Getting Out With Jesse Xander
Raw, unfiltered, conversations and interviews filled with laughter.
Getting Out is Hosted By Me, Jesse Xander, I spent 3 years in prison, during the covid pandemic and locked down 24 hours a day. So every day is a gift that I have to remind myself to even open.
I spent most of my young life in the Entertainment industry. I had the privilege to work with artists such as The Sugar Hill Gang, Biz Markie, Poppa Don, Inner Party System, Ty Wiz and many others but before I knew it I was in sooo deep I didn't think id ever be able to GET OUT, let alone repair all the damage I caused. But I’m alive and I’m free.
I started Getting Out to tackle topics such as addiction, mental health and Prison Life-which comes with stories of loved ones passing and a lot of pain. But also stories of redemption and over coming. GETTING OUT gives us a chance to look at ourselves our past mistakes, and hopefully help someone that is dealing with something similar.. Or maybe you’re just interested in what prison life is like and want a good laugh? We got you.
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S02EP50 FINALLY Jesse Gives Us A Sneak Peak From His Upcoming EP
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We made it! 50 episodes! Next week we have our Mothers day Special, and we celebrate our 52nd episode which means a year worth of episodes!!! This week I sit down with my right hand man, ride or die Mr KDG!!! We talk about what to expect in his upcoming podcast "The KDG Show". I also play a sneak peak of one of my new songs that will be on my upcoming EP "Under The Moonlight". You can listen to the demo version on my soundcloud to see how far the song has progessed. Don't forget to check my boy out @the_KDG_show for updates on his new show
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Late Night Conversations and Reflections
Speaker 1You , son of a bitch . Oh shit , you hear this , I like it . My boy , my boy , keith , shot out the key though there . Oh yeah , uh-huh , oh my shit , all right , so that's good , kev , it's fucking late right now . I'll tell you that .
Speaker 2It is really late . Yeah , all day we just trying to get this shit together .
Speaker 1Hell yeah , dude , kev's my boy , though , sticking through .
Speaker 3We're here on a fucking Monday night . Yeah , 10 , 40 , 45, .
Speaker 1You know , yeah Fucking , we're doing what we gotta do , though Kev .
Speaker 2Gotta do it .
Speaker 1We don't give up , we just do it , we're doing what we gotta do , yep , so it is what it is .
Speaker 2You know it takes time . Shit takes time . It does , but you know what ? We're young .
Speaker 1We gotta do it now . Absolutely , I agree . So what's going on with you , brother ?
Speaker 2so I know we're starting a new show with you we got the new show already .
Speaker 1We're doing the fucking . We got a nice little logo that we're designing . Yeah , putting together some stuff for your show and my uh , me and my brothers , yeah , but uh yeah , so just want to . I want to give the people a little insight before you know they get a chance to watch the show . Like who you are , what you're about . I'll give a little leeway because I know you for a long time . Yes , you do Adopted , yeah , how many siblings .
Speaker 2Two brothers and three sisters .
Speaker 1So you know big family .
Speaker 2Oh yeah , it just keeps getting bigger . Yeah , people don't know how to keep their legs closed . Wait , what is that ? Legs closed ? Yeah , you got to keep your legs closed . You got to keep the legs closed . Keep those legs closed . These kids pop out like non-stop , I know , and then your nephews and nieces and stuff . You got a bunch of them . I tell you man .
Speaker 1One thing we ran into today when I picked him up . We're driving back and I went to the bathroom and I'm thinking I'm like yo , you got a lot of people in the house . How many bathrooms Imagine .
Speaker 2It's like the Home Alone house there was like 20 people and then , yeah , home Alone , like every day . Exactly what it is .
Speaker 1Always someone in the bathroom probably .
Speaker 2Always trying to use the shower . You're on your time , though Like the whole time . You're upstairs you're watching the whole movie , and then you come downstairs you're like I'm going to take a shower , you know I'll go to the bathroom , yeah . And then you have a whole conga line in front of you . I can only imagine .
Speaker 1What's going on ? Yeah , yeah , I don't know if I'd be able to handle that .
Speaker 2Oh , I handle it . I handle it . I go upstairs and I just wait . You got to have patience with everything .
Speaker 1Yeah .
Speaker 2It doesn't matter how mad you get . Just why should you be mad at something stupid , unless you're in a rush and you're late for church . You know , come on .
Speaker 1You go to church guy , Are you a church guy ?
Speaker 2Well , you know , but I need to keep it up too .
Speaker 1But you know what's funny ? My parents just went what was it this this week ? Well , is there something like my parents just went what was it today ? No , yesterday or something they went to like a 10 o'clock in the morning mass . For some reason I don't know , my son , my mom , sometimes gets all fucking emotional and she'll like want to go to the church to talk to like because her dad just passed oh yeah , it's the best place to go , yeah so she's like a real believer in like going to see graves and stuff like that .
Speaker 2Well , you know what me ? I'll go to the grave . I want to go to church . I would just go to the grave and the closest you can get if you're really close to that person how do you feel about that , though ?
Speaker 1are you , uh , like if you had a best friend passed away , right ? Because I know we talked about it ? Actually , you said something earlier like it sucks that we get buried instead of what was your thought ? What were ?
Speaker 2you going to say about that . So my thought of my ear fell out one minute .
Speaker 1Yeah , it's a new headphone for you , so you got to like push it in . You know what I mean .
Speaker 2Make it nice and tight , push it around your ear , that's what she said , you know , it's just like well , you got to make it nice and tight yeah .
Speaker 1I'll boost you up so you can hear yourself better .
Beliefs on Burial and Religion
Speaker 1About like burying people yeah . So About burying people yeah . So what is your belief ? You don't think we should be buried ?
Speaker 2Yeah , because people die almost every day I'm sorry to say that , but it's the truth From old age or suicide or just accidental death , car accidents . And we have a big world , yeah , but we look tiny because there's other planets bigger than us . There's a lot of people in this world .
Speaker 1That's the thing .
Speaker 2Yeah . So about burying people , they have to dig more holes . Dig more holes , knock down places . I'm telling you at the end of when I'm in the future , it's just going to be all cemetery the whole world .
Speaker 1Yeah , like you say cemetery business is never going to go out of us and it's good money too .
Speaker 2Good money no one's going to stop dying ?
Speaker 1unless they fucking find the fountain of youth . Yeah See , you know , I'll talk about this too . Like I'm not afraid of death , I'm more afraid of other people dying .
Speaker 2I used to be scared of death . Not so much anymore , right , no , not anymore . Because no , not anymore , because you know whatever—I believe in reincarnation , Me too .
Speaker 1My family's are Catholic , or you know— . Yeah , catholic Christian . Yeah , I got you .
Speaker 2So I believe in God ? I guess you know , because it's for my family , what about the Jesus thing ? So the Jesus thing , you know all that .
Speaker 1You believe the Jesus thing . Well , I know Jesus was real . What I'm saying you believe , saying you believe he's the son of God , yeah , because I grew up with that . No , I respect everyone's religion . I have no qualms with anybody . I believe that you could think , believe whatever you want to , whatever makes you happy .
Speaker 2Exactly , and that's what it is . That's what makes you happy , because it's your faith that's going to ultimately lead you to do what you do .
Speaker 1Hey , people say God is black , but not like he's— . I really think he was too , because I think most people were black before . I think that was the original skin color .
Speaker 2Who knows ? Yeah , who knows . It wasn't what we see Like . This is a picture .
Speaker 1Yeah , oh yeah , you never know . See , to me God is like something you cannot even explain , touch , like we were talking about how life can be a simulation and I was showing you all that and that's why I said I don't know why people uh getting buried instead of like cremating .
Speaker 2Yeah , see that that's fine . Yeah , uh , what else I would ? I would be buried in a tomb or in a wall sitting up like a mummy . That would be pretty cool .
Speaker 1You would want to be wait , wait , wait . You want to be put in a wall .
Speaker 2Yeah , why do ?
Speaker 1they put people in fucking walls .
Speaker 2Because I think it's cool , you know , and just in case , I want like a door where , just in case , I wake up and pass the door and I'm out , I'm safe , I'm out trapped .
Speaker 1Wait , wait , wait , you're going to have a button to push . Oh , that's a good idea .
Speaker 2Because I don't want to get buried six feet under and wake up in my casket and be like this is something that you brought up , a memory I have I'm not sure if it's true .
Speaker 1Okay , back in the day , apparently there used to be so many .
Speaker 1I think it was like the plague or something , the Black Plague or something like that back , all the way back then I'm not going to even try to say Spanish Revolution , I don't fucking know , but I know that they had such problems with determining if they were really dead or if they were just their heart stopped and they were really dead , or if they were just their heart stopped and they were going to wake up , exactly , and they buried a lot of people and they actually had to dig up graves . Yeah , so , instead of having to go through the process of , like trying to find out , or like , I guess , the liability of it all , yeah so they put a foot . Every grave had a bell on top of it with a long string that led into the dirt , into the coffin to if you did happen to wake up and you
Speaker 3weren't dead .
Speaker 1Look at you , you were pretty on point with that guy . So yeah , and they , and apparently it was a bell . I look that shit up , I'm guaranteed I'm gonna put that I'm to try to put that in a video if I can't throw that shit up there . But yeah no that was how it was , bro . That was . You're exactly right . That's what scares me too , like how do you know ? Like , if I'm buried ?
Speaker 2And I thought about it too , Like I would just find my way to because my back is very strong . So just flip over and just push , but no way .
Speaker 1All that dirt you are built like a fucking machine , my friend , and you don't go to the gym that much . No , god just said hey .
Speaker 2I'm going to make it God just blessed black people .
Speaker 1No , no , no . I think so . You guys deserved it . Yeah , you know you guys went through a lot . You guys deserve a little bit of like . Here's some muscles for free they for free . Here's the muscles for free . We'll give you amazing basketball talent and you're good at baseball . Where'd that guy go ?
Speaker 2What the heck ? Oh that extra calf muscle We'll give you fucking extra speed .
Speaker 1Yeah , he felt bad . Yeah , he was like dude fucking the people I created . These guys have to run away fast yeah . The people I created Are fucking Messing with my Like , with my human beings . You know what I mean . They're trying to separate each other . He's like At least I can do , yep , come on , I'm gonna give him the extra Achilles tendon .
Speaker 2Or something you need it . I think that's an actual fact too . I think so , yeah .
Speaker 1And I think , as we evolve too , that they're finding that more ligaments are being found Right , more basically , like you know , we're evolving , we are being able to adapt to our surroundings , like usual in evolution . So we're like our fingers are getting longer . They said , um , there's something else that , like they said , we're not gonna need anymore , like I think there's what's that thing that they take out , or your tonsils , or something like that . Some people are born , being born without them consoles yeah , because usually they just get them taken .
Speaker 1You don't need them and they still have them . Yeah , but there's another . There's a couple of organs in our body that there are no longer being used . Like if you take them out , there's , but there's a couple of organs in our body that are no longer being used . If you take them out , there's no need . There's nothing bad will happen from that organ being taken out .
Speaker 2Well , if we don't need it , then I'd rather just still have it in my body .
Speaker 1Really , you want some excess baggage and shit .
Speaker 2God gave me it , so why should I just get surgery and bleed it out ?
Speaker 1See , that's a good thing , because how do you know that that extra fucking little thing isn't the thing ?
Speaker 2That's why I'm so healthy right now . And it gives you superpowers or superpowers , and then I get rid of it and I can't fly no more .
Speaker 1Exactly , and you didn't even know you could fly in the first place . Yeah , those motherfuckers .
Speaker 2Until you get rid of what you really need , then you're going to realize you lost it .
Speaker 1Like how do you know ? It's not like oh , pull your toe three times and dislocate your shoulder and then you can activate something in your brain where you can fly or do some telekinesis and some shit .
Speaker 2Some people probably you know what , Thinking about it some people got to have some powers Go Because I got to have some powers Go Because I know I have some . It's like seeing in , like the future , like thinking your dreams sometimes .
Speaker 1Come on , I know .
Speaker 2Dreams , or like thinking about like okay , there's going to be a truck today and it's going to pass , so like thinking about a blue truck and then something's going to happen to it Worst person you're thinking about from a long time ago , but then later on you see exactly what you were just thinking about . You're like yep , I have that talent , I have that power , that's my power .
Speaker 1Yeah , I definitely see that with you , See , with me . I think it's more of an empathy thing , Like I could walk into a room and totally be like , yeah , that person with that couple right there they're fighting . You know , they're not doing good together . Right that , you know that person's . I can feel like the negativity or the positivity you know , so it's . I feel like I could sense energy a lot yeah .
Speaker 1I say this all the time . You know , I think that that's a big thing Hormones like pheromones , whatever it's called and definitely we receive like I could sense what's going on like you don't want to be around someone miserable , exactly because you'll be miserable , right ? And I've been learning that too like , no matter how much I love people and how close I am to them , as soon as it starts to become a fucking stressful situation , yeah , negativity , uh , toxic people .
Speaker 2You can't be around that . You cannot . And I know a couple of friends that I'm uh really close with and there's a couple of friends that don't like my friends and they used to be friends , you know , and I'm in the middle of that , and there's a couple of friends that don't like my friends and they used to be friends , you know , and I'm in the middle of that , and it's just like you know what I love ? I love all you and I'm gonna do my best to fix it . If you don't want it fixed , there's not gonna be no uh stress . There's not gonna be no fighting because you know I don't like that about me and it's not gonna be like that .
Speaker 1I know you guys won't , but I've honestly , every time I've been around you . It's nothing but positivity .
Speaker 2It's positivity . But there's some places that have a negativity , but they don't need it oh yeah of course you know why people bring it up and they talk to me about it Because they need help .
Speaker 1Yes .
Speaker 2They just like feel lonely .
Speaker 1They feel Everyone needs help . Kev A lot of .
Speaker 2That's like I'm a superhero . I help people to make them feel better , to just give them facts about life .
Speaker 1Every time I fucking see you , Kev , you make me feel better , you give me a positive vibe . Kev is the one person that sticks with my bullshit . You understand the shit that I'm going through . So you don't how do I put it ? You are just understanding . I don't have to explain . Like dude , I'm not really trying to go out today . You understand immediately .
Speaker 3I don't have to explain it to you .
Speaker 1You know the mindset I've had . I'm not in the same spot that I used to be right and it sucks like I was talking to a psych . I had a psych appointment for the first time in mad law on wednesday because I was like this is getting just ridiculous like a panic attack like who the fuck am I ?
Speaker 1yeah , and I started opening , I was like I don't remember that person anymore , when I think back to Jesse in high school , the one we used to fuck around . You had a good time , you let it all out . I do not Like . That person is such like a far away thing for me . Like , but it's not like , but it's still there , Like cause we were talking about today . How , like you know , like
Life's Ups and Downs
Speaker 1going out and like how . I was homeless , and being homeless was like one of the best three or four months of my entire life .
Speaker 2And you were lucky that it was the best year time . Yeah , Cause a lot of people are out there homeless and they're just like they're not having a good time .
Speaker 1No , absolutely not , I agree are out there homeless and they're just like they're not having a good time . No , absolutely not . I I agree with you a hundred percent . I am extremely lucky , yeah , for the fact that I didn't have to . I had people that were stupid enough to let me live there , and I told you the men , it was ridiculous . Girl after girl would just offer me rooms in their house . Their moms would let me drive the car .
Speaker 3Oh my god .
Speaker 1They all hate me now . I fucked everything up but I had all those bridges not burnt already . So they were like Okay , this kid's obviously just going through a rough patch , he's such a good kid , he sings . I know him from high school , right , just going through a rough patch , you know . And he's such a good kid , you know he sings , and I know from high school and right . And yeah , I just winded up . You know , mass turned into a mess . Bro , I thought I used heroin . Heroin fucked my whole .
Speaker 2I can do it whole life up .
Speaker 1You know , and I'm so happy that , like you are , like I'm the you know you , I'm so happy that you've that going to prison didn't put you down that path right .
Speaker 2You know what I'm saying . You know what ? If I didn't have the right people around me and the right family , then who knows where ?
Speaker 1who knows if I didn't have surge , to be honest , well , yeah , you said , surge was a big was a big big impact in my life , yeah , and you know what ?
Speaker 2And it just kept getting better . And then he got me close to my family . I wasn't as close as Serge . Why is that , kev ? I was just a stubborn asshole , you know . I would just go out , I would drink , I would just want what I wanted , like me , yeah . And then when I met Serge , he just told me hey , that's your mom , you know . And he talked to my mom and since that day , me and my mom just headed off and it's just a family . That's awesome . Yeah , nothing better . And then I just I had no John , shout out to John . You know , I can't wait to meet these guys . Yeah , yeah .
Speaker 1Meet these people , the family . Yeah , you guys go out to karaoke on the fridays you know what I'm saying .
Speaker 2Yeah , that sounds like a fucking good ass time , good time , I just don't want to go in there and like , wipe this shit clean you know what I'm saying ? Yeah , I'm saying yeah , I feel you , I don't want to go in there cause issues right start playing some shit .
Speaker 1Should I start even playing some shit ? Should I start even playing some shit , Kev ? Oh my God , Should I show them some shit Show ?
Speaker 2them a little bit , a little sneak peek A little sneak peek of this up . A little bit . You think so ? Yeah , just a little bit .
Speaker 1All right , let's see , let's see , let's see what we're working with . All right , because me justin , have been working for a while and we have the one song . So this is how it started . I recorded a song in my studio apartment below the person that I actually winded up getting in trouble with because I was , you know .
Speaker 3Yeah , stupid shit living there they were great people .
Speaker 1I was just an asshole , yeah , um . But in that apartment I had boombox speakers from like 19 , no , 2008 , okay , and this was like 2016 , right . So I had boombox speakers that still used the old surround sound cables . You know what I'm talking about ? Kev , the old surround they had like the black and the red . You had to split them and then push them , in that you had to fray the cable and make sure the wire was into the thing and then clamp the wire and all that shit .
Speaker 1So I used that and I connected it through rca thanks to my computer , and I used Reason 5 . And at that time it was on Reason 9 , I believe . So I'm using old software and I just started making beats .
Speaker 3I just started making music and recording .
Speaker 1And I finally figured out this one song and it's been sitting in my library for a long time but it's not finished because the bridge , I thought , was there was no vocals over it . So I was like and there was like it wasn't mixed right , but it was there , it was very close . And I showed it to Justin , who is , you know , big wig and doing his thing , and he has a lot of connections , and he was like , dude , we should do something with this stuff . Do you have other songs that you have ?
Speaker 1like that you've been recording . I was like , yeah , I got a bunch . I was like , let me show you something , and so this was the one song that I sent him , and then he sent it back to me and we started doing a back and forth nice and this is kind of what came out of it . I want to see if you guys could hear it , yeah you can go Under the moonlight .
Speaker 3Something just didn't seem right . Dressed in shades of red , there was vengeance in her eyes . She said that she loved me , but our love wasn't healthy . I tried to ignore the signs , thinking it was all in my mind . Under the moonlight , I stumbled . Under the moonlight , I stumble and her arms are crumbled . But your head is still held high and I'm high . We stay here forever In your arms . I felt as light , as light as a feather . Oh , oh I . I always thought .
Speaker 2We'd stay here forever , like the stars unto the sky . You are my treasure In your arms , forever High and intoxicated . It's a fire . It's a fire . It's getting hotter here . Yeah , it's getting hot here . Yeah , it's getting hot here , like I get goosebumps .
Speaker 1I was like Holy shit , you made that shit so good .
Speaker 2Yeah , you did , yeah , you made that shit so good . Ladies and gentlemen , wow Damn .
Speaker 1Right Gosh , I wish I could . I can't show them the Billie Jean , but I showed you , billie Jean . Yeah , how that's fire too .
Speaker 2Fucking Sick Does that sound , and it's different .
Speaker 1Show them the billy jean . But I showed you billy jean . Yeah , how that's fucking yeah sick does that sound ? And it's different man yeah , yeah like I was . There's a couple artists kev that I won't go near covered , of course , beatles , nirvana uh fucking , what are they called ? Uh , foo Fighters , foo Fighters , yeah uh Black , uh , the Black Keys right .
Speaker 1Muse , like shit like that . Like I would not be able , I wouldn't , I wouldn't touch that . Maroon 5 Maroon 5 , I can . I sound like him . I've done so many fucking covers of Maroon 5 . Yeah , that's , I sound like him . I've done so many fucking covers of Maroon 5 . Yeah , that's like my shit .
Speaker 1I could do probably I could do a whole if I had a band that knew all the songs . Yeah , that I that . I know every song on every album . Not the newer stuff , yeah , but the older , even the newer stuff I know most of right , but I'm just a huge fucking fan of them in general . Like I don't know , like he is the one who got me , not him , but actually the whole band is the one people who got me into music and understanding it , because the way that they produced their first album was so different than the way other people were doing it at that time and it just hit home for me . It set something off . I was playing football in high school and as the music started getting more and more important to me , I just was like I can't .
Speaker 1I want to dedicate my time to this you know , and it was a smart decision , I think , because I , you know , I did some fucking things that a lot of people you know haven't done . Worked with some people at a very young age that I could like . It's still to me today when I look back at it surreal , and you still got it too .
Speaker 2I know . That's what like now . That's coming to me today when I look back at it . Surreal , and you still got it too , I know .
Speaker 1That's what like now that's coming out of prison is what I realized . It's like damn . It's like I'm so far behind on technology , but that does not mean that I can't learn it .
Speaker 2No , it's your comeback tour . It's the comeback tour .
Speaker 1Exactly , and you saw , you sat with me today and I walked you through everything that I do .
Speaker 2Yep .
Speaker 1And can you explain to them that why I'm trying to do this is to streamline ? Yeah , so that we're going to be able to do multiple things faster , faster , no problems , no problems .
Speaker 2Faster , no problems , no problems . Yeah .
Speaker 1But the thing is , all the problems occur while you're . You know the first couple weeks . Everything's not going to be perfect immediately .
Speaker 2There's no such thing as perfect .
Speaker 1So I thank God I have you . You and my brother have been like huge with like patience and everything .
Speaker 2Definitely
Challenges and Opportunities
Speaker 2yeah .
Speaker 1Like last week I wasn't able to show a video because I was rushing Right and I went to go set you up and I fucking the camera angle was off and like really bad . And I was like I'm not putting you know . It was like Pat Wells , like at the center of the frame and you were like all the way off the line . I was like no , trying to get you guys even , but I couldn't you know yeah , it's a whole fucking thing , because we're dealing with .
Speaker 1We're dealing with what we're working with what we have yes , you know , you know why we don't have . We're all broke right , so we're trying to do what we can . You know how it is we do what we can app , so fucking that's it , so let me ask you I know that you've been , uh , doing some jobs and working like sonic was your thing for a little bit . Are you still there ?
Speaker 2No , why would I be there ?
Speaker 2I don't know , kev , they fired me . The boss gave me a . He fired me by text . No , he did the fire by text move . He's like I don't need your services , no more . I said , yes , sir , all right . And then I Crazy but crazy , but uh , I saw it coming . So I've just been uh looking around for bigger and better jobs , like , uh , mailman or you know , being a police officer , being being a super astronaut ? Yeah , I think you could do it . Yeah , I definitely can . I think you could do it . Yeah , you got it in . Can I think you could do it ? You got it in . You , Would you ever want to go to space ? But I want to be a singer , I want to be an actor . You have a great voice . I try , you have a great voice . A lot of people say that and you know , I still , I know I have a good voice , but is it like what people say , and they'll find a certain songs to sing that will ?
Speaker 1It's not that , it's that you need to start like writing .
Speaker 2Yeah , I always thought about it , think about everything .
Speaker 1I can only imagine , like the stuff you've been through . Like a lot of people will relate If you can find a way to put that on paper . That's different than other people you know . That's different than what they're used to .
Speaker 2They said I should write a book A lot . You know , that's different than what they're used to .
Speaker 1They said I should write a book . A lot of people said , oh hell . Yeah , I would love to read it . Yeah , oh , yeah , me too . I've actually written up to a certain point . Rehab makes you do that , yeah , but uh , no , I've actually done . It actually helps you like Kind of put some shit together and like alright , this is why I did X , this is why I did Z , yeah , you know . So I could see it helping , and I could see it also helping other people , because your story is very unique , right .
Speaker 1You know , it's not something you hear all the time . Right , you got a lot of like . Every time I pull up to your house , there's people , people outside , you know you got a bug , you tell that's my niece , that's my , you know my brother . And then down . You got a ridiculous block Too .
Speaker 2You got chickens on the block .
Speaker 1Yeah , I got chickens . At the other end there's like a sick ass Fire , fucking pit Like on the street . Yeah , like it's literally so close Her , her backyard is so close , yeah , to the street that it's literally like Right there From the sidewalk . Be like a block party yeah , it's dope , but it's like it's , it's really cool . Yeah , it's just a good . It's a nice little street , peaceful yeah , nice little nice little , nice little street it's a lady , jogging my cousin actually just moved over there yeah , yeah , he moved over in that direction too yeah , it's nice it's getting nice .
Speaker 2It's getting really nice over by kingsburg too , which I was surprised yeah , but you know what they can build all they want over there . It's not going to change that . When you say Keensburg , it's like , oh you know , no disrespect .
Speaker 1No , bro , I lived in Keensburg . You're good because it's right . You can't even go over 25 miles an hour without the cops fucking coming to harass you .
Speaker 2I'm a boss , I'm Vic Laws going through that shit , you know .
Speaker 1Yeah , but the cops are on you , bro . 25 miles an hour , that's like , or 35 is like the tops in Kingsburg neighborhoods . Right , you ain't doing more than that ? No , you're not , and you're getting pulled over if you are .
Speaker 2Well , you know , if you're hanging out and you're doing some stupid shit , yeah , if you're just there to just drive through . But they don't know that , dude , they don't . But they know to pull you over and not pull you over .
Speaker 1They're kind of good at it .
Speaker 2Yeah , they're very , very smart . If you look at them while you're driving by , they're going to pull you over .
Speaker 1Yeah , no , you got to do the non-look . That's the thing .
Speaker 2It's like you got to figure , don't look , yeah it it low , don't look low Old cop . Yeah , keep it low , Keep it low . Act like you're chilling dude .
Speaker 1Yeah , look out your eye , you know what I mean . Do a little booger pick . A booger pick is good , a booger pick because they're going to be like , damn , this kid definitely is not doing anything .
Speaker 2Are . I'll be smiling . I'll be tend to laugh .
Speaker 1I was living out of my . I was on drug court , right , I'm living out of my car . So I had my hamper in the back full of clothes . Full of clothes , my whole back , not disgusting with like food or anything .
Speaker 2It was just all shit , you know , because I was moving so much that's what it looked like before I got arrested that car that we were in doing all the bad shit .
Speaker 1We were just rotting food in there because we had picnics thank god the food and stuff that was gone was most of it , but it was more just like clothes , blankets , pillows , my backpack , girls , shit that they left in my car .
Speaker 3Exactly Because the clothes , everything , because I was just going . It was bad .
Speaker 1That's why people are very confused Like why are you not doing anything ? Girls Like I ran through my fair amount of girls okay . So I had a bunch of girl shit from girls in my car . Okay , I was doing shit that I should not have been doing you know , that did not make me feel good you know .
Speaker 1So I remember I'm with . So it was after I hit those deer , right , right . So now I'm getting pulled over every night . So if I had someone in my car at night and I was out at night in that car , that hyundai that I spent 800 on , yeah , I told them . Like I had a stripper the one stripper in my car I told her listen , we're probably gonna get pulled over tonight , just to let you know . But I've been pulled over many times . It's a one , two , three thing , don't worry about it . Right ? Why ? Because my headlight has been out forever . Why haven't you got it changed ?
Speaker 2Well , because I hit a deer and I got to get everything fixed to get the headlight , and the headlight cost $250 .
Speaker 1The car was worth $8 .
Speaker 2Yeah , and that's yeah wow .
Speaker 1Do the math . Is it worth it to fucking ? You know what I mean . Wait until , because I'm calling junkyards . I'm trying to find like something that is similar , because it's the cheapest If you were to go fucking to like AutoZone or something they charge like $200 . You need the whole light . I needed the whole fucking thing .
Speaker 2I smashed the whole thing Right .
Speaker 1So I would try to tell this to cops and they would have no sympathy , whatever blah blah , but they were some .
Speaker 1Some of them were cool , yeah . And so , of course , that night , like most nights , I get pulled over Right . She's crying , bro , she's crying , she's crying , she's crying . She's cops looking at the flashlight through my car Like , oh okay , so what do we got going on ? It's a mess back here . And I hear him talking about all this shit . So I go officer , you're more than welcome to look back there . It's going to take you a very , very long time for no results .
Speaker 1I was like I'm on drug court . Right now . I'm with a girl . We are just trying to figure out a place to go . As you can tell , I live out of my car and I go from house to house , sometimes trying to figure out a place to stay . Hey , if you want to organize the back for me , be my guest . It would be so nice if you could fucking just organize it a little bit for me . Yeah , yeah , you know so , and he was like oh , this guy ain't doing nothing . You know I like it and left , so it's all the way you talk about it Like I pulled over when I was tripping on acid .
Speaker 3Okay .
Speaker 1Bro with another stripper in my car . Wow , Tripping on my car , it was Tripping on Kevin . I'm talking about tripping on acid so hard that the road looked like a fucking what is it called a licorice stick .
Speaker 3It was like all like fucking fruity pebbles and licorice sticks road , so I'm like what the ?
Speaker 1fuck . All of a sudden I just see glow all over the place and the girl's like no , what's going on ? This is a bad strip . Like bad straight up . No , she's about cars , she's that bad , wow . Like , yeah , people were like white boy was like I don't know how that happened . I was like I don't . I never picked up a girl from the strip club . I just wound up picking up like three or four of them . Just from me going to pick people up . I wasn't even going to the strip club .
Speaker 2That happens to strip clubs all the time .
Speaker 1Ridiculous .
Speaker 2Hey , I'm having a party over here . You want to take me with you ?
Speaker 1Bro , I don't know how it happened , don't know , but good times , good times . So I went to what is it called ? What was I saying ? I went to ? Yeah , I went to my boy's house and we're tripping balls and I'm like fuck it , let's just drive home , because this girl's acting mad weird . So I'm driving home and the roads look like fucking slinkies .
Speaker 1That's what it was Like oh yo , I'm keeping shit going . Yo , this girl's like how are you driving ? Blah , blah , blah Starts glowing . Yeah , cops . Oh no , tripping balls . Oh bro , I don't even .
Speaker 1It was such a like a small thing in that moment of time that like I forgot about it for so long and I'm like , holy shit , I did . I got pulled over while I was on acid . Oh , gone , nothing , no ticket , nothing . So a couple of weeks after that , because he warned me , he's like I do remember . He was like yo , you got like three or four headlight tickets that you haven't paid . He goes and I think you have two days left to pay one of them . He's like it says in the computer he goes , if you don't , they're probably next time you get pulled over you're probably gonna get go to county until you could pay it .
Speaker 1I'm like are you here for a headlight ticket ? He's like , yeah , bro , this was fine . So it was a 50 headlight ticket , but they added up five or six of them , kev . So I'm with my girlfriend at the time yeah , outside her house , about to get into her car . My car's parked out there , right , she's got a kid she's about to put in the backseat . Yeah , her mom's in the car , mm-hmm , I'm in the backseat with the kid chilling , fucking around with the kid .
Speaker 2Yeah .
Speaker 1Fuck , here it is my boy . Yeah , what's going on , little man ? I see a cop pass by before we get in the car right , Slowing down , looking at us weird . Get in the car Her car , not my car right , we pull a block away . That same cop pulls us over .
Speaker 2Wow , you see Just following him .
Speaker 1Why , though ? So his mom was driving , so the mom was driving . She was in the passenger seat I'm in the back Right Pulls us over . Pulls us over , goes to the front seat , goes and looks in the car . Finds me yeah , of course . Goes to the back and goes sorry , we're not here . He's like is that your car over there , that Hyundai ? Blah , blah , blah , blah . I was like yeah , why ? He's like you got a warrant out for not paying the headlight ticket . Sorry , man , you gotta like we gotta take you to the station . Blah , blah , blah . I'm like are you ? I'm like I'm with the kid .
Encounters With Easygoing Cops
Speaker 1Everything , bro .
Speaker 1They locked me up , brought me to the South Amboy police station . My girl's going to a party With her sis , like for her sister's birthday , and she's waiting for me Just to get bailed out Of fucking jail because I had the money on my card . So I gotta get her to go to get . Oh , it was a checkbook , so she had to run to my fucking car . Go grab my checkbook , get right out of check you know what I'm saying and keep that for fucking what's it called ? And stay there for like an hour until they released me .
Speaker 2Right .
Speaker 1And over a headlight ticket . One time even same headlight ticket I was in jail . They put me in jail for a day For a headlight ticket For a headlight ticket . See , and I heard now that since Corona they don't even do any of that . No Headlight ticket , any stuff like that . Heard now that since Corona they don't even do any of that no . Headlight ticket , any stuff like that . It's like you can't get arrested for it anymore .
Speaker 2You'll get pulled over maybe , but I see so many cars with one light . It looks like a motorcycle . Yeah , I'm telling you , bro , I do .
Speaker 1And they don't stop motherfuckers like they used to . No , they don't . It's crazy . Yeah , I did notice that like I passed a lot of cops , that's great . Maybe it's just because I'm not doing anything . They just have that good of a sensor like I'm not doing anything wrong , so they're like they don't fuck with me .
Speaker 1But yeah , I haven't pulled yeah , there you go , got playing wood bam but yeah , I haven't pulled over a mad fucking long son , and if I have , it was more , just less to be like . Oh yeah , it's a detour , you know go this way type shit Exactly so . The cops have been fucking cool with me and I've known a couple cool cops so I can't really . You know , it's just that power shit .
Speaker 2You know what I actually ? Yeah , I'm going to be honest . I drive with no license sometimes , okay , Well , if you've got to get somewhere , Exactly .
Speaker 1You've got to get somewhere .
Speaker 2So I got pulled over .
Speaker 1Oh yeah , what happened .
Speaker 2So he pulled me over and he came to the door . Okay , he's like hey , you got a license . I said I don't . Actually , to be honest , I don't have a driver's license .
Speaker 1Wow , you're honest with me . He probably respected that .
Speaker 2So he's like , you have an ID . I said , yeah , here's my ID . He gave it to him . He's like okay , man , I'll be right back , you hold strong , something like that . And then he gave me like a little wink , like looking at his eyes , was he a black guy ? No , he was white , oh shit . So he went back and then he came back , gave he's like okay , man , you're going to have to like pull over , like on the side of the building right over there , and then you're going to have to go get a ride . You know the normal shit that they say .
Speaker 1Oh , okay , so they just let you pull your car over Right and then just get a pickup . But I was looking at him , the whole time .
Speaker 2And when he did that before he left , he winked at me again . So I was just so . It's just like okay . So I'm gonna go on the side , I'm gonna pull over . You know , just sit there for a little bit , turn off the car , turn off the lights , see him pass . He's going that way , you know .
Speaker 1Go around the building so he was basically saying wait for me to leave . He didn't give you a ticket either , right ?
Speaker 2no ticket or nothing . And then I was in , and I was in Oldridge too , so I wasn't close . I wasn't close to my house , really , I was pretty far , yeah , so I had to pass the police Old Bridge .
Speaker 1Oh , the Old Bridge cops are so cool , dude , yeah , bro .
Speaker 2So fucking cool . You know the police station up here yeah .
Speaker 1I've been in that police station plenty of times .
Speaker 2That's the road I got pulled over on .
Speaker 1That's my Bro . Those are very , very cool cops . They are chill . Yeah , them and Union Beach . I don't Union Beach , I get along with the one .
Speaker 1I had , at least for me . I've had good experiences with Right , but what is it called you were talking about ? What were you just saying ? About being arrested , but cops not like taking you in , right ? Yeah , exactly . So I go , I'm picking up I was doing you know the hard drugs back then and I'm going to my dealer , yeah , and I'm picking up . It's in a bad fucking neighborhood , bad part of Long Branch . I'm sitting outside his house , yeah , waiting for him to come out . Right , he comes out , gives me my shit , or no , he doesn't give me shit . He's like we got to go get it . Starts rolling up the blunt it's not mine , I don't even smoke weed , I just do my other shit . So he rolls up , puts all the stuff in his side compartment . He's like , oh , I got to run back inside real quick . Runs back inside . I see a car pass us Looking .
Speaker 2I'm not doing anything I don't have anything , I don't need nothing .
Speaker 1So kid comes back out of the apartment and finished rolling the blunt he's like all right , pull up to you . Know like go straight . Yeah , so I pull out . He is literally about to roll the blunt . That car that passed us just dropped like literally just around us and pulls in front of us , lights on . I was like undercover Spin it Comes . I have man syringes in the back of my car right because fucking I'm doing stupid shit .
Speaker 1Yeah , so this cop , by the way , who looked like fucking ryan gosling like should not have been a cop like I was like why aren't you in like a fucking movies ?
Speaker 3yeah yeah , what the fuck are you ?
Speaker 1doing . Everyone says the same thing to him . He said so I'm like look , I'm like , what the fuck ? You're a cop ? He's like yeah , he was like treating us really nice , really cool , and he's like dude , what's the deal with the weed ? He's like the syringes he's like we'll talk about in a second , but what's the deal with the weed ? And my boy ?
Speaker 1it's his yeah I'm like will I get like , if I get arrested for this , will I be released or am I going to get a semi-accounting Right ? He's like no , we'll release you . He's like you just got to take the charge . I was like all right , it's mine . You know what I mean . My boy was like yo .
Speaker 2Yeah .
Speaker 1So he got to leave . He lived right down the block .
Speaker 1He got out of the car and walked back to his house . Right , I was like I'm a pre-diabetic Because I was a bigger . I've always been bigger Not as big as you now , but I've always been bigger and so I was like I'm a pre-diabetic . He's like what the fuck does that mean ? And I was like I don't know . They just said it to me , you know Like that's what I was told . I'm a pre-diabetic , you know . And he's like I don't know what the fuck that means . But he took me into the station . We were talking . He was being mad cool at me , so he locked me up , did the paperwork , whatever . And after all that , he's like do you want us to drive you back to your ?
Speaker 3car .
Speaker 1Wow , I was like I didn't have . I was like what do you mean ? Oh , my license was expired too .
Speaker 2I didn't have a license .
Speaker 1Oh , my license was expired too . I didn't have a license . Oh , okay , so he's like yeah , do you want me to drive you back to your car ? I was like , but I don't have a license . He's like well , we're not going to , you can do whatever you want , we'll just drop you there . You don't want to leave your car there , do you ? Oh yeah , so I get someone to pick kick you up .
Speaker 1Bro . I even got back in my car and drove and passed them while I was driving and they laughed and winked at me . I smoked a cigarette with them before I left .
Speaker 3They were cool as shit .
Speaker 1I did not expect that to happen at all . I got in my car and left . That is when my life was so chaotic , kevin , I must have had a stack of letters from court . I was afraid of the mail , lady Right , because I didn't know what she was going to bring for me today . Is it a summons ? It's a lot , anything . Is it a fucking ? You know , like you're appearing in court at this date , bro , I get fucking PTSD from that . Of course , that shit makes me my heart like I don't want to go through that shit , dude , that's too much . You did that all to yourself . Remember that I know , and that's why I'm trying not to do it to myself anymore .
Speaker 3You know me .
Speaker 1I'm fucking . I stay at home , I do my things , I do what I got to do and that's it . You know , I try to get figure all this bullshit out so that we can put up some videos and we can start some more shows like the KDG show .
Speaker 2That's right , that should be coming to you very soon .
Speaker 1We just got to finish this logo . Figure this out because we finally upgraded and we're going to see how this works . If this comes out , if you see a video on Friday and you see me looking at you in the camera like this , like this , you see me like this and I'm pointing at you , that means we fucking did it , folks , we fucking figured it out . Alright , kev , do the same thing , tell them we did it .
Speaker 2If you see us right now doing this , on camera .
Speaker 1We did it and then we move on to the next phase . That's right , jesse , pre jesse , premature ejaculated . On the next phase oops , yeah , yeah , oops is right . Uh was using one program my techies out there , it's called obs okay and but have a new Mac and I was getting some crazy fucking errors and just not working well with me , so we switched to a new thing that's made for Mac and we're going to test it out and see how it works . So far , so good .
Speaker 2We're getting it done .
Speaker 1Yeah , I just don't know how the end result will turn out to be , but when we get there , we get there , we get there .
Speaker 2So folks .
Speaker 1That song that you heard , by the way , is called Under the Moonlight and that will be on my EP . That's releasing when it's finished . Okay , that's how we do . Like a video game should be not have a release date . It should be when we're done with it , when it's optimized . I can't wait .
Speaker 2I'm not gonna lie , I really I really can't wait , but but until it's done , like you said yeah , like don't give me no bullshit .
Speaker 1Like I'm hearing it's coming out , I heard it was coming out this year and then , all of a sudden , you're gonna push 2026 . Why are you showing me a trailer right in the beginning of 2025 or 2024 , when you're not releasing until at least 2025 2026 ?
Speaker 2I don't even know what they're doing .
Speaker 1They just lost and the
Video Game Chat and Future Plans
Speaker 1last game they released . What was Red Dead Redemption ? Yeah , that's an amazing game , amazing Red Dead Redemption 2 , I mean , yeah , but that was fucking 10 years ago . They've been living off of fucking GTA Online For a long time , for a very long time , like enough is enough already .
Speaker 2They should make GTA just like Red Dead .
Speaker 1I'm hoping that they take the technology that they had from Red Dead . I'm hoping that they take the technology that they had from Red Dead . Like all , the animals had their own little like they acted like animals .
Speaker 2You can kill any animal in the sky and kill anything , and the NPCs acted like they had their own shit going on .
Speaker 1It was just a cool fucking game and it felt real , it really didn't feel real , the story built out real . I started playing gram . I told you this too . I started playing gram , blue link fantasy or some shit okay , yeah , you did tell me that god .
Speaker 1Yeah , damn son . That shit brought me back to like final fantasy 6 , final fantasy 7 days , but with like new art and like it was . Because the whole thing Final Fantasy 15 that sucked was that it wasn't a fucking . You didn't feel like a family , like you had people , like the people in your group weren't as into it as like it was only you and one other person usually in Final Fantasy you control a fucking a group of like eight , nine people , right , and you get to know them and do individual quests and stuff .
Speaker 1And in this game it didn't have it . But Grand Blue Fantasy is like 20 . You start with like 25 characters on a boat , like not a boat , like on an airship , yeah , yeah , and they're trying and every all the worlds live on top of like sky islands , right , and like they don't even know what's below them , like crazy . It's a really cool story it's a really fucking cool story .
Speaker 1So , yeah , we're in , you were gonna . So that's the thing too . Yeah , so we are moving on to the show , right ? So we have a couple of games lined up that we want to start streaming and we're gonna start , you know , doing our uh , youtube video game thing , yep uh video game show 100 coming up , because I get to talk about that shit with you for hours , all day . All day so we got a lot coming up and Mother's Day is next week , so we have a surprise next week .
Speaker 2All mothers .
Speaker 1I don't know if you're familiar , but this house is . This podcast takes place in my apartment with my parents , and parents are huge supporters of this and my mom is a the owner . My mom is a beautiful person inside and out and she is the only reason that this is able to really like keep going she lets people come into the apartment . She feeds us yeah it's like a fight .
Speaker 1You come here and it's a family , you know . So any guests that we have on just like , just know that you come . You're going to be spending the day enjoying and hanging out with us doing some fun shit . You know , if you don't smoke , you don't smoke . Bring a beer , bring fucking whatever you want .
Speaker 1Whatever you want , you know , and we just hang out . You want Whatever you want , you know and we just hang out . We just hang out and have a good time . Exactly , and hopefully we are to the point where everything is good , set that we can start pushing this shit out .
Speaker 2Oh , we're going to push it out right , Just like a baby .
Speaker 1No , not a baby . I was thinking like a nice , like those turds that are really hard to come out . Oh yeah , that hurts .
Speaker 2Yeah , turds , that are really hard to come out , oh yeah , it hurts .
Speaker 1Yeah , it hurts . I have a technique for that , though . Oh gosh , I have a technique . You just push a little and wait . That's what . I do , and it clamps it it clamps it and then just like , and it just comes out it's very weird , I think that's what you got to do with babies too . Girls Listen out there . Just clamp it . Clamp the vag first . Yep , let it suck the head Like grab that neck or some shit Okay .
Speaker 1And then that shit's just going to think , it's just going to loosen up . Okay , you know At least that's what happens with my asshole oh , that's pretty bad , and that we're going to end on there , folks .
Speaker 2Ladies and gentlemen , thank you very much for watching this . And get ready for what Kev , Get ready for the KDG show . Hell yeah , baby Holler out to all those people out there . There's Johnny , there's Shannon , there's Lauren .
Speaker 1Well , we need them on the show . Kev , you got to tell them to get on the show .
Speaker 2Get on the show , come on , it's on Tuesday , baby I .
Speaker 1Hope I get the air conditioning back in this bitch .
Speaker 2Yeah , buddy , but uh .
Speaker 1Yeah , we were going for a long time tonight , thank you .
Speaker 2Kev For everything . I fucking love you . Not a problem , I'm always here .
Speaker 1Thank you guys for sticking
Support for Podcast Equipment Upgrade
Speaker 1in . Patreon supporters Come on guys , my mama . Dukes , let's go . We got fucking . Who else we got that's doing that Gaynerman and the fucking aunt .
Speaker 2Shout out to all you Shout out to the Patreons .
Speaker 1Anything that you give us is going towards equipment .
Speaker 3I promise you .
Speaker 2You see it , I see it all the time .
Speaker 1People who know me had a bad history with money , but I'm not taking care of them , so I am literally just using it to upgrade what we were getting .
Speaker 2The next item another camera , just trying to get better and better , better and better .
Speaker 1You know , none of the money that comes from the Patreon gets spent on anything else besides making this better experience for you guys at home and be able to watch more of us yeah , we'll have more content , more real shit . We're gonna have the real story time . Yeah , you know kevin's is .
Speaker 1I have a feeling kevin's show is going to be very unique it is because we have a lot of yes , but I'm saying , I think we have , like , I think you have some very weird Little ideas that we could do . Oh , that's Mama Duke's behind me .
Speaker 3Hey , we're about to end the show Mom what's up , Come in .
Speaker 1Yeah , she's saying we're almost done , please , Because it's late . So yeah , so we're done . I just want to say thank you everybody . I appreciate you and , as always , you son of a bitch .
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