Episode 22 - High on Love & Life (Self-Made Drugs)

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We, Meg & Court, open with reflections on gratitude and the importance of genuinely feeling it, touching on quantum alignment when heart & mind coherence is achieved. We talk how media and societal programming often incite fear, which we contrast with their aim to nurture love & connection. 

Valentine's Day prompts a light-hearted exchange about its commercialization, which segues into personal revelations about our paths to self-growth, the influence of our relationships, and harnessing inner love. We also (as often) include the transformative effects of adopting healthier lifestyles, the significance of overcoming life's lows through inner work, and the joy of fostering loving connections in all aspects of life, including work. 

The discussion encompassed the impact of our support system, the essence of doing work that fulfills us, and shared personal anecdotes that illuminate our journey towards self-love & personal growth. 

00:00 Embracing Gratitude & Quantum Alignment

01:20 The Power of Fear & Media Manipulation

03:26 Valentine's Day Musings & Love Day Celebrations

06:04 Exploring the Illusion of Time

12:44 The Power of Self-Love & Personal Growth

21:58 Navigating Relationships & Acceptance

26:03 The Power of Social Media & Personal Growth

26:51 The Journey of Self-Love & Acceptance

29:02 The Role of Angels & Gratitude in Life

01:20 The Impact of Fear & Connection in Society

35:30 The Beauty of a Supportive Work Environment

42:38 The Power of Healthy Habits & Self-Regulation

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Transcript

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I legit feel gratitude all through my body right now Like my heart can just burst out and just feel it Fucking hug the microphone, like, you know, but like, you can't just share a quote about gratitude. You can't just say you're grateful. You know, you have to feel the emotion like you could be grateful. But what's like, and I don't I'm sure everybody's grateful about shit. But if you really want to use the word grateful, feel the emotion with it. And like, That's, that's connecting to the quantum, like when you align your heart and your mind and you feel a shift in your own energy, that is alignment and that will shift so much within your view of life and, and your outlook altogether. The more you practice it, like Dr. Joe says, we get really good at anything we practice. So the more you practice. So the feeling, the quickest way that most humans feel this, what they call coherence, the heart and mind, I feel like I've already talked about this on an episode, but whatever the heart and mind connecting and like actually syncing, right? The quickest way is fear. Like that is the fastest way. So that's how a lot of our minds are manipulated by. I'll just say it. The news and lots of different TV programs. Again, they're called programs because they are designed to program us. And as humans, we are programmable, which is not a good or a bad thing. It's just how we are. We are basically a computer setup, but with a higher intelligence, right? And so fear is one of the easiest ways to get people to connect. It's why women connection is one of our highest core values. So then what's the easiest way for females to connect to gossip because it's all fear based This is the magical midlife crisis podcast, where your hosts, I'm court, a compassion activist, animal lover, nature, nut and entrepreneur in the mind, body, spirit connections. And I met a free thinker with a passion for non toxic living, a dedicated hockey mom and a multi business owner. We are a couple of friends who met through health and heartache. We discovered through our crisis moments, we all have magic within us. This podcast is about awakening to a different perspective and being the creators of our own reality. Every Sunday, you can expect an abundance of stories from all kinds of kinds in their different layers of awakening. We hope you expand your heart and minds and create the shift with us. So unplug from the matrix and tune in to this magical mystery ride. Beep, beep. Honk honk. Okay. Are you ready? Yeah. Do you want to be in the episode? You want to say welcome to the Magical Midlife Crisis Podcast. The cat in court and mag and today is Love Day. Today is is Valentine's Day. Oh, are we recording right now? Yes. Oh, happy Valentine's Day. Galentine's Day and Palentine'say Day. All your pals out there. Yeah. Yeah. Um, I don't know the history of Valentine's Day. Do you know anything about it? Yeah. Um. I don't think there is a history. I think it's just to get people to buy chocolates and flowers. I think it's good. Made up. I, that's my perception. That's my ideology of it, but I embrace it. Yeah. Yeah. I embrace it. I don't know if there's a history on it. Yeah. I'm sure there's something, something out there made by Hallmark or something like that. Yeah. Yeah. They probably created a whole old story behind Valentine's Day in my tummy rumbling. Yeah. But I mean, I think it's good to have a holiday to share love and give love and you can do all that without breaking the bank. You can just simply tell people that you love them. Yeah. Every day can be love day. Oh, and shout out to my brother. Happy birthday, Chad. You're fucking awesome. How old is Chad today? 38 years old. 38. You guys are that close in age? Yeah. Wow. Yeah. Yeah. Brett would be 41. I'm 40 and Chad's 38. So Brett and I, I think we're like 18. Yeah. 18 months apart. Oh, one of those. Parents, we're just cranking you guys out, huh? Cranking, cranking! Oh! Oh! Yeah! So, the day of love, I'm excited because I feel like it's been forever since you've been here. Has it really only just been a week? I think it's just been like seven days, which makes up a week. I was here last week, wasn't I? Why does it feel longer than normal? I don't know. It does feel like it's been a very long week. Okay, so last week was the first day of our new Seal Mace Flow session. I feel like that whole day was a whirlwind of excitement. Yeah. And then the week was full. It was good. I don't know, I don't know of anything specific, but yeah, it just seems longer that you haven't been here. Yeah, it's weird how time works, isn't it? Time is an illusion, right? Yeah. You know, I love, that's what I love about time is I love getting caught up in the present moment and then all of a sudden you just realize like it doesn't exist. So I was actually at the barbecue for Brett. I was talking to my, one of my best friend's husband about the illusion of time, and he got so upset with me and angry because he's like, are you kidding me? Albert Einstein? My face. And his laws and how time is actually proven. And I'm just like, no, but in like the quantum mechanics side of it, like literally as humans, we're the only ones that actually measure time and measure money. Like no other species on the planet measures those two things. Only humans or pay taxes. True. No, but I mean, it's like, yeah, it's a, it's a, it's a concept. But we're the only ones that are literally obsessed and stressed by time. Yeah, I used to sit, have that model. Like I wish there was more time in a day, but you literally can manipulate your day with time and really make your day useful and full of time. It can be endless. Like really, if you're like, I can catch myself being unproductive. And then I catch myself not being caught in the present moment. And kind of being distracted and that's where you lose value of time. And I love how you called yourself out recently. That was really inspiring. You were talking about how you're just. It's not as productive as you want to be like, what's like working out and, um, being productive with your day. Like you, you literally called yourself out in a few areas and I'm like, Oh, that makes me want to like kind of audit my time as far as what I'm doing and if there's any areas that I can manipulate, cause that's really what it is. It's a manipulation of your emotions connected to what you're doing and if it's obviously making you feel like you're thriving or surviving. Right. I'd rather thrive. Me too. Yeah. But with my productivity, I've got to say that I do have a sink full of a lot of dirty dishes right now and a lot of, um, dirty protein shakers, but that's okay. I was going to clean the kitchen and do a bunch of stuff, but you know, last minute I took Mason to the Hawks game and to me that was, that's how I chose to spend my time. Yeah. Rather than doing that, I'd rather enjoy moments with. My favorite little human being then, scrubbing in dirty plates. How was the game? It was good. We played the Canucks. Um, lost. But it was still a good game. Yeah. I ran into an old childhood friend. What? Yeah. Yeah. Um, she grew up on the same block as me, so she was like the oldest and her brother was best friends with my brother. And then her youngest brother and I were best friends since like two years old. Dude. Yeah. She lives in like the Palatine area, like they play hockey and stuff. Yeah. But like in the whole arena, the whole arena, she was just like a few seats in front of me. And I was like, Oh my God, is that, I don't want to like say her name, but I was like, Oh my God, is that you? And she was like, out of all the times, like both of all of our kids play hockey, we've never ran into each other at a hockey game or at a rank. So it's a small world of the hockey world, but we run into each other at the United Center. So yeah, it was crazy cause I wasn't going to take Mason. So it's just funny how the universe works to like, just reconnect with people. Really? Yeah. I love stories like that. It reminds me of the show Manifest. We just finished it. That's the airplane one, right? Highly, highly, highly, highly, highly, HIGHLY with a capital H, recommend. Um, and yeah, there's a, this couple within the show and I'm not going to do any spoilers, but the one talks about how many times they cross paths. Um, along their entire lives before they actually met. And it's like, that got me thinking about, I wonder how many times Joe and I almost, like, Ran into each other, how many times that happened until we finally did. And because he grew up in Palatine, I lived in Palatine when I met him. And then I can't remember, there was like a few other possibilities. Because again, it's all about endless possibilities. But do you ever wonder that, like, how many times you and Joel, like, could have met before you met? Oh, yeah. I mean, when he was younger, he used to, uh, neighborhood and used to sponsor his softball teams before my family bought it. So, and he used to live at Barrington Lakes. You know, our lives are very similar the way that they're kind of like, and then yeah, his younger brother, Brian, was best friends with my best friend's older sister. So I hadn't met Brian when I was like in seventh grade. Never thinking like, I thought he was like this cool older dude, never thinking I'm dating his way older brother, you know, obviously our, our timeline had to pair up to when the ages were appropriate. We are 17 years age difference. But yeah, there's, it's just crazy how you just wonder like, were we like ever in the same room together? But, or yeah, crazy, seriously. So crazy how you talk to people and you're like, Oh my God, I was there too. Or you just, you don't even know you might walk past that person and they don't even phase you. And then all of a sudden. Years later, you meet and you're in love or past lives, you know, never know, you don't crazy, crazy shout out to our men, Joe and Joel, which I think can get confusing when people hear us talk because you have a Joe and I have a Joel and we sounded like, yeah, but shout out to our men. They have been as, as if you didn't already hear, if you've heard past episodes, they've been such positive influences in our lives to, to connect back with ourselves and invest in our, in ourself so much to better our relationships. And I, Joe and I had a really, a really vulnerable night a few nights ago, and we just talked about how. Like, even in the moments where, even within our relationship, so we've been together six and a half years, and just now I'm realizing how much we are evolving when we know that the other person is going to shut down Play a previous program or pattern that, you know, makes us feel weak and we push each other just a little bit further in a respectful way, but like, we know now, like, we're, we're to help each other just go a little bit further, like, stretch out of that zone of comfort to grow. And it's really cool when you finally get to that point. Where you're just like, and then, and then I'm like, holy shit, babe. Like, this is, this is a brand new territory that we're in right now. And it's like, Oh, like we both had this like far out moment of realization. We're on the same wavelength. It's not that it happens all the time. Right. Like, don't get me wrong. Like, we still have our misunderstandings and our Oh, of course. Repeating patterns that we How else are you going to grow? Right. Exactly. Yeah. But it's so cool when you have someone that Invest in themselves as much as you are and then inspires you to keep doing the same because I really do think when it comes to love, like with any relationship, love with yourself, love with your best friend, love with your friends, even, even coworkers. I mean, I don't know that I would say that, I don't know. I don't know a lot of coworkers that actually love each other, but there's some out there. Um, and then love with your partner, love with your family members, your siblings, your parents. Like, to deepen that relationship, it's my belief, and you can try it on, see how it fits. But, if you don't work on yourself, that relationship will always stay as it is. It will not grow. And I yearn, yearn, this is court, I yearn growing. I yearn it. So, it's um, it's my experience. That when you invest and you continue learning and growing, it only benefits everyone around you. Yeah. Especially when you tap in, like when you tap into that love for yourself, you need less external love. Yeah. And then the more you love yourself, the more people that are of genuine kind loving people come into your life. And then you can see people in a different light and it's just, it's a beautiful love is a beautiful thing. It's just so pure and so light and I love to love. I love to love and I do struggle. I struggle still with. Certain people in my life and I try to have love for everybody, but the only thing I struggle with is certain people in my life, me letting certain things go. And so I guess all this like love talk. I was having a personal conversation with my mom about family and stuff earlier. You know, and I'm like, I'm, I can't wait till I get to that point where I can just have for people that are the best in my life or that were in my life. I'm trying to create a healthy, just love and let go. Well, even the words you just chose, like, I can't wait to have, like, you're already planning it. Like it's already, it's just a matter of time now for you to evolve there. Yeah. Yeah. I got to get rid of some of the anger. Yeah. Which some days I have and some days I don't, but obviously it's still stored in there. Yeah. Yeah. Absolutely. Absolutely. Absolutely. But back onto the love. Love, love. I don't want to get caught up in that thought process. But um, yeah, I just love to love. And it's almost like I was talking about this with one of my patients today. Um, like the survival energy that I, that came to like the forefront when I was a kid was, was the, my like lover energy, where it's like, I want everyone to be at peace. And I want to Like people, please. And I want everyone there. I don't want conflict to happen. I want everyone to just either, you know, be nice to each other. Don't say anything at all. You know, like that was my, that was my survival energy. And so the trueness of love. And how I actually love and I'm not playing those programs anymore and people pleasing I'm like so aware of my of my patterns where I used to people please and avoid conflict and want everyone to be at peace and love and I still want all of that, but on a truer sense and it just feels really good to speak my piece now instead of. Avoiding it to create peace, do you? Yeah. And that probably uses up a lot less energy. Yes. Yeah. No, I get it. So I actually feel more peace. Yeah. And less conflict inside of me. Yes. It's really good. Yeah. Yeah. And it's, it's like the more I become true and authentic, And catch my patterns and shift and use my voice and share my actual feelings and allow emotions to move through me and process the emotions. The more I'm expanding the invitation to other people around me that I really do want to have a more meaningful relationship with, but it's like almost the universe is just lining them up in the right order almost. And I'm just trusting. So it's like, obviously it's easy with Joe. He's my person. He's my partner. Like, he's the number one. He's going to be the most honest with me. Which is not always easy, but it's still, I'm the most open, which in previous relationships I was probably the most closed minded with my partner telling me where, where, how I'm coming off. So luckily with the right person, you're way more open minded and then, yeah, just different, different people in my life are, are kind of showing up so that it's giving me the opportunity to reprogram and not play these old patterns of like people pleasing and not sharing my true opinion of things or feelings about things. It's like the universe is giving me opportunities to continue growing my trueness, which is. Very cool. And I appreciate it. Thank you, universe. Thank you, God. Thank you, nature. Yeah, the universe is like, I cannot grasp the power of it. Like how it just puts people in your path, opportunities, even hard life lessons that you end up overcoming and going above and beyond to betterness yourself. Um, but yeah, so me and Joel, obviously I talked about like our age difference. But so me and Joel, Joel's pretty much happy content with the way that he is and he's starting to learn how to have a little bit more patience and try to because he's getting older. You know what I mean? He's an old man. But he's such a good support for me because he, he's like my cheerleader, you know, and he gives me the support and the confidence when I'm lacking it makes me believe in myself. And, um, and I told him, I go, I'm just here to love you and just give you all the love that you need. And, you know, and it's. That's all I can do for the guy is just love him. And I think that is what he needs. He just needs just pure genuine love and just a good, a good partner, you know? And so we have a very interesting dynamic in our relationship, but it works for us and you know, he knows a lot of things in life. He's. And through a lot, he's raised three grown children, you know, and then Mason. So I just really value him and love and respect him and know that usually his advice is pretty spot on. So I'm a pretty, pretty lucky little lady over here. Yeah. How would you say, so like from the beginning of your relationship to now, how would you say like that? Almost acceptance of each other as you are has evolved. Oh, big time. I mean, there was a lot of trust issues in the beginning of our relationship. Um, as I think there is with a lot. Yeah, and rightfully so. There are things that we both weren't honest about, and it definitely took me, um, time to get over that. But, um, I think too, it was the challenge of our age difference. I'm wondering, is it really going to work, you know, and, um, uh, age is nothing but a number and our hearts are meant to be together, but yeah, over time, um, I just had to learn how to, I think just me working on myself, like I've said in previous episodes, a lot of issues for me, you know, and the more I worked on myself, like unknowingly helped him, you know, and I think he learned certain things from the way that I would handle things. And I'm just over and we've been together 10 years now and I think we finally have just an amazing relationship like we are, I would say 70 percent of the time we are on the same frequency. I can't even, we literally will sing the same song at the same time, and we always like sing songs and have like, Different words in it that I know that's so weird that like, just, I mean, I can't even explain you how many times just always like we're thinking the exact same thing because our, we're on the same frequency, you know, far out and wild But yeah, I just, what was your question? Like the evolution of accepting each other as you are. Oh yeah. I've just had to accept like, okay, you know what? He's a grown man and he's content with the way that he is too. And if he's happy being that way, it's not my job to change him, but maybe I can change the way that I react, you know, and we doesn't always have to be blaming that person. Well, it's because you're that way. It's because you're that way. Well, if I don't like the way that he's that way, how about I respond differently? That's I think I finally came to that realization, probably after hearing it multiple times, but came to that realization over the last year with the course that I took. And I had, I mean, it's almost like subconsciously. I knew that was the answer. But again, we hear the. He should be doing this for you kind of story, blaming, shaming bullshit from the universe around us. All these people are programmed to say that same thing instead of again, taking responsibility, reflecting on our own self and how, what if like asking yourself, what if? I shifted, right? What would that do for our situation or in the scenario that continues to run over and over and over? That's when I, I was like, It has to be me, but it's like, if you don't know what to, how to change it or what to do differently or who to plug into to like help you shift in a different way, like there, the resources out there are abundant. Like, I think the excuse for, I don't know what to do to help myself or to help my relationship or the situation. Is literally an excuse that doesn't work today. Well, especially when social media. Yeah, because as detrimental social media can be, especially to children's lives. Nowadays, there's great resources, social media, there's a Facebook group. For everything where you can connect and find the type of people that you need support from, or people have been through what you've been through truly. So yeah, it's really just people not wanting to do the work and making the excuse, you know, Joel lives by. The motto. You can't teach an old dog new tricks. Yes, you can. It's just reprogramming, but I don't need him to change. I, I fell in love with him with the person that he is in 10 years and he's evolved naturally without having to do the work. And so I do the work because I personally want to change. I didn't like the person that I was. I didn't like how I would handle things. I didn't like how I, how I would respond to things, how I would just be so. Like just react so fast and get angry and just spit fire, like things that would come out of my mouth out of anger, like none of that was resolving anything, you know, and so me doing the work, I'm doing it for me, you know, and it's just people around me are benefiting from it, which is also what I want, you know, I want to create a healthy, loving environment in my home, you know, I want to teach my child that like, okay. Yeah, you can be amazing and do all these things, but then there's downfalls and sometimes you aren't perfect and sometimes it's just the ebb and flow and just trying to be the best that you can. But you know, if you don't like certain things about yourself, do the work and change it. Joel's content with how he is. And I am too. You know, I fucking love that guy. I fucking love him, you know, but I didn't love myself. Joel loves himself. Joel likes who he is. I never liked who I was. I enjoyed who I was. I think enjoying and like liking yourself or loving yourself are two completely different. So yeah, like I would enjoy myself like, Oh, I'm fine or whatever. But when I'd be by myself with my thoughts. I did not like myself at all, because all I would think about was all the negativity and all that. So the more you do the self development, you start to think positive things about yourself that just. Flows into the people's lives around you. I haven't thought about that. Like I did enjoy myself, but then, yeah, I did not like myself. That is interesting. It's a different, and almost like, um, I enjoyed how people expected me to, you know, have a few glasses of wine and then like the Courtney that everyone appreciated and liked, there she was. So it was like, and I enjoyed that. Like just. Set up, which I don't anymore at all. And then not how I live my life. Thank you angels for coming into our lives and presenting us with so many opportunities of goodness. We love you so much. Thank you. Angels and guides. I don't know if you guys all know this, but literally when we come into earth, like when we, like when we're born, we have angels and guides attached to us. We all do. So keep that in mind, just always talk to your angels and guides, let them know that you know that they're there. Yeah. From what I understand from all the angel. Um, experts out there, angels love gratitude. So if you, if you are a person that you're like, yeah, what's all this gratitude bullshit, because you might be seeing it floating around on social media or something. Just know that if you don't, if you don't do anything with the whole process of gratitude, you can just pretend. And imagine that angels and guides, so like spiritual guides could be around and what if you were grateful for them actually stepping into your life and saving you or someone that you love? Like, why not think what if that all could happen rather than fuck this idea of angels and guides and gratitude? Well, like, why not think for everything in life? Why not think about the positive that could come, right? Like, why not? And nothing, it's a coincidence. There are no coincidences, in my, in my opinion, from the universe and the laws and all that, that when you randomly look at a time or if you are driving, I randomly look at license plates. Majority of the time and I do it when I'm not like just I'll randomly look at a license plate that one happens to have an angel number on it or certain initials with an angel number on it. That's not a coincidence. It's not like my higher self said, Hey, look over here. Your angels and guides want you to know that they're here. Say, You know, and there's a complete difference than, you know, I, like you said, people posting about gratitude or people talking about gratitude, you can go on your social media and you can write a long post how you're so blessed. So grateful and all the stuff, but if you're some people do it just like for, for the look of it, you know what I mean? For the attention of it. I say that because I know a handful of people that do that because I know who they are to the core, but if you're not actually practicing the emotion of gratitude. You and living right in that not feeling that emotion like right now My heart is just pumping because I'm just grateful to be here in the room with Courtney sitting here recording We're talking about love. I legit feel gratitude all through my body right now Like my heart can just burst out and just feel it Fucking hug the microphone, like, you know, but like, you can't just share a quote about gratitude. You can't just say you're grateful. You know, you have to feel the emotion like you could be grateful. But what's like, and I don't I'm sure everybody's grateful about shit. But if you really want to use the word grateful, feel the emotion with it. And like, That's, that's connecting to the quantum, like when you align your heart and your mind and you feel a shift in your own energy, that is alignment and that will shift so much within your view of life and, and your outlook altogether. The more you practice it, like Dr. Joe says, we get really good at anything we practice. So the more you practice. So the feeling, the quickest way that most humans feel this, what they call coherence, the heart and mind, I feel like I've already talked about this on an episode, but whatever the heart and mind connecting and like actually syncing right? The quickest way is fear. Like that is the fastest way. So that's how a lot of our minds are manipulated by. I'll just say it. The news and lots of different TV programs. Again, they're called programs because they are designed to program us. And as humans, we are programmable, which is not a good or a bad thing. It's just how we are. We are basically a computer setup, but with a higher intelligence, right? And so fear is one of the easiest ways to get people to connect. It's why women connection is one of our highest core values. So then what's the easiest way for females to connect to gossip because it's all fear based. And so that's one of the biggest reasons I really wanted to get out of the healthcare system, not to mention the programming and all that, but like the, the, the gossip and the negative fear based mentalities of these. Groups of people. Um, and I'm sure it's not just healthcare. I'm sure it's like fricking airlines and I mean, other veterinary offices. Like, I mean, there's probably so many different industries where there's like a lot of women coming together and then shifting into this, this company that you and I work in based on natural wellbeing. So still the healthcare system, actual healthcare system, not the sick care system. And elevating each other for positive impact in the world. Like it was a, it was like, I was blown away. I was like, this is real. This is a real thing. Oh, no wonder people think this is a cult because. It's the opposite of how a lot of the world works. It's like, oh, we're helping each other and we're actually connecting. So connecting, we're hitting our core value and then we're like boosting each other up. We're connecting our mind and our heart. We're in coherence, like way more. There's no competitiveness. There is no pettiness. There's nothing but lifting and supporting and like wanting the person next to you or on your team to rise above. You know, and you don't see, you see very little of that in today's world. And the people that, I mean, sometimes I was like, is that, like, before I even knew anything about, like, I didn't really understand what network marketing, social marketing really was. I literally was like, yeah, I know that's a thing, but I'm, I'm a dental hygienist. I have nothing to do with any of that. It's like, I have a job and I love it and screw the rest of the world. So, like, when, when I would see anything about it, I'm just like, what? That just seems so fake to me, right? Because I was in such a low vibration all the time that anybody that looked that happy and that, um, like connected and just that high vibe, which I didn't even know what those words meant when I was living the life that I did before. Um, I, I just didn't believe it. I didn't think it was real. It almost looks fake. honestly, I mean, there's all different types of people in our company, all different walks of life, different races, different nationalities. People who look differently, different, like different sizes, all different people. And there's no judgment. It's just come as you are and just teaching people to be authentic and just, yeah, we just want to serve people and help people. It really is the business of love, free love. Yeah. It's like the fucking sixties and seventies and peace signs. I want to get a little deep here for a second and we're going to talk about the elevated emotion. Um, I'm going to talk a little bit about my past really quick about my partying days. So I used to be big into doing ecstasy, loved it, loved it. The feeling that MDMA can give you, and they used to give it to people back in the sixties and seventies, like you just mentioned for therapy, pure MDMA for couples to like, you know, reignite their love and, you know, obviously the drug industry or the drugs, obviously. But those like I now can naturally feel like I'm rolling balls and you say that all the time. Yeah, me, especially when we're doing anything with our team and our, but it's like, I have no idea what that is because I've never been on the drug. Right. Like right now, right now, you guys, I kind of feel like I'm rolling. So those of you that have experienced with MDMA, FTC or Molly, um, I used to be a part of here. Um, but there's a beauty in that drug MDMA, you know, like it, it can be natural, you know, but it's so, I'm not telling everybody to go out there and do drugs. It's not what I'm telling you. What I'm saying is our bodies can create that serotonin. Like today after I worked out and I'm still vibing that high, like I came in here just Hi. Yeah. It's like all your own, all your own drugs inside of you. Yes. It is absolutely insane. So to me, it's just like, wow, I can create this feeling on my own, you know? So it's good that I don't have to hit up no ecstasy to be feeling good for my gratitude. No, but it's, it's crazy because it really connects you to yourself and other people. Well, and. Yeah. Absolutely. Absolutely. David Hawkins, um, I mean, well known for talking about elevated emotions and creating these chemicals within our own bodies with our own minds. Like, he's always, I mean, I, I haven't read any of his long ass books, but I've read a lot of his quotes, and I've talked to a lot of people who have read his books, which I will be doing at one point. This is Court, by the way. Yeah, Courtney does not do average I have not tried any of those drugs. But! Um, I really do believe that that's part of the, the, um, personal goals that I have to like feel flow state within my own body because I've been running these programs of perfectionism and self sabotage and, um, people pleasing and all these like shitty things that I've carried on for so long because they had a purpose, you know, they were protecting me from. All the quote unquote threats out there that are not there that I know now, but it, it's like I, I'm like stoked to because I know it's gonna happen where I feel like full on flow state allowance. It's on my own accord, like the creation within me allows it to be. So it's so fun to hear you talking about rolling balls without actually doing anything. Yeah, I have no hold to my brain. So fucking awesome. Yes. Yeah. Those days are way behind me. I don't even drink anymore, let alone am I doing ecstasy on the weekends. I'm not saying I never drink, I'm just saying I'm on a, I'm on a break. So not saying that I don't drink, I'm just Yeah. On a break. And like Ross and Rachel were on a break, but they came back. Yeah. And then they broke up and then they came back and then they up, they came back and, but I have a glass of tequila. We're not on a break. Oh my gosh. I'm so excited for tequila with this. I'm really stoked for like that summer that day. Yeah. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Well, we're in Vegas. A lot of tequila and biz, a lot of it. And Christine's going to be there. Oh, you weren't on the last call. There's, um, JoJo's. Ooh. Yeah. Best partners. She's in California. She's Very your energy. Oh, cool. Anyway, she's coming. Yeah. Oh, nice. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. We're going to have to, we should do our podcast while we're in Logan. Oh, yes. Yeah. Or do like the lives or something and kind of early. Yeah. Oh, god. I'm just rolling over here. You are. We can tell. You are. Hopefully it lasts and I don't, I won't have to hang over. Oh, that's just like the joy of being like. You know, and a lot of people who know me personally, like I tell this kind of stuff to you, but now I'm just airing it out there, like no shame, you know, but it's nice to know that when you want to reach certain levels of emotions, you can find that within yourself, you know, and what do you, what do you attribute that to, to find it within yourself? Like, what are your favorite ways of quote unquote doing the work? It's an abundance of just my lifestyle, really. It's just me eating, eating better. I've been really clean with my nutrition for the last month and a half. So I feel like I'm really like in a whole wellness state of mind right now. And I've been really working out hard, um, being conscious of my affirmations and what I'm listening to. So yeah, I think it's just a combination of everything and it takes time, you know, like I wasn't getting the growth process, really, well yeah, but putting in the work and knowing that it's, it's going to happen, because I think that's what a lot of people who try, you know, healthier choices, it's the constant belief that anything's going to come of it, or that it's not going to last, or like all of these limiting stories that patterns and programs, so yeah, I mean, watching you over the last few years now, it's just so cool to see how you've evolved and how I've evolved because I'm around you. Well, likewise. You know what I mean? We contribute what we lack for each other. You know, we hold each other's hand when, for the things that we need, but, um, I don't know what I was going to say. Well, we were talking about your healthy habits. It's eating healthy and working out and affirmations and it's different for everyone. That combination is amazing for you. Amazing. Oh, that's what I was going to say. So like this, like it's Wednesday, middle of the week, I'm like vibing so high. So sometimes life is bipolar. Last week I was in a low, you know, I had some situations in life and work that literally sucked and drained my energy. Like I could tell it was affecting my mood and it was like making me have a little bit more social anxiety, more kind of closed in. But I visited that. I didn't stay there. So that's the key is like, okay, the old me would stay and be stuck, you know, but you get through it. You handle the shit that you got to handle. You address it with the people that you need to address it with you and you move on, you know, and it's a new day and next day and you get your power back, you know, and that's the beauty of having control over your thoughts. Thanks. It's hard, but it can be done, but it gets easier and easier the more you do it. Yeah. So I think now I don't even, and now I don't even think about it, I don't even think about it. And I, um, like for me observing you, witnessing you, it's, I don't even, I don't even worry about you. Like, that's, it's such a wonderful feeling. It's like, I know, I know you're like, you just stepped on what we call a dark square and your next step Square that you step on. It's going to be light and it's like, I don't even worry because I know you are running the programs of just regulation. You're regulating yourself. You're feeling what you need to. You're moving through it. You're using your voice. You're being as you are. Honest as you can, as truthful as you can. It's just, it's awesome. Yeah. And my position, like when it comes to work and stuff, it can be very draining, very exhausting because you are the leader, you're the person in charge. And then you also have a whole group of customers. So it's always me. And that's where I do have to be a people pleaser. But then again, I also have to stop lying. And so situations that happen, it sucks the life out of me, but you have to replenish the life that was sucked out. You have to, everything that was taken out of you, you've got to input positive things back in and you just got to refuel, you know, and that's life, you know, but all my, all my work and anything that I'm doing that wasn't like an impact moment, you know what I mean? But I know that if there's a future. moment in my life where I know that my old self wouldn't handle it well, I think I'll have a much tighter grip on it, you know, be able to handle it better. Yeah. It's awesome. So proud of you. I love you so much. Thank you. I love you too. So much love. And I, I do got to say, like when you said a lot of coworkers, you know, you don't love each other, but, you know, the amazing staff at neighboring, like we are all different people, all different, all different histories, all different families, upbringings. Very different and very many different personalities, different emotions, but the core of it, everybody does love each other and it really is cool and you know, and not everything is always beautiful and there's issues and stuff like that, but I love, I can love that bar so much, you know, and I just love everybody there and I just, yeah, so that's unique. It's very, especially in your industry. Yeah. Because it's another industry where a lot of shit can go down. Yeah. I, that's the only way I think that like I'll ever leave is if, when, if that ever, like if that era of, ever comes to an end, cause the world is changing. Yeah. The world's changing. But I mean, I don't want to think about that. I just. Love what I have and embrace it. Yeah. Love, love, love. Love to love. Yeah, speaking of the, um, One Love movie with, um, Bob Marley. It's out today. Oh! Yeah. Should go watch it. It's like a documentary on him, right? I honestly have no idea. Didn't his dad kill him? That's not really nice. I don't know. That's not good love. That's not good. I actually don't know. No, but I do love Bob Marley. I love the Marleys. Yeah. Um, there's, um, I had a patient who, um, actually connected me with his daughter. She, he's like, you should be friends with my daughter. I'm like, okay. So we've been friends. Shout out to Kara. Um, she's friends with one of the Marley sons. I don't know which one, but she's obviously in the music industry. Oh, that is so cool. Yeah, one of Bob Marley's sons. There's Iggy, Ziggy. I don't know their names, but Twiggy, yeah. Yeah, yeah. So many possibilities. But yeah, so, um, we should, I want to, I want to see that movie. Yeah. It's on Netflix? No, it's in theater. Oh, theater. So like maybe when it's available, maybe like April 20th or something, we can watch it. Oh yeah, that's a good date. Yeah. Mark might partake in a legal gummy bear. Oh, okay. Well, thanks for tuning back in to the Magical Midlife Crisis Podcast. 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