We are one with mother nature- just as the ecosystem goes through its yearly cycle of death and rebirth- as do we. People are seasonal, because we ourselves are seasonal. Releasing attachments can be a very daunting task but it is imperative fo...

Turning 30 is a monumental moment. One we all anticipate throughout our 20's for a variety of reasons. Well, my time has come to embark on a new decade. I found myself being quite critical of all the versions of myself that were born a...

Stability was a foreign subject to little Mary. It wasn't until I began living alone in my 20's that I really started to learn and implement a stable lifestyle. I was unable to keep a job, and working only to survive. Growing up I had ...

Family dynamics can often pacify toxic patterns and behaviors simply because the same blood is running through your veins. Growing up in a non-traditional manner has allowed me to see a plethora of families and how choosing to ignore unhealthy ...

In the season of solitude, I reflected on how I was showing up in romantic endeavors. I often times created fantasized relationships with people I just started getting to know. I found myself falling in limerence with anyone before a bond was a...

After being diagnosed with severe PTSD, I received the confirmation I was unknowingly seeking from a professional psychiatrist to acknowledge the war zone that was my childhood. I have been able to heal my mind from the painful experiences of t...

On this path of self discovery- this specific chapter called me back to Rio de Janeiro, Brasil. I came here to pick up my inner little girl. This is my mother’s home land. She dropped me off to family members here when I ...

TRIGGER WARNING- On this episode I share the story of what I consider to be the most traumatic event of my life. I have learned how the event of being abused was affecting my present day actions. Through the deepest form of shadow work I have b...

The bond I have with my father is one I hold near and dear to my heart. He has lived so many lives and our relationship has changed with each person he evolves into. The man I met when I was born was the first version of him I knew and it was a...

Being codependent means having excessive emotional or psychological reliance on a person outside of yourself. Many of us are codependent and don't realize that we are, or maybe we have just accepted that's the way relationship dynamics work. As...

I grew up in extreme poverty from birth up until the fourth grade. Having a mindset of scarcity and lack was introduced before I knew there were other ways of life. Even learning that there are  many other - better- possible ways of life, ...

I never had a good, memorable birthday in my childhood. All of the birthday's in my 20's were only 'fun' because I was under the influence of marijuana and liquor. Celebrating my 29th birthday sober was the first time I realized what pain I exp...

I have had three different birth certificates throughout my life and that has seriously impacted my sense of identity. I became every version of what others thought of me until I took the time to find myself. 

The number one indicator for how children grow up to thrive is the quality of the mother's happiness. I had numerous women fall into the mother role throughout my adolescent years and each one passed on their traumas. Whether the act was intent...

Core beliefs are formed before the age of five and if new behavioral patterns aren't introduced by the age of seven, your personality has been created. I learned that my spirit did not identify with the woman that I had evolved into. I took a d...