The Magical Midlife Crisis

Episode 12 - Court's 2023 Reflection

December 24, 2023 Courtney Beth Anderson Season 1 Episode 12
Episode 12 - Court's 2023 Reflection
The Magical Midlife Crisis
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The Magical Midlife Crisis
Episode 12 - Court's 2023 Reflection
Dec 24, 2023 Season 1 Episode 12
Courtney Beth Anderson

Thank YOU for coming back to The Magical Midlife Crisis Podcast! Merry holidays to you & yours!

Flying solo in this episode as my co-pilot Meg is plugged into her own health & family during this holiday season - send her prayers & high vibes!

Decided to take this moment to reflect on the year of 2023 from my perspective... it's been EXPANSIVE! Sooo many eureka moments came to light from all of the darkness that i've experienced since my earliest years.

Here are some highlights:

  • this episode is "action" following all of my growing awareness to these traits of me that I no longer want to be victim to:  perfectionism, self sabotage, procrastination, feeling dumb, to name a few
  • thus, I am showin up to keep growin up - emotionally
  • the light-lessons that appear from the darkness often don't come until we CHOOSE to look within the darkness to see them... instead of "avoid" which I've always done until self-development came into my life
  • much of my darkness stems from the emotional disconnect in the home I grew up in
  • getting to the root of these insecurities has allowed me to move through them and on to the brighter side
  • just turned 40! the older i get, the younger i look and feel!
  • using the metaphor of life as an amusement park, every experience is a ride within it
  • "collaboration" has been my superpower word for the year of 2023, maybe even for the rest of my life! gonna keep wearing it until something else replaces it... which I'm not sure what could, it feels THAT POWERFUL!
  • my biggest revelation from my 6-month self-transformation course was my darkness connected to "family" and how I've allowed that darkness to bleed into my 'now' family - and the brightest light i discovered and have no reclaimed my power within all my family connections

It means a lot to utilize this thing called a podcast to connect with you all. I TRULY want to hear your own reflections that come to mind as you've listened or when you tune back in... with any dark moments in your life where you found a better or more magical outcome - if you're listening on Spotify - comment in the Q&A box under this description. If you're tuning in from apple podcasts - leave your reflections in the reviews. Grateful to connect with you in all the ways!

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Directly connect with Meg: @meg.itate.8itch
Directly connect with Court:
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Connect to us both: themagicalmidlifecrisis@gmail.com --- Write to us! We'd love to learn about a magical midlife crisis story of your own or someone you know!

Show Notes Transcript

Thank YOU for coming back to The Magical Midlife Crisis Podcast! Merry holidays to you & yours!

Flying solo in this episode as my co-pilot Meg is plugged into her own health & family during this holiday season - send her prayers & high vibes!

Decided to take this moment to reflect on the year of 2023 from my perspective... it's been EXPANSIVE! Sooo many eureka moments came to light from all of the darkness that i've experienced since my earliest years.

Here are some highlights:

  • this episode is "action" following all of my growing awareness to these traits of me that I no longer want to be victim to:  perfectionism, self sabotage, procrastination, feeling dumb, to name a few
  • thus, I am showin up to keep growin up - emotionally
  • the light-lessons that appear from the darkness often don't come until we CHOOSE to look within the darkness to see them... instead of "avoid" which I've always done until self-development came into my life
  • much of my darkness stems from the emotional disconnect in the home I grew up in
  • getting to the root of these insecurities has allowed me to move through them and on to the brighter side
  • just turned 40! the older i get, the younger i look and feel!
  • using the metaphor of life as an amusement park, every experience is a ride within it
  • "collaboration" has been my superpower word for the year of 2023, maybe even for the rest of my life! gonna keep wearing it until something else replaces it... which I'm not sure what could, it feels THAT POWERFUL!
  • my biggest revelation from my 6-month self-transformation course was my darkness connected to "family" and how I've allowed that darkness to bleed into my 'now' family - and the brightest light i discovered and have no reclaimed my power within all my family connections

It means a lot to utilize this thing called a podcast to connect with you all. I TRULY want to hear your own reflections that come to mind as you've listened or when you tune back in... with any dark moments in your life where you found a better or more magical outcome - if you're listening on Spotify - comment in the Q&A box under this description. If you're tuning in from apple podcasts - leave your reflections in the reviews. Grateful to connect with you in all the ways!

Click to connect with me on facebook here <3
Click to connect with me on instagram
here <3

Want to have your own discovery on how the mind & body ar


If you feel called to it - please 'follow', rate with some stars & share any episodes to spread the magic! Reviews & reflections can be shared here -> https://tinyurl.com/TheMagicalMidlifeCrisisPage

Listening on Apple Podcasts? scroll to the bottom, tap "write a review"

Tune in to you next time!

Want to have your own discovery on how the mind & body are interconnected? And learn how food can lead to a more sustainable & vibrant life? --> ***
Click here to learn more and/or message us on the 30 Days to Healthier Living! *** <--

Directly connect with Meg: @meg.itate.8itch
Directly connect with Court:
@coco.compassion
Connect to us both: themagicalmidlifecrisis@gmail.com --- Write to us! We'd love to learn about a magical midlife crisis story of your own or someone you know!

Court and Meg here with the Magical Midlife Crisis. This podcast is intended to inspire and support you on your personal journey towards feeling more magic. Breathe, press play, expect real and raw stories and shifts. Come back with your own stories, shifts, and magical light moments through your darkness in your life. Once we pinpoint The mind to search for the magic, the magic will show up. It's just a matter of time. It could be at any moment in the middle of this magical ride we call life. Enjoying this episode. Grab your seat every Sunday. Expect magic. So you've got to like use these different tools and methods that you gain from doing self development stuff to learn how to make that connection and then truly believe it. And then that's when the universe and the higher intelligence that beats all of our hearts, whatever that is, whatever you believe that that is, that's when you feel the deeper connection and you actually feel whole. And you don't have to look outside of yourself to feel whole. Hey, hey, magical humans, it's Quirt. Okay. So January is coming and we're very excited every January for the last five years. three for me court. Okay. Yeah. For the last handful of years, we have started January with a food mood program called the 30 days to healthier living. And we've done it in all different sizes of groups. So this offer is for you and how do you qualify? Um, we're going to give you a backstory on who we were before we started our 30 days, our magical 30 days. So. Maggie, you go first. Okay, so I was living a lifestyle of unhealthy choices, which led me to being 36 and riddled with constant days of joint pain, brain fog, and migraines. My life was extremely unsustainable. The pain I was secretly embodying was literally consuming my mental health in the darkest of dark. so long, I never connected the dots that food creates your mood. Never knew that. I was literally so fed up, tired of being tired. It was time to put change in action. So I started my journey to a healthier me. Why? Because I no longer wanted to do the following, be a product of the healthcare system. Tell my son, I can't play with you. I have a headache. It got real old. starting fights with my loved ones because I was in such a dark mental state and always on the defense, not wanting to go places. Cause I was so inflamed and wanted to crawl out of my skin. It was awful I was 34, and I had been smoking cigarettes for 17 years. Uh, I drank wine pretty much every night. I was a TV aholic. I thought I was eating healthy with canned soup and wheat bread sandwiches with veggie meat slices. And had no sense of what I was truly doing to my physical or mental health. So, after my brother died, I wanted to change. I had to tell myself the truth and the truth was, I was choosing to not live a life of health. And it wasn't a size or a weight or an outfit that to change. It was the pain in my body that I was going through. And every day it felt like my body was screaming and throwing red flags at me to change. Like I was heavily addicted to sugar. I would reward myself with whatever sweet treats were hanging out in the dental office. I relied on coffee like three to four cups a day. I had constant gas and bloating and constipation that my gastro doctors told me was hereditary IBS. I had migraines almost every week. I had back acne, back knee, if you know what I'm talking about. I was always irritable, had acid reflux, post nasal drip, I had that weird tightness feeling in my legs I talked about on another episode, and the most extreme moments of insecurity, worry, and anxiety that I always talked about as tornado thoughts. So, for us, we started tweaking meals, getting clean protein in, we learned how gut health works and how it matters, but most of all, We found the community and support that would love us when we struggle to love ourselves. Like when we didn't, quote, feel like it, or we were so busy, or we were always exhausted. Those are the words we would all use, and I know you probably have said them too. So accountability, cleaner food swaps, and the 80 20 lifestyle was the vehicle. That changed the game for us today. We believe how healthier food choices have changed what we see on the outside, but on the inside, we feel like our truest, most beautiful selves. So if you want to jump on board our magical 30 days to healthier living train. On January 8th, 2024, click on the link in our show notes to sign up or send us questions or message us for a consult with us, Megan Kort. Choo choo. Choo choo. Welcome back to the Magical Midlife Crisis Podcast. This is Court, and I am flying solo today. My co pilot has lifey life stuff happening, and it's kind of cool because The whole idea of us doing this podcast together was to extend what we do as business partners and leverage our hours and our energy between us. So yeah, we get to extend it into. The podcast as well. So thank you everyone for tuning in. Um, flying solo makes my heart beat a little bit faster and my stomach turn a little bit more than normal when, when we press record. But, um, This is what it's about. This is about that extra step, that extra little stretch to grow and learn and rewrite all the things that I've wanted to rewrite. So a lot of the reasoning behind doing this podcast and calling it the magical midlife crisis is because It's in the midlife, which is different for everyone. People have looked at me and have said, you don't look like you're in your midlife, but we don't know when our midlife is. So there's a little play on meeting with that word specifically with our podcast, because again, if you haven't heard me talk about it. Uh, the loss of my brother, well, I don't even like to say the loss of him because it's like I kind of found him even more, um, with my brother dying and leaving his physical body, um, it really encouraged me to find the depth of life that I was looking for and put me on the path of intention to do that, where before I was kind of on the path of just Letting life run me instead of me running my life. And I've found over the last year that I've been trying to run it in the last handful of years with like a lot of force. instead of, um, surrendering. So I kind of wanted to use this, these last two episodes, this one and the next one of this year as reflections of our, of the 2023 year, which, um, I've only done, I think one of my, I've done so many self development courses over the last Seven years and one of them with Mel Robbins, I'm probably going to do a lot of shout outs, which I don't remember everyone in every, um, segment that's ever made a positive impact on me, but I'm going to do my best to give. Um, credit where credit is due, but Mel Robbins is an amazing high level, high mind impact person and she held a, it was either end of year or beginning of the year, mindset reset was kind of like one of those three day, plug in for a few hours, learn from her, apply everything. But I don't think I've really done an intentional reflection. And with this being me alone, in this episode, I definitely prepared. A lot of the time, Meg and I have an idea or we meditate and something comes to us or, um, There's, we kind of just go with the flow, which I love doing, but some, but I've realized that I really do feel like I have to figure it out before I do things, and that, that's been part of the struggle for me as a person, and I, I know that not everyone thinks in this way, but I know there's plenty of people that do think in this way and want to do it right and say it right and, um, show up with like the best value for the people that you're connecting with and putting so much pressure on myself to, to be that person and make sure that I fit it all in and do it to the best that I can. And it's like. Sometimes showing up is the best that I can. And today that's so, so true because the other day when I was going to record, I'm like, what am I going to say? I'm by myself. Um, and, and I realized all these old patterns that I used to have were showing up and now I have so much more awareness because this last year has been so incredible. Um, To bring it back to why we started this podcast. I'm getting emotional. I sip some tea and ground, it's, it's like the dark moments that I've gone through have brought me so much light, and it wasn't all, it wasn't all of a sudden that I saw the lessons. It took time, it took time to surround myself with. people, mentors, guides to help me see the deeper meaning. And there's a lot of easy buttons out there that kind of prolong the learning and the growing. And I don't, I don't really care for easy buttons. I care for really growing and really feeling the depth of The thing that we call life and really connecting to the best parts of it. So, it took me going through some real hardships. Like, it's hard to talk about because I don't want to offend, but my upbringing was, was disconnected. As much as, like, everything came out of love. In the growth of my, my family, there was, there was a lot of emotional disconnection and I think in the best ways, um, that inspired me to experience such deep and extremely challenging emotions within my life, my experience as A human as a person, which has influenced me to develop a powerful understanding and appreciation of my own, like, psychology, which most people will never have. Most people don't want to look at the darkness to find the light and experience the most amount of love. Because, like, when I started getting into self development, there was a lot of talk of the ego. And the ego is, it's our, it's our brain doing its job. It's, it's protecting us. It's, it's reminding us of what's scary and reminding us of. You know, don't do that thing because this and this and this resulted and you were miserable and so don't do it again. And then we come across things that may not be the same thing, but kind of give us that same feeling. So then the ego is like, Oh, there's that feeling again. Don't do this thing. And what's on the other side of that? I learned this by analyzing my brother Brett's life after he died. He pushed through so much pain and rejection through all aspects of his life, like, he was a really nerdy kid, and he was, I don't know, I feel like, the way that I saw it, he was misunderstood, and I related to that, but he still, like, he was still Physically, emotionally pushing through that where I resorted to avoiding and going quiet. And on the other side of all that pain and rejection is like, it's growth and light and lessons and, and connection and like. The greatest amount of love. And so I think like when we push through those really tough things in life, like I made a list of all the things that were just described who I have been most of my life. So perfectionism is a big one, which is so funny because. I never thought that I had perfectionism until I met with two life coaches at different parts of my, like, self development journey, which, again, started about seven, eight years ago. I can't remember exactly, but it was, I went to therapy when I was deciding whether or not I wanted to go through a divorce. And that was, I think, 2015. So, um, that's when it all started for me. And then kind of getting another connection mentor guide of some kind throughout the years. Cause it's like, I, I evolved a little bit, I emotionally grew up just a little bit more. And then I was ready for like the next deepening and understanding. It's like, it's like they say, it's an onion and you peel back the layer. And then you, and then you like kind of get it and you understand it. And then. You want to stretch even more, and grow even more, and it's really just emotionally growing up. But it takes us to show up to do that. That's why I love, like, show up to grow up. That's, and that's what I'm doing with this episode. And thank you for listening. But the list of hardships that are, I guess, I guess, parts of me that I developed unknowingly were perfectionism, self sabotage, procrastination, Feeling dumb, feeling insecure, scared to do it wrong, scared to say it wrong, scared to disagree, analysis paralysis, looking for approval, trying to control, fear of rejection, fear of not belonging, feeling not enough, feeling I don't matter, imposter syndrome, overthinking, fear of offending, fear of Someone feeling dumb, wrong, or like an outsider. Cause like, I felt those ways, and it's, I was trying to think back. Since I was little, I kinda almost thought like I was just like an observer. Like I didn't really take part in a lot of things because of these fears. So, it's, it was a protective mechanism for me. And a lot of us develop these for whatever reasons that we do, but again, it's kind of a, it's kind of an underlying superpower. And this last year I took, I've talked about this before, but I took this really like awesome deep like self transformation course. And it was, I started it November of 2022 and it was six months. And it just really helped me get to the root of why those things existed. And it's, they all are connected. So now, like, when I get hit with a feeling of one of those, sometimes it's hard to even label what it is, but our, our, um, our brain likes to label and kind of put into place, like, put into a file or a container, like, what exactly things are. So when I get to a point where I'm feeling one of those things. It's like, oh, I know where that comes from now, and that does not exist because I've gotten to the root and I've closed, I've like, I wouldn't say closed the door, but I've just like buried flowers on that grave instead of like it being this dark, scary, horrible place. It's like, that's my garden now. That's where all of the light has shown through. With this last year. I'm sorry for the sniffling. I hope I can like remove that. I don't know. I'm still learning how to freaking podcast. Um, but I've just, it's made such a huge difference. And I even, I just had my 40th birthday and I was on the drive with my My partner in life, my boyfriend Joe, I was on the drive with him to the, to the farm to table place that I love that's local that I was having my birthday party at. And I even said to him, it's like, I feel like so evolved emotionally, but I still wanted that, you know, external validation from him because he's my person and he knows, he knows all of this. He knows the depth. Um, I asked him like. Is it, like, I've seen it, I, I've felt it, kind of, like, little by little, just like a, just like we age, it's like little by little, you don't really see it, you look in the mirror, you see yourself changing, you don't, until you reflect back, look at a picture from last year, do you really see a change sometimes, luckily, don't really see that, don't really see that as much as I, Thought I would, because I have this amazing mantra, and you're very welcome to try it on and see how it fits. Um, and if it doesn't, then don't force it. That's the whole thing I'm learning. But the older I get, the younger I look and feel, and I actually feel that. I'm not saying it to get to that point, and I think that's the difference that I've learned with the whole affirmations thing. If you don't believe what you're saying, it's really hard to just start believing it. So you've got to like use these different tools and methods that you gain from doing self development stuff to learn how to make that connection and then truly believe it. And then that's when the universe and the higher intelligence that beats all of our hearts, whatever that is, whatever you believe that that is, that's when you feel the deeper connection and you actually feel whole. And you don't have to look outside of yourself to feel whole. And I just, I really bring that back to just what we put in our mouth, what we put in our brain, who we surround ourself with. It really has everything to do with the habits that we have, because our habits create our identity. And I didn't want to have the identity of, Self sabotage, or feeling that I wasn't enough. But I had to feel those things to know how to cross the bridge and get to the other side. But of course, we all need someone to take our hand and walk with us. And sometimes, you don't, I, like, I didn't even realize it would be the people that it was. Like, it's, it's been pretty much my clients that I've worked with over the last five years. It's been absolutely awesome and you know how people like pick a word for their year, like an intentional word. I kind of thought of this at the end of the year, like reflecting back. My year and the word for 2023 has been collaboration, because I've, like, held hands with so many cool people that see the world differently than I do, and it's allowed me to grow my perspective and grow my compassion and my understanding for the bigger picture, because I truly do believe that we're all connected, like, like, All of our hearts are beating. How are we not connected? That's just like, think about that. It's, it's fascinating when you really think about that. There's no way that we're not all connected for whatever the reason that we are. And I think it's just to experience. The light and the dark, and the different rides we all go on. We talk about going through something and how it was a rollercoaster. Yeah! And, like, it's almost like I, and I feel like I'm repeating myself, and I've said certain things on this episode that I might have said on other episodes, but like, Life is like one big gigantic amusement park, and each experience we go through is a ride. And sometimes you have no idea what kind of ride you're getting on, and sometimes it doesn't feel like you had the choice to get on it or not. And many times, It might not, we might not have that choice, but a lot of the time we get the choice to go back on it, do it differently. Yeah, I, I don't really know how else to, to break it down, but like the, it has been a choice for me to hide behind perfectionism. It has been a choice for me to fear doing it wrong or saying it wrong. So what's the opposite of that? It's. showing up. And it's being this thing that people saw in me that I didn't see in myself, and that's being a leader. And it's like, how can I be a leader when I'm so emotionally charged all the time? But it's like, people sometimes need that kind of leader, so I'll be for those people that Like, I, I don't have it all figured out, but I have learned some tools, and I have learned some perspectives. And so, for those that are looking for that kind of thing, I could be their collaboration. I could be their buddy to hang on to, to flow along the crazy rollercoaster with. But yeah, so, collaboration has just been, I mean, I have so many people that have helped me. In my underdeveloped areas of my life where I felt really weak and some of those. Parts of me, I don't, I have no interest in developing, so I will continue to collaborate with people that have more of that than I do, but some of those parts of me, I have wanted to strengthen, and so then connecting to people that already have that power, that ability to use their voice, that ability to, um, think before reacting, and the ability to trust themselves, And connect to that inner knowing, that intuition, and coming back to, like, peace and love in their mind rather than staying in the blame and shame and chaos and just that, almost that chaotic feeling that we almost, I've learned this scientifically, we get addicted to it because it's not only chemically addicting, like we, um, Um, When we, like for me, I've learned this, um, I grew up in a home with disconnection and my, my parents started out with love, um, they didn't have the tools, they didn't have the understanding to, to support each other in the, the growth of a relationship. Relationships are so deep and meaningful these days because of evolution, like we are literally evolving generation to generation. And the, the time that they lived in, and their parents, the time that they lived in, that survival mentality was passed down, and they observed the, the model of relationships and the way that they did, and, and then me, I, I observed a relationship model, and so like, I got the choice, and I didn't know I had the choice until I went through enough research. Not so healthy choices in relationships to realize, Oh, this is where I can actually grow up a little bit more emotionally and learn to make a change because I really want it and I get to choose that. But like, one of the biggest revelations for me in the course that I took, um, Which is extremely expansive and it was at the end, like it was six months later that I'm like, whoa, and I think it's huge for me. It might not sound as big for you because it's my own, but like I went into the course really wanting to rewrite some self sabotage, relationship sabotage. Um, patterns that I was seeing and my boyfriend has a son and I really wanted to have a deeper connection with him, but I didn't know how to do that. I knew, I knew it was a lot of my own emotional, what people like to call baggage that I had to work through to like actually allow that deeper connection. And so I kind of almost knew it without going through it, but it really did take going through and understanding. Just general human behavior. A lot of it is so predictable, but we're not taught this stuff in school, which is crazy because we would have a much more cohesive world. But again, I don't think that was the plan for school. If you actually look at the history of why school was created, you will see that the plan was to. Develop people to obey and do what they're told and become employees and not have any critical thinking skills, unfortunately. And you could totally disagree with me. I totally support you on that, but learning all that I have. If, if school doesn't make a shift for our youth, it totally lands on us as guides in these kids lives to help them understand how life really works. And human, understanding human behavior is a huge one. So it's not you, it's not me, it's not anyone else's fault. It's understanding human behavior, getting to the root of why something happened, understanding how to shift, what tools to use. And then putting that into action, but then staying plugged in to the people and energy that allows us to feel it as. We truly are that new identity, new personality, like my personality has done a 360 from, um, 10 years ago where I was very sarcastic, very, uh, I just was really negative and I had a lot of jealousy of people around me. Um, I was. Very anxious, very depressed, like extremely depressed, a lot of drinking, a lot of sleeping, a lot of not wanting to do anything, not wanting to live, like I've talked about, but I've learned that depression, it's not the opposite of happiness, it's the opposite of feeling purpose, depression is basically repression and suppression, so I believe it's, The difference of those two. Repression is unknowingly, so like, unconsciously, Stifled and not allowed to be and feel as you are. And then as time goes on That becomes your normal, you're familiar, so then you suppress, you consciously avoid, like I have done in my adult life. Consciously avoid feeling those really shitty feelings of insecurity, and Um, disappointing people and disappointing yourself, like having these high expectations or expectations in general, and then them not panning out or like wanting to get to a certain point in your life and then not feeling like you thought you would. Because again, we're like tying our essence, our feeling inside to that outer thing where are. Outer world follows our inner world. And like, I've had this huge, awesome vision since I got into Self development and having my business of being a well being consultant and like wanting to change the world It's like I just so much pressure. That's utterly ridiculous Because talk about perfectionism. So now it's like what world can I actually influence? Positively my own that's the only world but then as I've helped Myself, master my emotions and connect the dots within my own understanding of the world and myself. It's helped so many other people outside of me because of my being, because of who I've become. Okay, so kind of avoiding the tough thing, but here's the biggest thing that I learned at the end of my course. I wrote it down so I could keep on track. Um, so the feeling of family in my home, I was getting in my own way of feeling it now. I've been with my partner, Joe, my boyfriend, for six and a half years. It's been the most incredible experience as far as a relationship goes that I've ever had. And I fully feel that I was That I've gotten to a point, emotionally, I'm emotionally grew up enough to feel worthy of having such an amazing partner who goes by the name Joe. He's just the best. If you've met him, you know who and what I'm talking about. But, but again, like I still had feelings of being alone and being disconnected. And so I knew it was something within me that I had to figure out, but the disconnect of a family in my home that I grew up in was familiar to me. And that's all that I knew to create outside of me. Was that disconnect and so it really was like getting to the root of that exact thing and everything else that's connected to it because there's so many other layers that have been built on top of that, that I've now totally allowed and surrendered to feeling the deepest amount of connection to family that I ever have before. And then that's allowed me to have a deeper connection with my actual family, my, well, of course, my, my current adult family, and then my, my, my upbringing, like, my parents, and my brother, and my brother, who, my younger brother, but also my older brother, who's, Now a spirit floating around and you may you may be connected to him. I know money I've shared this podcast a lot of his friends So you may know exactly what I'm talking about but even my grandparents who are no longer here like it's just and and and all of my My aunts, my uncles, my cousins, like, I just have so much more compassion and love and understanding. We're all just in the same flippin boat. We're all just trying to, like, feel more good and less chaos and disconnect. So, with that, I am just going to share that I'm so extremely appreciative of You tuning into this, like, documentation of self development for both Meg and I. 2023 has been one of the most expansive years and the most connected years. And it's like, I always kind of had this feeling that this was, this was going to be. And that's that connecting to your inner higher self. It's like, of course you want to have hope, but sometimes it's so dark. And it's so hard. But if we keep practicing the belief that life is really dark, and life is really hard, we'll get really good at believing it. But if we practice connecting to people that lift us up, and show us some light moments, In our darkness, we'll get really good. at believing that. We get, I mean, that's simple human behavior. We get really good at anything we practice. So, I'm going to lovingly encourage you to think about at least one thing that you're practicing that really just sucks. You don't want to practice it anymore and you want to change it. And. Plug into something that really does show you a different perspective. If you're jealous of someone or if you're envious of someone, look at them with a different view and see what they're doing that you could do a little bit more of. And be choosy. Have, like, high standards for, for yourself. I am Getting out of my comfort zone and posting very vulnerable posts on social media. I've avoided it for a long time, but I feel like this is a perfect way to stretch and to grow and to impact people positively, like I've always wanted to do. But it's really, um, challenging. My, my, uh, my patterns, like those negative patterns that I listed to put myself out there But like, being able to talk about it, like this, on a podcast, just Not knowing who clicks on it, not knowing who listens, not knowing who's giving us, you know, a rating of 5 stars. Um, it's all anonymous. So it's like you don't even, it's so nice to now like be disconnected from that. Um, but it's like, yeah, I'm ready for the stretch. Cause I actually got certified to guide people through the same six month course that I took. And so. I'm really, I'm like ready to step into that. I love all that I've learned and to feel what I do after going through all that I have, it's like, it'd be wrong for me not to share the gift with anyone else. So just know that I'm always sending positive vibes. And loving frequencies out into the universe to you. And when you listen to this and you allow this in, you receive it. It's that simple. It's a simple process. But our emotions really attach a lot of different layers of complication to it. And again, it's human behavior. It's pretty fascinating stuff. All right. Thank you again for tuning in and I will link in the show notes um my Social platform links if you did want to connect deeper Feel welcome to send me a message feel welcome to read my Posts of all the insights that I've shared and my personal development with the basics to self mastery and having a higher awareness of life in general And as always feel welcome to email the magical midlife crisis Podcast at gmail. I'll have that in the show notes as well. And thank you Thank you. Thank you. It's been an amazing 2023. It's been so cool to connect with you in this year and continue on to the next love and hugs. If you made it to the end of this episode, that means you either just appreciate our messy, awkward life experiences, or you're truly up for finding more magic in your life like we are. 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