Engagement Alert! 💍 From a Confessions of a Wannabe It Girl Hot Mess 🔁

Let's take a look back!  🔁
I spill the tea on my engagement story! I touch on the whirlwind of it all, from the ring shopping to the panic outfit shopping, and, of course, the actual proposal! But, it wouldn't be Confessions of a Wannabe It Girl if I didn't address societal standards for women and how the 'journey' to engagement is full of a lot of things you have to filter out.


https://www.theringboxes.com/
The #1 Themed Bridal Subscription Box of 2024!
Stylish bridal apparel, useful products + must haves for the bride!
Delivered monthly + completely tailored to your wedding date!
- **USE CODE: wannabeitgirl for 20% off your first. order!*** 

You can watch the full episodes on our Youtube
Youtube - Confessionsofawannabeitgirl

Confessions of A Wannabe It Girl’s TikTok:
@wannabeitgirlpodcast

Confessions of A Wannabe It Girl’s IG:
@confessionsofawannabeitgirl

Transcript

Engagement and Bridal Era Reflections

Speaker 1 0:01

Hey guys , before we dive into today's episode , I wanted to tell you really quickly about this awesome subscription called the Ring Boxes . This is amazing for your bride-to-be friends . It's a subscription box where they send you goodies every month and it just makes you so excited to keep on wedding planning . You know it's a dip and a dive sometimes and then really high highs planning your wedding . So this box really helps to keep you motivated while dealing with the wedding planning . This is a great gift to gift to your friend who might be a bride , or just subscribe yourself . Either way , you can use the coupon WANNABEITGIRL for 20% off your first box . That is theringboxescom . It is absolutely no secret that I am deep in my bridal era . I'm loving the bridal life . I'm living for the engagement photos , trying on all the things , doing all the wedding planning . It is honestly a part-time job and I'm kind of loving it . And Hunter and I just celebrated one year of our engagement , so I thought we would take a look back at this engagement episode . So let's dive in .

Speaker 2 1:14

Welcome to Confessions of a Wannabe it Girl . I'm your host , marley Fregging , and I'm here to help you filter out all the bullshit and become the next it girl . This podcast explores the reality of what it really takes to make it out there . As it turns out , it is way less Instagramable than I thought it was going to be . I'm still very much a work in progress , but there's simply nothing else I'd rather be doing than chasing my dreams . So let's learn from my mistakes and work together to achieve our dreams with more confidence , clarity and direction . Let's get after it .

Speaker 1 1:47

I've been encouraged to make a podcast episode about the engagement . Yeah , it's been a very exciting I'm very , very excited confusing moment because I'm here and I need to record a podcast . It's happening and I want to talk about my engagement , but it's all very one-person perspective , maybe a little bit two-person perspective , and I'm like does anyone even give a fuck ? Do people even really care ? Do you even want to know about this ? Why would on earth anybody care about my engagement other than me ? But you know , I'm just going to be really honest , I guess , and really real about the experience of how I got engaged . I've been with my boyfriend for six years . I did just say I'm going to be very honest , with a few ups and downs , nothing . Well , you know we've been together for six years and you know when we started dating I was practically a child . I was 21 when we started dating . We met when I was 20 . He was already out of college . He's been on the podcast many times , you know . So , yeah , six years to somebody might seem like a long time to have been dating , but you have to remember how old I was when we started dating , how old he was when we started dating . So in that sense , six years isn't really that long of a time .

Speaker 1 3:21

I'm 27 now . I was 27 when I got engaged . You know our friends now move in with their partners a lot sooner because we're a lot older , but at the time when Hunter and I started dating we were very young . You know we kind of have done our early 20s together . I was a junior in college , second semester junior in college by the time we started dating . So I did get a lot of single time , if you will , in college . But that twenties span , yes , I have spent that with my now fiance . I can swing it around , no problem , but hearing myself with the mic it go through me here at myself is kind of like , oh my God , like am I really a fiance ? Because even though I'm 27 , you know , and only three years away from 30 , and there is this really fucked up idea that I think particularly women not always , but particularly women feel by the age of turning 30 , that you know they have to be married , settling down , having kids . I think that's something that's been really ingrained in little girls . And I am three years from being 30 , also name of a play .

Speaker 1 4:38

But what was my point ? I'm all over the place . It's been a whirlwind . What was my point ? I had a good one . This is why I was supposed to write down notes . Guys , I'm completely winging this podcast . This is going to be one of the most frazzled all over the place episodes , because usually I write outlines and this was not the episode I planned to record today . I planned to record something very , very , very fucking different and then everyone was like , yeah , you should do that . And I'm like , yeah , I think it was interesting that I started dating my now fiance when I was 21 . And I basically grew up with my fiance .

Speaker 1 5:22

We didn't always live together , but you know , we've really done early life together . I do think it's important to note that we've remained very independent of each other . You know , there are plenty of times we do our own things . We have our own circles . Something that is really important to me in establishing a relationship is that you know you get invited out as just you , or you get invited out just him or her , whatever it may be . I never want to be only considered Hunter and Marley . I always want to be considered as just Marley and just Hunter , even though we are together . And it can be Marley and Hunter at times . But it should never just be just Marley and just Hunter , even though we are together , and it can be Marley and Hunter at times , but it should never just be only Marley and Hunter , and I think that is a important thing to have established in our relationship is that we are independent of each other , even though we also have a joint partnership relationship together .

Speaker 1 6:24

So even though we started dating very young , we did really have separate lives going . You never just completely gave into . Everything that is your world is my world and everything that was his world is my world . We have two separate worlds and we share a world together by choice . Not this is it and only it . Something my mom said to me , even though I think she's been gunning for this engagement for quite some time , is that there's no one right way to get married , engaged , moved to the next level . Everybody is very different . Everything is very personal . I actually talked about this recently in an episode with Alana . From seeing other people is you know , everybody's red flags , beige flags , green flags are different because everybody has different traumas , different experiences , different lives , different financial situations , different whatnot . You know because of everybody is actually unique . You know because of everybody is actually unique and so , even though it has been six years for us to get to this point , that was what worked for us .

Speaker 1 7:31

Yes , you know what I was with my fiance my entire twenties . And you know some people think that's like the time you're supposed to be single and traveling the world and I'm not saying that you shouldn't and I got to do a lot of that before I started dating him . And you know I got to still be with my friends in my twenties . Just because I was in a relationship doesn't mean like my friends and my twenties went away and vice versa . You know I I got to have him and grow up around him at that time . Yes , mistakes were made and whatnot . You're growing , you're really young at points , but like at the end of the day , like I did , kind of always knew I wanted to end up with him and I think he always knew he wanted to end up with me . There's no right or wrong time to meet a partner , let alone a forever partner . There's no rules .

Speaker 1 8:30

I think people have expectations about how long engagements are , how long relationships are , and I'm totally guilty of buying into some of them because it's what you've heard from other people . But at the end of the day you've heard from other people , but at the end of the day it's all unique and it's all personal . And I have to say I am very , very happy and I'm honestly shocked that I am here and I feel like I do Not , because I didn't expect to feel like I do , just because I've never been in this situation before . So I guess I'll tell the story of the engagement maybe , so I can stop retelling it to people on the phone . Actually , before I get into it , I want to start with one other thing .

Speaker 1 9:09

I've alluded to it and I've talked about it a little bit on the podcast that at a point I had a friend who I'm no longer friends with and we wanted very different things in life and I always knew she wanted to get married and wanted to have kids and I always thought I was going to be in her life during all of that and I envisioned that and she wanted those things . That was what she really , really wanted . And somewhere in me getting older and us having a little bit of space in between us , I realized those things were not my first priority and that they were going to happen in time . And now I am here getting those same things this person wanted and I just wanted to say that it doesn't matter that that's all she wanted . I don't know if it's all she wanted . I knew that was something she wanted and we've both ended up here and that's all she wanted . I don't know if it's all she wanted . I knew that was something she wanted and we both ended up here and

Navigating Engagement Ring Shopping Process

Speaker 1 10:10

that's great .

Speaker 1 10:10

It doesn't matter if you're the girl who goes to sleep dreaming about Prince Charming and this big wedding and whatever . You can get married and get engaged and have a loving partner and not get married . Or you can be fiercely career-driven , a hard worker , not be focused on relationships , find a partner and still end up here . My point being there's no one recipe . It doesn't matter how you get there . I think there is this really fucked up thing we put on women that that needs to be the first priority , and sometimes making it the first priority will also push the people you're looking for away .

Speaker 1 10:50

We talk about needy energy all the time on this podcast . Is that like needy green energy ? I've felt that in my career , is that I've been needy or green for my career and maybe I've pushed it away ? And I think it's very true of love . Nobody wants to date a needy or green person . But the point is , no matter which one you are , you can get there in whichever way , shape or form . And I'm not saying that like some big martyr , like I got here , you can get here too . I'm just saying that's what I think can happen , just like everybody can get to a point they want . It's just every journey is different and unique .

Speaker 1 11:27

Hunter and I had talked about getting married , like that's another disillusion I would love to throw into this conversation . I remember when I was a kid I asked my mom how my dad proposed to her and she was like , well , we talked about it , you know . And then you know , we went to the ring shop and then you know , eventually you propose . But she like really knew . And I was like , well , we talked about it , you know . And then you know , we went to the ring shop and then , you know , eventually proposed . But she like really knew , and I was like , oh , so it like wasn't this big ? Like surprise , da , da , da , whatever . And then I think you know , with the commercialization of the big , even being asked to prom , that we've made , where everything should be these grand gestures . And A not everybody wants that , and B it everybody wants that and B it's not required , you can do it any way you want . So my mom explained to me that's how she got proposed to , and so I did realize that maybe it's important to have the conversation for me . It was important for me to have a conversation saying basically , like I do want to get married and I'd like to get married to you you know it's not a proposal , but like you know , I'd kind of like to put it on the radar and it's kind of like the conversation of moving in together or like you know , we're going to save for this or we're going to go into business together . I think it's an important conversation to have to find out if you're going to do that thing .

Speaker 1 12:42

And we didn't have it just one time . We had this conversation multiple times , probably over two and a half years . This came up over and over again in different factors and towards do you want to have kids ? Do you not want to have kids ? What would being married look like ? Do you want to get married ? The range of how serious and how even silly of a conversation . This was happened multiple times and we talked about it on and off for a very long time and you know the answer was yes . So you know this goes back a couple months ago .

Speaker 1 13:17

I did . I was . I know some girlies out there who are really cool with getting whatever ring they fucking want . They're like they can pick it out . It will be whatever . I want to be surprised . I'm not that girly . I'm a little neurotic . I knew I needed to have a say in it and also you know for I've been very open about this that you know I thought I'd be in a different place in my career by now . You know , going and seeing rings and talking about this also helped me come to peace with the fact that maybe I didn't need to be the most successful person in the world before I get married . All of this really helped me through the process .

Speaker 1 14:05

But yeah , so I was not a girly pop who was cool with my then boyfriend picking out the ring on his own . I have . I needed to be involved in it , and that's not true for everybody , but I needed to be involved with it . So I went with my mom . We looked at many different rings , many different places I think four places , five places , five different shops , trips in general , and you know , I didn't know what I didn't want . I did know what I didn't want . I actually thought I wanted a really different ring than the shape and cut I have . Now it's even on my vision board as a different shape and ring , and I would put it on and I was really like this is the one I want . And then I was like , and I would put it on , and I was really like this is the one I want . And then I was like something's wrong . So you start to realize what you don't want , not what you do want At least , in my opinion , that's what happened to me is I was like ooh , actually I don't want this , I don't want that , I don't want whatever . And it was not clear to me , though , what I still wanted . So , yeah , I went five different times to five different stores with my mom to look at rings , and eventually it became very clear to me which was the right cut and size and shape and colors . And da da , da .

Speaker 1 15:20

So it was a long process and , honestly , I can say that I was not the happiest . Honestly , I can say that I was not the happiest the entire time . The first time we went it was kind of a fluke that we went to go look at rings . We were just in the area , that was fine . It didn't feel real to me yet . So it was kind of just like , oh , we're playing . Then the next time I went I was getting bad vibes from the sales associate . My mom had been a little like not snippy with me or something you know she said ticked me off . So then I'm irritable , so like can't say that experience was great . At that second store I didn't feel very comfortable there and I also really did not feel like the sales associate was listening to me , which was super frustrating . And then the next three stores is really when it started to like click for me . I was like really very into the experience . I had eliminated the absolute no , so I was a lot more focused .

Speaker 1 16:24

But also like diamond shopping is overwhelming . If you don't know anything about diamond shopping it is quite an education . I mean , everybody knows carrots . Here's my hot tip that I did not know Everybody knows carrots . They're like oh , you want like a ? This is ridiculous . Nobody would . Well , somebody probably does An eight carat diamond . That's like a huge , huge fucking ring . So everyone's like I want four or three or two carat diamond . The craziest thing is I did not know this and I'm probably someone's going to be like duh but carats relates to the weight of the diamond , not how big it is . So it has to do with how literally heavy it weighs , not the cut of it . So even though you could have a one carat diamond , the face of it could be cut very large to look bigger than it actually is . And that was something I could not wrap my head around . Like I kept being like I want it like every other basic veg , I want it to be bigger . I want it to be bigger , I want it to be bigger . My mom was like no , you want the cut to be bigger , like it doesn't have anything to do with the carrots , and I could not wrap my head around that . So there's quite an education involved in diamonds . There's cut , there's clarity Honestly , I zoned out because my mom's very good at that but basically all of these things affect the quality of the diamond .

Speaker 1 17:55

And then getting a brand name diamond , it's not even double the price , it's like almost quadruple the price of what that's really worth , and that was a shock to me . I thought it would be just like a little bit of a markup to have like a name brand diamond . No , no , no , no , no , no . It is like such a crazy markup . I was so shocked by that . So the education around the diamond industry crazy .

Speaker 1 18:27

So , yeah , by the time we went to the last one , I was settled in on what I wanted . It wasn't exactly this . It was not this ring I'm holding it up for those of you who can't see and it was not this ring at all , but it was similar in sense , if you will . However , it was not a gold band , so it was a silver man that I knew and I was like all right , I'm done , this is out of my hands . I'm turning it over to my mom to talk to Hunter and probably his mom and maybe his sister and maybe my best friend , but , like I'm done , this is it . I sent photos to my best friend and I was like I'm done , like I am done . Oh , also , in the middle of this , I went to DC . Oh , my God , maybe I went six times , jesus .

Speaker 1 19:13

I went to DC and I visited my grandmother and she took me to a store that carries jewelry and I saw a ring that was extremely unique and it was really different and I loved this ring , but I was like this is like , too , for me , too different . I want a traditional engagement ring . So , even though I love that ring and I honestly think about that ring and maybe one day for an anniversary I'm staring at Hunter's office just so everyone , maybe for an anniversary or a wedding present , I will get that ring as a gift . Everyone , maybe for an anniversary or a wedding present , I will get that ring as a gift . But it was like very , very not . I was like I have to have the traditional thing . That was for me . You could be someone who was like the traditional is too basic or blah , blah blah , but , like I said , there's no way to do this . So , whatever I go , it's out of my hands .

Engagement Proposal Anticipation and Anxiety

Speaker 1 20:04

Hunter and I went to Amsterdam . I really fucking stirred the pot on this one Before Hunter and I got , I'd say , re-engaged . I had a conversation with him last summer that I said you know , we need to do an international trip , the two of us . We need to make the time , we need to save the money , we have to put the energy into planning this trip . It's really something important to me as a couple that we show each other we can do shit like this , because my best friend , my one friend , always uses this example and it applies to the trip .

Speaker 1 20:45

She talked about this with her ex . She said , hypothetically the kids get out of school at 3.30 . I need to know you'll be there at 3.30 , not at 3.31 , not at 3 . Well , I guess being early isn't bad , but basically the point being is , you know you have to do that and that's how you'll be there and that's how , on some level , she knew he wasn't the one for her .

Speaker 1 21:09

And I felt like if we couldn't take the time to put our relationship and do this thing together financially , physically , emotionally , spiritually I always throw spiritually in it and I'm always like , but you know what I mean Then that's sign that like we aren't willing to put the energy into our relationship . So I told him on this trip a year ago do not propose to me in Amsterdam . And I mean , as you can guess , the story goes , we saved up the money , we took the energy to plan the trip and we went to Amsterdam and I had an amazing trip and it was great . As we're getting closer to this trip to Amsterdam , I start stirring the motherfucking pot . And I had an amazing trip and it was great . As we're getting closer to this trip to Amsterdam , I start stirring the motherfucking pot and I'm like I kind of regret saying that now and I'm like it'd be pretty , pretty , fucking cute if you proposed to me in Amsterdam and I did what every good girl does . I start blabbing my mouth to my friends about it and then everybody is calling Hunter and the story got so out of alignment Because I told somebody a year ago that if Hunter and I don't go on this trip , that we need to evaluate this relationship . The story came back like a whole almost year later and the story goes if you don't propose to Marley in Amsterdam , she's going to break up with you , and that was not true . So it got so twisted because I went out there starting the pot , being like now I really want him to propose to me in Amsterdam . So basically , keep your mouth shut and don't say anything , whatever . We got home from Amsterdam and I kind of know it's coming and I'm thinking like it's going to happen soon . It didn't happen in Amsterdam , it's going to happen soon . What not End of June ? Crazy June too .

Speaker 1 23:08

Amsterdam shot a project that I produced and acted in . It was a whirlwind , and one of my friends who was on that project actually also got engaged . So evidently the secret to getting engaged ladies , is force your partner into free , strenuous , 12-hour workdays and you'll be engaged . Evidently that's the secret sauce . I'm completely joking , don't do that at all . But we did just get off this short film project where we shot from 6 pm to 6 am and Hunter was literally free labor on that . And then he proposed to me after that and my friend who was a fellow producer on that she got proposed after that too .

Speaker 1 23:49

So , joke Point being , I knew it was coming and I usually have acting class on Saturdays . And Hunter was like are you busy all Saturdays ? And I was like I mean yeah , and he was like let's not do acting class this month on Saturdays and I was like that's fucking weird . And I got out of the class I this month on Saturdays . And I was like that's fucking weird . And I got out of the class . I'm in the Wednesday class , whatever . So he tells me we have plans every single Saturday this month . When I tell you at first I was like oh , my God , amazing , this sounds so fucking cute . Like can't wait to see which one of these he proposes to me at . So , like I know right , which , for some people , maybe you're like , oh , that's not surprising enough For me just sent me absolutely into motherfucking spiral .

Speaker 1 24:40

I'm thinking so you know , I'm so stressed out that this entire month , on Saturdays and Sundays because , who knows , I have to have a perfect outfit , I have to have my hair done , I have to be in a great mood , whatever I can't feel bloated , all the dumb shit I'm starting to really stress and I have this I'm not going to lie dread and I'm like , oh my God , why am I dreading this ? And it had nothing to do with Hunter and the fact that I wanted to be with Hunter . It was this life-changing event is potentially going to happen to me and is stressing me the fuck out . But for a second there I was like , oh my God , am I getting cold feet ? It is confusing to separate those and it did have nothing to do with that and I have talked about it multiple times with my therapist that I have an issue with anticipatory dread . Whenever something is coming up , I get dread , and so it was definitely part of a pattern I'm working through . But yeah , I'm getting so nervous .

Speaker 1 25:46

So the weekend before it was my friend's birthday and a friend asked me . She was like you know , is there anything you know we can do to make sure this is perfect ? You know , or like can assist . And she was like , is there anything you don't want ? And I literally said I don't really think he can fuck it up in any way , but I really hope there's a photographer . And you know , I was like it could be .

Speaker 1 26:11

I was like and maybe not the most biggest public thing . The example I continually use is I didn't want to get proposed to at Disneyland or at a major sports game . That was like too much for me . I was like no , that's , that's too much . Um , like too much for me . I was like no , that's , that's too much , um that . But I was like you know something ? You know a little like it's cute when other people see your engagement , but like it doesn't have to be like planes flying over in the sky saying like will you marry me ? And then the photographer and she was like okay , cool , so we comes around it's Thursday . And she was like okay , cool , so a week comes around it's Thursday .

Speaker 1 26:52

I think I called that friend and my mom and I'm like borderline crying because I am so stressed out , knowing that one of these potential weekends I'm going to get engaged and I don't know if you can tell from my style , I'm not the biggest summer dress girly pop . I have two summer dresses and I had just worn one to the 4th of July and they both happen to be plaid , so they're just like not the cutest , girliest dresses , but that's also not my style . So now I'm panicking because I feel like I'm trying to put on a costume to go get engaged or something where I need to go buy a costume which doesn't even feel like myself . I'm super overwhelmed because I don't even know if it's going to be this weekend , whatever . And I convinced my mom that I need to go shopping on Friday . I go shopping on Friday , I'm trying on a million different things . Some things did feel too girly for me . I was like this is too fucking girly . I would never wear this unless I thought I was getting engaged , whatever . And then I find the perfect outfit and then it hits me and I'm like I'm going to have to do this for three to four fucking weeks Every weekend . I'm going to have to panic shop Wednesday or Thursday , maybe even Friday , and find an outfit that I'm in love with . Because this is where the control freak really comes in . Because , no matter what , if I don't feel my best , like I'm going to be distracted or something , you know , I am just catastrophizing , catastrophizing , catastrophizing . Pick the outfit , whatever .

Unforgettable Surprise Marriage Proposal

Speaker 1 28:23

Now , this is where Hunter threw me off the fucking scent . I come home from shopping and dinner with my mom and dad . I come home , he's like my good friend's coming over . I'm like , okay , cool , well , I'm just going to go hang out with the neighbors . Him and his friend are just playing video games and I'm like okay , whatever , go hang out with the neighbors and they're fairly good bit , they're just watching baseball , we're chilling , we're chatting . We'll come up . I come upstairs , they're still playing Fortnite and I'm like , whatever , I guess I'll go finish my work . And thank God I did .

Speaker 1 28:54

Actually , I think Hunter he didn't in such a good way . I was like oh , I do have a few more work things I should get to , but I could just do them on Sunday , so maybe I won't . And I think he said something like no , like you feel best when you get them done , or something like that , which is true , but like he was , he like knew I wasn't going to want to do shit on Sunday . So I came in here I mean , this is also my office and I worked to like 1130 , 1145 . Like it was kind of late . Go to sleep , wake up .

Speaker 1 29:27

The Silverstone F1 Grand Prix is happening , or it happened at 7am our time and we always watch them the next morning . And I said to Hunter , if we watch the Grand Prix , I'm going to be late . They're qualifying , just so I don't get attacked by the F1 girlies . I'm going to be late if I have , if we watch this , like I was very honest , I was like I'm going to be late , like I can't go to the bathroom and see the TV , so like I'm going to be late . He was insistent . I was like , fine , watch the fucking Grand Prix , I get ready .

Speaker 1 30:06

And we were running late and I almost didn't put on the outfit I just bought because now I'm totally thrown off . I almost wore like a white collared shirt which sounds like I also fucking knew . But like I just like that shirt with like jean shorts and like wedges or something which thank God I was not wearing wedges or something which thank God I was not wearing . But I put on that outfit because I was out of time , I was late and I was like , well , I know , I fucking like this outfit . So I got to go and my hair had turned out perfect , my makeup had turned out perfect .

Speaker 1 30:35

I got in the car and I was like this would fucking happen to me . I would get this fucking ready and feel this great and love this outfit so much and I will not get proposed to . And I was like I have to tell myself this sometimes because my emotions are so strong and I was like you just got to , let it go , now , let it go . And so we're in the car and we're kind of quiet and I was just like let it go , whatever , you're just going to the Getty . We got to the Getty and I'm like I'd been anxious . So that was still like . You know , it's like an earthquake . The aftershocks are still maybe like running through my body , but I'm like , all right . Well , I'm going to go see the fucking museum Because , believe it or not , I'm actually a little bit of a nerd and I do actually like museums .

Speaker 1 31:31

Let's be clear , I'm not like Blair Waldorf and I don't like to spend hours in a museum , but , like , I do like museums . I do move faster than a grandparent , but I do really like museums , whatever . I'm trying to look at the fucking ancient coins and Hunter keeps being like let's go over there . I'm like you're acting weird and I should have known something was weird because he brought his jacket , and I'm like it's a summer day and you are never cold , sir . Whatever , he walks me over to the spot and he's like this is so pretty , we should take a picture . I'm like , sir , you never asked to take a picture . I always asked to take a picture . He was like oh okay , well , like , let's , let's take a picture . And I didn't say that , but I was just thinking it .

Speaker 1 32:10

And he goes right up to this guy . He was like oh , you really look like you know what you're doing . He has two DSLR cameras on his hip and he's like shooting pictures . He's like would you mind taking a photo of me and my girlfriend ? And it all was like click , click , click , click , click , click , click .

Speaker 1 32:30

But it happened so fast . And I'm also kind of like am I tripping ? It's like that stop moment where you go to check your pulse and you're like am I alive ? Am I dreaming ? Is this real ? Am I real ? Am I a speck of dust ? Those existential crises I have no idea what happened to . It happened so fast .

Speaker 1 32:46

And we're like , standing there and Hunter starts talking and I'm like , oh fuck . And I literally said the first line he said to me was you know , well , I'm not going to make you wait all month and I literally , in all the videos , even the one that is far away , throw my head back and go , oh my God , because I'm in such shock of this emotional rollercoaster that I've put myself through . And he just starts talking Um , and he asked me to marry him . I will say , hot tip . I wish someone had said to me it's a kind of cute note . Now , when he said will you marry me , I didn't even fucking blink . There wasn't even like a half second . It was like , oh my God , yes . I didn't say oh my God , for the love of God , I hope I didn't . I'm like flapping my hands and I'm like , yes , take a second and fucking breathe . I wish I had watched more promotional videos where they like breathe and then said , yes , I nope , not cute at all . I'm just like , yes , I'm sure the pictures and whatever are going to be cute and whatnot .

Speaker 1 33:59

And you know what ? The surprises did not end there . The photographer ended up taking photos of us for I don't know how much longer time . Then it was whisked off . Luckily I got to see my cat , came home for like two seconds , grabbed some stuff .

Speaker 1 34:15

Hunter told me we were staying in a hotel and we were going to get dinner and drinks with our families . And then I was surprised in the hotel room with like flower champagne and my best friend and my sister my sister , my future sister-in-law had , you know , arranged for there to be two white dresses there for me to try on and wear . You know , because Hunter told me that evening we were going to go out with our friends and I was like , oh my God , that's so cute . And I was like , oh my God , these two dresses are here , like should I change them ? And Hunter was like your outfit's so great . And I was like , yeah , I do really love this outfit , but like , should I change ? And he was like no , no , you don't have to change . And I was like are you sure ? And he was like , yeah , they're here , so I kind of want to try them on . So I tried it on and then we walked upstairs and I was surprised by our family and friends being there and it was honestly a wonderful day .

Speaker 1 35:17

I know this sounds cheesy and I feel like every basic bitch says this , but like I wasn't a girl who like dreamed about their proposal , but like I really wasn't a girl who dreamed about my proposal . Sure , I wanted someone to like get down on one knee and like propose to me one day , but like I could have never envisioned it going down the way it did . And you know , his sister and her friend and his family and my best friend were , and my parents were insanely helpful throughout this whole thing and it was absolutely the most magical day ever and I wish I could just live it over and over and over and over again . But now I'll have this fucking podcast . My mom told me something interesting when we were at dinner . She was like , make sure to write some of this shit down . Now I'll have this whole podcast and you do too .

Speaker 1 36:02

Something else funny I just want to throw in here , so we know my personality hasn't changed at fucking all . That night we did go out with our friends and I was like to the bartender , like I just got engaged , like I need shots and I'm like pretty drunk at this point . And he gives me a shot and I go to pull up my credit card to pay for it and he goes . And he gives me a shot and I go to pull up my credit card to pay for it and he goes . No , no , it's on the house . I was like amazing , the next day I'm on the phone with my friends and they were like yeah , I mean I asked , I said , was I a mess ? And they were like no , you were just really happy . But the bartender did start giving you shots of water and I was like thank God he didn't make me pay for that shot of water . Just funny , cute memories .

Embracing Individuality in Relationships

Speaker 1 36:50

So , all in all , I would like to say that there's no one way to get engaged , there is no one way to have a wedding , there is no one way to have a relationship . They are deeply unique and honestly , again , no idea if any of you give a fuck about this episode , but honestly it was a very chaotic Marley episode which we have not had in a fucking while . And you know what ? I started this podcast because I felt so out . I had never felt like I was in , that I was cool that I was it , that I had the thing , and even if you do have things like an engagement or that pinnacle moment in your career . You might never feel like you are it , and the only person who can give you it is you . And that is how I'm going to end this Confessions of a Wannabe it Girl podcast . We'll see you next Tuesday .