself, children. Reach out to me if you have any questions. The website is sexdrugsandjesus. com. On YouTube, Sex Drugs and Jesus Podcast, and on TikTok as well. Thank you all so much. Happy Pride Month. I will celebrate Pride, not just for me, but for you tonight and these next few days here in Puerto Vallarta.

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