The Magical Midlife Crisis

Episode 23 - Stay in it...There's Strength After the Struggle

March 24, 2024 Megan Zdeb & Courtney Beth Anderson Season 1 Episode 23
Episode 23 - Stay in it...There's Strength After the Struggle
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The Magical Midlife Crisis
Episode 23 - Stay in it...There's Strength After the Struggle
Mar 24, 2024 Season 1 Episode 23
Megan Zdeb & Courtney Beth Anderson

In this heartfelt and exploratory episode of the Magical Midlife Crisis podcast, hosts Meg & Court dive deep into their personal journeys of self-discovery, transformation, and manifestation. 

The duo shares their experiences with changing diets, gaining clarity, and how these shifts led them to realize the levels of unhappiness they were living in. They stress the importance of doing the internal work, being willing to change, and embracing a lifestyle that aligns with their true selves. 

The conversation covers topics like meditation, the power of the mind in shaping reality, the significance of connecting with nature, and the impact of community support in their growth. Through stories of personal awakening and the pursuit of non-toxic living, Meg & Court aim to inspire listeners to explore their own paths to wellness and to awaken the magic within themselves. 

The episode is a mix of profound insights, moments of enlightenment, and an invitation to join them in embracing a life full of blessings and lessons. The hosts encourage stepping out of comfort zones, reprogramming the mind for positivity, and the transformative power of seeing the world through a lens of gratitude and alignment with the divine.


02:26 The Power of Meditation and Personal Growth

07:22 Embracing the Shift: From Darkness to Light

08:40 The Art of Letting Go and Finding Empowerment

14:19 Connecting with the Divine and the Power Within

28:38 The Importance of Self-Love and Setting Boundaries




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Directly connect with Meg: @meg.itate.8itch
Directly connect with Court:
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Connect to us both: themagicalmidlifecrisis@gmail.com --- Write to us! We'd love to learn about a magical midlife crisis story of your own or someone you know!

Show Notes Transcript

In this heartfelt and exploratory episode of the Magical Midlife Crisis podcast, hosts Meg & Court dive deep into their personal journeys of self-discovery, transformation, and manifestation. 

The duo shares their experiences with changing diets, gaining clarity, and how these shifts led them to realize the levels of unhappiness they were living in. They stress the importance of doing the internal work, being willing to change, and embracing a lifestyle that aligns with their true selves. 

The conversation covers topics like meditation, the power of the mind in shaping reality, the significance of connecting with nature, and the impact of community support in their growth. Through stories of personal awakening and the pursuit of non-toxic living, Meg & Court aim to inspire listeners to explore their own paths to wellness and to awaken the magic within themselves. 

The episode is a mix of profound insights, moments of enlightenment, and an invitation to join them in embracing a life full of blessings and lessons. The hosts encourage stepping out of comfort zones, reprogramming the mind for positivity, and the transformative power of seeing the world through a lens of gratitude and alignment with the divine.


02:26 The Power of Meditation and Personal Growth

07:22 Embracing the Shift: From Darkness to Light

08:40 The Art of Letting Go and Finding Empowerment

14:19 Connecting with the Divine and the Power Within

28:38 The Importance of Self-Love and Setting Boundaries




If you feel called to it - please 'follow', rate with some stars & share any episodes to spread the magic! Reviews & reflections can be shared here -> https://tinyurl.com/TheMagicalMidlifeCrisisPage

Listening on Apple Podcasts? scroll to the bottom, tap "write a review"

Tune in to you next time!

Want to have your own discovery on how the mind & body are interconnected? And learn how food can lead to a more sustainable & vibrant life? --> ***
Click here to learn more and/or message us on the 30 Days to Healthier Living! *** <--

Directly connect with Meg: @meg.itate.8itch
Directly connect with Court:
@coco.compassion
Connect to us both: themagicalmidlifecrisis@gmail.com --- Write to us! We'd love to learn about a magical midlife crisis story of your own or someone you know!

At least let me like do a little work, you know, cause I still got my own work to do, but it's, people have to want it themselves. And the minute somebody wants it and they're willing to start to do the work I'm with them a hundred percent, but I had, it's hard for me to accept. Yeah. That not everybody wants to change and some people are okay with being who they are and that's completely fine But I wasn't once I really started to change my diet and really started to have a little bit more clarity less brain fog And really kind of started to feel better. So I was thinking better same more clear Yeah, that was when I never realized how unhappy I was. I had no fucking clue, you know Until I started to have clarity in my life And like to really kind of take a step back. Like, do I like my behaviors? Do I like the way I think about myself? Do I like the way I treat other people? And my answers to all those were no, the fuck I don't. And that was when I changed the way I think act and feel. And so by there I've changed my personality and my personal reality. And my life has been nothing but full of blessings and still lessons. This is the magical midlife crisis podcast, where your hosts, I'm court, a compassion activist, animal lover, nature, nut and entrepreneur in the mind, body, spirit connections. And I met a free thinker with a passion for non toxic living, a dedicated hockey mom and a multi business owner. We are a couple of friends who met through health and heartache. We discovered through our crisis moments, we all have magic within us. This podcast is about awakening to a different perspective and being the creators of our own reality. Every Sunday, you can expect an abundance of stories from all kinds of kinds in their different layers of awakening. We hope you expand your heart and minds and create the shift with us. So unplug from the matrix and tune in to this magical mystery ride. Beep, beep. Honk honk. Welcome back to the Magical Midlife Crisis. We got Meg here and Court. Hi, everyone. Hello. Hello. Shalom. Shabbat. Shalom. Hola. Como estas? Okay. So, um, we were both feeling a lot of feelings and a lot of connecting and realizing how much we've grown over the last few years, especially knowing each other. And being a part of a community that really does focus on feeling more and doing this crazy thing that a lot of people, well, people I connect to say it, talk about this, but manifesting and, um, Megan, I are learning so much about like the power that we have, each of us has within ourselves and. What we're really capable of and in so many ways we get confirmation from the universe Like through all types of signs, but like the last weekend I went to this growth retreat with our company and I Got all these signs from nature And, and meditation. It was the first time. So, Meg and I both meditate. Um, we've gone in different, like, waves of doing it. Who we follow. Dr. Joe Dispenza is one of our favorites. My homeboy, Dr. Joe. And, so, like, I, Have learned that when, when we're meditating, like I, when I first started meditating, I don't know, six years ago, it was kind of like one of those things where I checked it off, like I meditated, I did five minutes, I laid down, I was quiet. Maybe fall asleep. Maybe didn't fall asleep. Um, but now that I've been practicing on and off over time, you really get to feel like what meditation is really for you. And Meg has been taking Dr. George Spence's course. So she's going to share about like what meditation is on a, on her level. We're all on our own level and it's supposed to be that way. And Moses is joining us. Um, so yeah, I meditated for the first time I felt myself, my brainwaves, my soul drop into what they call alpha brainwaves. So we all live in beta brainwaves. We're all thinking and talking and alive, awake. And then when we get into meditation, a lot of the time, the goal is to drop into a beta brainwave. wave state that's called alpha or theta and then you really like you forget you're a body but your mind is still all awake and working but it's kind of also lost in its own world and your body doesn't try to control it. So for me I had this really cool realization I'm like drop they call it dropping into alpha wave state and then a visual came to me And i'll just i'll just talk about the visual. I wasn't planning on it, but why not? Yeah, please share So, um, I was all of a sudden I was on a city street and there was this white door so I opened it and then like just a foot and a half away was another white door with this huge gold dragon knocker. And so I took the, the ring of the knocker and I started to knock it. And when I lifted the knocker higher. I saw this like blue graffiti underneath it on the door and I just opened the door and I honestly don't, didn't know what any of that meant, but I knew I had this like feeling that I would figure it out later. And so then, um, then I just immediately like realized that I was getting this image. And when you, our mind is always trying to control and our body is always trying to control our mind. So my body realized that I was visualizing something. So then I like kind of. Dropped back into beta waves. And so then I just released and I let go and I just, you know, got back into the breathing and just allowing my mind to just let go and not control. And then I fell back into alpha brain brain waves. And then I saw, I was like literally floating within an ocean. And I saw these two seagulls floating away from me, like flying away from me. And, and that was pretty much it. And again, didn't really know what that meant. But I knew I was going to figure it out. So, um, I, and I figured it out like later. So I was at this retreat and there was some really like amazing high impact trainers that were sharing all about basically connecting back to self and connecting to the highest power that we hold within us and, and connecting to the universe and God and whatever, whatever you see the highest power as like the, the power. That beats all of our hearts. That's what I always like to refer to it as whatever you believe that it is. And so the one trainer was talking and going on and on about how are the enemy, like the evilness out there? Cause there's, there's, there's darkness, right? There's, there's darkness. That's working against us and wanting to us to live in a small minded, I've been there. I've lived it. I know that I was living in the darkness. Um, And he talked about how the enemy, the evilness can, can show up as like the smallest serpent. Like people hear about it being like a snake. And then also the largest dragon. And so did I say that? Knacker was in the shape of a gold dragon. I did say that. Okay. Okay. Okay. So yeah, then I, I immediately, I was like that knocker represented just how I'm knocking down these fears of these stories of what's been holding me back. I started my business five years ago, um, as a, as a consultant of helping people be well. And yet I needed to work on myself to feel well enough to have confidence to actually be able to kind of like grow my My wings as a, as a leader. And it reminded me, I didn't tell you this part, Meg, but it reminded me a lot of my mom and like, she was such a strong leader when we were in like scouts when we were little and she was just, I. I think what brought that to me is I've been listening to a lot of Native American healing music. And when I was in Girl Scouts when I was little, my brothers were both in Boy Scouts, and my mom was the leader for both of us, troop leader for me and den leader for them. And we would go to all these Native American, like, camps and spend a lot of time learning about the Native American culture. And I just have always felt so peaceful within, I mean, if you listen to, like, the one in flutes, it's just Like it takes you to another place. And I've been listening to that a lot, especially at night before I go to sleep. Joe knows. Um, so I think all of that together just reminded me of my mom and how like strong of a leader she was. And it's like, it's cool to like, see that within me. Cause I never, ever, ever thought that I would have confidence. I never thought that I would be a leader. I never thought that I could like show people. A way of connecting back to their wellness and then having that empower them and then it like influencing their family, like their workplace, whatever, in a positive way, never thought that would be my life. So I just like had this crazy feeling of like, Holy shit, this is my life. And it's so cool. And so that dragon knocker was just, it just, I knew it was, It's me knocking down these old shitty stories of keeping myself at a, in a place where I didn't feel as empowered. So I feel empowered now. And then that blue, um, graffiti underneath the knocker. So anything blue people know, people who know me knew right away when I said blue, that meant my brother, Brett, like everyone associates the color blue with my brother, Brett. So I knew. Like, even though I couldn't read that graffiti, I think that was the point of it, like, even when it's not totally clear, I know that, like, he's with me. He's, like, underneath that darkness. He's always there to support, and just, it's hard to explain. And I'm sure anyone listening is probably like, what the fuck is she talking about? But that's, that's how it really feels. It feels real. So then, um, later, Those two seagulls. Right. So then I was at lunch with my team of leaders, like growing leaders we're all growing and I just, we were outside. We were having lunch. It was just like a beautiful day. I was out in Arizona, if you know Arizona, it's really spiritual state and I just felt like just so present and grateful. And all of a sudden I see a hummingbird like flying overhead and didn't get it right then. But then later after the day of training, there was a, um, there's a, um, a group of Jewish women that are within our organization. And they were talking about it being the Sabbath. And if anyone wants to take part in, um, in, um, You know, ceremony that anyone's welcome. So I go out, cause I wanna, I just love learning about cultures and rituals and like what people do to like, just feel more connected. So I go out there and the woman asks like what I wanted to get out of the little ceremony of lighting candles. And I just said, I just want to grow my relationship with God. And she, she told, she handed me the matchbox and told me to light a candle for myself and asked if I wanted to light for anybody else. And of course I wanted to light one for Brett. So I light two candles and she says, just cover your eyes with your hands and just talk from your heart. So I did, I covered my eyes and I don't know what came out of me. A lot of good words, I'm sure I was, I was totally in the moment and I was very emotional. And then after however long. It wasn't long, but after, you know, a couple minutes, I took my hands down and I looked to the sky and there was another hummingbird. It was like, I knew immediately those were the two it's like. It's just I feel from my experience that nature is really there to show us like how amazingly powerful we are. And if we just let go, let go and let God, if we let go and we allow Energy to just move through us and to just keep present as much as you can and grateful about like the beautiful things that are around. There was a lot of horrible things around, like anybody, it's so easy to look around and see the shitty things that are around us. So easy. But I've just been working on myself in, I've been doing the inner work, which I can, I talk about all the time, inner work of learning to connect back to myself, the power within me, finding things that make me happy, surrounding myself with people that are in that same higher vibration. And just allowing all of this goodness to be around and, and then get these cool meditation visualizations and just like discover the treasures that are out there for us in this crazy world that is literally a video game. Right, and we all have free access to it. Yeah. That's like, right. It's great. Like the amount of time that I spent in misery, like waiting for somebody to come, like, save me. Like it was in front of me all along. Wow. The whole time. Yeah. It's like, we forget just to stop and look around and just like, my mom is always just, my mom has always said, I find God in nature. And I never understood that when I was younger. Cause I had no. Relationship with God. I didn't know if I believed if I didn't believe, I don't know if God was a man sitting up in a cloud, like I didn't know, you know, I thought thunder was God bowling, like, you know, all those things we think, and, but now I really, I, I have so much more appreciation for. The grass that I walk on for the trees and the animals. And I mean, that's just, that's God all around us, you know? And it's like you said, living in the present and really tapping into that. It's just, it just opens your eyes to a whole new perspective. Well, and like for you and me, like we've been learning this kind of stuff now for a few years, but like in the early time of us learning about living in the present and the idea of meditation and the idea of like energy and connecting to the universe and that all. Like was not clear to me. And so it's like for anyone who's just like, I don't get any of that. I understand. We have both come from total darkness into the light moments, not to say that we're never going to go through darkness again. It's not about that. It's about. Knowing that there is always sunshine beyond the clouds, always, always, and trusting that and knowing that. And then the shitty things that happen aren't as heavy. They just aren't. And, and you almost feel just like, you know, the answers are going to come, whatever it is. And I've learned this, um, through Dr. Joe Dispenza. The answers are in alpha. Like, when you meditate, you just like let go of trying to control everything in life. Because that's everything that that's all of us. We've all been conditioned and, and Brainwashed. To try to control everything happening around us, and then if you let go, and you really just get quiet. You don't even have to like, actually know how to meditate, you just get like, quiet your mind. Quieting your mind. Like, when I first started meditating, I was one of those that was like, I can't meditate. I don't know how to shut my brain off. I just started by just focusing on my breath work, you know, and just, which feels so good anyway. Yeah. I mean, just doing breath work alone. I mean, I meditate now when I'm walking with my eyes open when I'm driving. I mean, I can meditate anywhere in any time. You know, yeah, just mostly just it's affirmations and thinking positive. And Joda Spenza says by the age of 35, we are 95 percent programmed into our habits and to the people that we are. So if once you hit 35, it is so hard to reprogram your mind, but it is the best, most valued work that anybody can do on this planet and it's free. And that's why it's a magical midlife crisis. You get to the point where you feel so stuck, so lost, so dark, so fucked up that you're like, you have no, like, there's no other choice. There's enough happening outside of you from the universe inside of you, your body rejected you, however it is inflaming, whatever, to make a change. And Dr. Joe doesn't want people to wait. Like, you know, that's unfortunate. Like, it's just kind of like how it is with the world we live in. But maybe it's shifting. Maybe people aren't waiting. I think we are, we are definitely in a huge shift. Yeah. I can feel it and I can, I can see it. I can sense it around me. Justin, like, Things that I see on TV or even like certain things. And yes, we can get into who owns the media and all that kind of stuff. But like, I really am feeling and noticing a shift in just the knowledge that's kind of being put out there. And it's just, it's different. It's like, I see that there's more awareness on things. Yeah. I want to read this. I tagged you in it. Um, one of my friends, my social media friends, um, I honestly don't even know how to pronounce her name. And I think it's. It's Sean Phillips. She's at, I think down in New Zealand, but she posted this and it's just so cool says you all know we're doing this, right? Regardless of all the shit that's been thrown our way, we're actually doing this, creating a new world, evolving our consciousness, anchoring in massive amounts of light, liberating our minds and opening our hearts all while tending a thousand funerals for who we used to be. This next chapter is called liberation. It's called a time to rise. It's called massive holy divine Multidimensional energy it's called a motherfucking revolution Rumbling from within it's called you welcome to your rebirth. I love you. I love it It's like that is so cool. Yeah, I like to think of myself as like a snake. I'm just a good snake Oh, yeah, just shedding layers. Yeah, you know what I mean? just getting rid of the old and just in with the new and You know, yeah. And I'll, I mean, a lot of like my fears, like my whole life, I've just wanted to belong like Megan. I've talked about, we've always felt like we didn't belong. We're fucking black sheep. Nobody gets us. I can't change myself enough to look like, you know, the girl that, that I always wanted to be. Her name was Kira. And she was a real girl. Like I wanted to look like her, be like her all that jazz, but it's. It's at this point where, like, I'm, I'm Different than a lot of people like in our organization. I'm different than a lot of them. Meg's different than a lot of them. And it's like, I'm, I'm loving that I'm different. I'm like feeling really good about not blending in. And I never ever thought that I would feel that way because all I wanted to do before it was blended into the wall, be bothering someone or taking attention away from someone because that was. Just my old way of thinking to, um, to like, not like I wanted to be seen and heard, but if I was, I was so insecure because I never felt that way. So it was like, there's this war inside of my own head and body. And it's, it's so good to feel true and feel authentic. Um, which I'm sure I've said on this before. I don't know what I've said on our podcast, but like, I'm, I feel real and true for one of the first times ever that I can imagine. I didn't even know what authentic. That word didn't even know what it meant when I first heard it. I thought it was like authentic baseball cards. Like that's what I like, not authentic people. I didn't know what being inauthentic meant. And now then you do the inner work, you feel Your fears become your friend, Dan Bolin, Daniel Bolin, who was on the podcast. He posted that on his, um, on his page the other day about making his fears, his friends, and I'm like, Oh my goodness, that is so cool. I never thought of it that way. And then just learning from the fears. What's it, what's it really telling you? It's, it's slowing down. People don't think about this stuff. We are not taught to think about this stuff. We are taught to be go, go, go, hustle, bustle, or just lay dormant and eat chips. Well, yeah, they don't want us to tap into our real like superpowers. Yeah. I mean, we are all have access to the divine, the quantum field. We all have access to it. Free access. Yeah. I mean, unless you want to be like me and buy all of Joe Dispenza's meditations, but that's just because highly recommend. But yeah. And you've, you talked a lot about, you know, where attention goes, energy flows, and it's something that I'm really at this stage. In my journey, I'm really playing that card hard in my life. You know, it's something that I've known, but I'm really Acting on it, you know, and as I'm reading, reconditioning the chapter, reconditioning the body to a new mind. And I'm learning about, I always like looked at my chakras, but I'm really getting into the deep look of our energy centers and what traumas we hold where and how diseases created where, and it's, it's just really, it's just incredible how we have access to unblock ourselves from pain and all these emotions that we store and we don't realize it. You know, no wonder why I used to have such bad gut issues and digestive issues and stuff. I mean, I was holding on to so much, you know, and, and it's science, science. It's not like he's not just pulling the shit out of his ass. I mean, I can love Joe Dispenza. There's so much amazing science to show what exactly is happening. Literally people hooked up. Their brain is being monitored at the exact moment and you can see the changes that people Are actually creating within their bodies from their thoughts and again, like everything starts as a thought So why is it so crazy that our thoughts can make us? Sick or well. Right. Like a lot of people that are like, you can't heal yourself. And I'm like, you can't, I understand that you think it's fucking weird, but where I get at is, I think it's fucking weird that we're human beings walking around a fucking rock, like in a floating planet. Like that's fucking weird. You don't think you think healing yourself is weird. Like, right. And that's where I try to like get into people's minds. Like think outside the fucking box. Yeah. I mean, our minds are incredible things and that's why like, I don't calcify my pineal gland whatsoever. Like your pineal gland, your antenna into the universe, stay away from that fluoride. But yeah, it's really crazy to know that like we blame so many people externally for diminishing our light, but we do it ourselves. our thoughts and our emotions that are in loop on loop on loop. We're diminishing our own light. So we're victimizing ourselves. So we don't want to be more, you want to be more energy than less matter and more wave and particle. Good. Oh, I was taking all my Joe notes. And I was like, and the part that you said that like 95 percent of. Our being is kind of solidified at age 35. Like think about it. This is, this is how it really like helped me actually understand that. 95 percent of the thoughts that you're having are the same thoughts that you had the day before and the day before and the day before. So like, no wonder. Change isn't happening because there's no room for change unless you decide you take that five percent of you That's possibly awake and alive which we both we both decided because it's a choice Everything's a choice but um And it I mean I hear all the time like I like the office that I work in Like the people are repeating themselves Constantly, it's the same stories. It's the same You Responses everything's the same. It's like they're on autopilot yes, and it just made me realize like you and I've been so obsessed with doing new things because it It shifts you, it shifts your thoughts, it shifts your choices, your decisions, it's just, like doing anything new, like even Dr. Joe says, like, even just taking a different route to work, like taking a different street, just doing that, it starts connecting different Neuropathways? Yes. Yeah, so Joe says that we have 60 to 70, 000 thoughts a day, the same as the day before and the day before that, yada, yada, yada. And those same thoughts lead to same choices. Those same choices will lead to the same behaviors. Those same behaviors will create the same experiences. The same experiences produce the same emotions. Those very emotions drive your same thoughts. So if you want to change your personal reality, you have to change your personality. So by changing your personality, you have to change the way you think, act, and feel. And I'm on that road to recovery and it's fucking amazing. Well, yeah, cause before we hit record, we were even saying, and I know we've said it here before, but for those who haven't listened to all 21, 20 episodes, we have, we did not like ourselves. much. I didn't like, I didn't like myself really at all until I got into therapy. I mean, that's when I started to like myself, but it still took time to feel like I actually enjoyed my own company. The whole, I hated being alone. I hated just being stuck with my thoughts because they were all so like, Just gross just uncomfortable Dark didn't want to live all of it just over and over and over. What's the point? Why am I here? What is the point in this? Why can't it just? Be over and not all I mean not all the time But if I sat long enough by myself, it would go there and I feel like that's why people Meditation is so uncomfortable because there is darkness in there But then if you go into the darkness, you can let you can light your match you can Like that is the whole point. We are all meant to like help each other light each other's Hearts on fire and, and bring ourselves back to that heat over and over like, like a campfire. Yeah. I mean, my, my light is bright and I'm willing to share my light with anybody, but you can't, you've gotta do the work. I'm willing to, you know, there's so many people in my life that, and I had talked about this earlier with somebody, but I was talking about like how, I have to just realize I can't change people as much as I want to just put their brain in, in, in my head and be like, all right, let me just reprogram to take me a little while. At least let me like do a little work, you know, cause I still got my own work to do, but it's, people have to want it themselves. And the minute somebody wants it and they're willing to start to do the work I'm with them a hundred percent, but I had, it's hard for me to accept. Yeah. That not everybody wants to change and some people are okay with being who they are and that's completely fine But I wasn't once I really started to change my diet and really started to have a little bit more clarity less brain fog And really kind of started to feel better. So I was thinking better same more clear Yeah, that was when I never realized how unhappy I was. I had no fucking clue, you know Until I started to have clarity in my life And like to really kind of take a step back. Like, do I like my behaviors? Do I like the way I think about myself? Do I like the way I treat other people? And my answers to all those were no, the fuck I don't. And that was when I changed the way I think act and feel. And so by there I've changed my personality and my personal reality. And my life has been nothing but full of blessings and still lessons. But it's fucking amazing. Yeah, I it makes me think of like being so stuck in my own head Because I was so anxious all the time like anxious about like Everything so like I I used to label myself with social anxiety And so i'd be so stuck in my head that like I would never drop into my heart and like think about What I could actually help other people with and they a lot of the time You We've heard this like in the, in the, um, industry of like self help or wellness. It's really about like the survival mind, just allowing yourself to think beyond that for just a moment, do something nice for somebody else. Cause I think that gets a little bit, um, um, just like confused with like, not putting yourself first. Like that whole, like you, you do have to think of yourself first. You are the, you are the star of your movie. You're the star of your movie. There's no one else, but you, you come into this world and you leave this world. You, so that is incredibly important that you're at the top of your priority list. But when you're anxious, what do you, what are you thinking? I was thinking what other people were thinking. I was thinking about. Who, who would be saying this or why they're wearing that? I'd be judging them. I'd be in this just like negative loop in my own head. That's not, that's not filling your cup. That is like literally making it's pouring whatever's in your cup, right down the drain. Yeah. It's like drinking toxins. It's like drinking, it's like drinking pop. It's poison, poison. So, um, I think that's like a cool thing that I learned to differentiate is like. Helping other people to help me get out of my head and into my heart and then learn to really prioritize me as, as like number one, but really number two, because if we didn't have the divine to like, that gave me life, that's number one for me now, didn't, I never looked at it that way before, never had a connection with God, the divine source of all that is life, never had that before. Knew about it, didn't connect with it. And now it's like, okay, because I have that, I have life, and I'm gonna, I'm gonna put myself high on the priority list. Yeah. I used to be, this is Meg by the way, I used to be, I used to take pride in how selfless I was. Extremely selfless. I thought about everybody else but myself. And that was probably the worst thing I could have done for my mental health. Like, and I took pride in it. Well, I worry about everybody else. Like I don't, but my health was declining. I wasn't taking care of myself. It's a really good point. Yeah. And I thought it would, you are extremely generous, like extremely. Yeah. It's amazing. What really is the superpower that you have? Well, and I also have, I want to call it a platform, but I also am in a position where I'm able to do, you know what I mean? But I was like that before, but I'm in more of a position where I'm able to do things for other people. And, and you practice abundance mindset, like, like no other. Yeah. But as I'm realizing, I'm like, you know what? I have to. Make sure my light is lit. My cup is full. I set my boundaries, you know, and it's important. It's okay to be selfish. It's okay to be selfish, but you don't want to be selfish to the point where you're hurting other people. You want to be selfish for your own health benefits and like your own time and boundaries, certain things. It's okay. Yeah. You know, to have restrictions or, you know, to cut certain people out or, and you also want to be selfless. It's, you know, important to serve. That's what we're here to serve and receive, serve and receive. Yeah. You know, that's what makes the world go round, you know? Yeah. It is so good. Yeah. So good. All right. It's five 5555. Thank you. Angels. Thank you guys. Thank you spiritual beings that are all around us, which sounds so weird. Never thought I would be this hippy dippy trippy girl, but I'm so loving my life And I'm so loving sharing it with all of you. Thank you so much for tuning in to the magical midlife crisis once again If you have a magical midlife crisis that you'd love to share We'd be so honored To bring you on, to share your story, a part of your story. We all have a story and we all deserve to be heard and seen. We are all one and one with all. You can't tell me that I will fall. I'll lift you up if you need a cup. I'll fill your coffee with my fizz. 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